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Friday, December 30, 2005

A night out...

Yest met up with e girls at miss clarity cafe..anna,mich,xinying,cuijie n her ah boy, nash, came too..haha...so long nv meet up with them le...chatted n had fun...hahaz..ate there n then later went ard looking for another place to talk...decided to settle for breko..haha..as suggested by nash..cos...10pm le...everywhere close..starbucks,coffeebean...lolz...at miss clarity, we combined tables to accomodate the 6 of us..at breko, the waiter had to set tables for us...cos it was so crowded n there was no place to take us all..lolz..in e end, while we were ordering drinks, tis 2 guys gave up their sofa seats for us...hahaz...and the waiter had to keep e 2 small pathetic tables back..lolz..the place is nice...nice chillout...haha..another place added to my chillout hangouts... =X hanged there till quite late...reached home only to find tt...it has been quite some time since i last hanged out so late...lolz..oh ya..they gave tis drink card...haha...looks nice..

talked abt stuff...realised tt me n mich...really similar...girl, i heard wat u said..I decided to just let it be...for wat's mine will be mine...I dun have e courage like u, to miss him while still feeling happy...for he's e one who brought smiles to my face..

I'm not sure if u ever read my blog anymore..u said not to avoid u...i din...but r u avoiding me? we r still frens rite? u said so...then prove it to me.

Year 2006 is pressing near...a brand new year...which reminds me...in e past year...i have

- Graduated from school
- Reverted back to meat
- Hurt my back
- Gained weight
- Lost e chance to wear contacts
- Found job
- Worked at 2 different places n experienced culture shock
- A special someone taught me how to walk out of my misery, gain confidence in myself, trust him with my heart,body n soul
- Believed in love
- Forgotten how to smile

In this year, I hope to

- Lose weight
- Lead a healthy life
- Exercise
- Save money
- Smile...from e bottom of my heart
- Be happy
- Grow my hair long
- All to be fine n well for my family, frenz...all my loved ones..
- Not to throw temper, tantrum
- Drink more water
- Sleep early

Guess that will be all for e time being...till I tink of more...hahaz... =D

blogged at 9:52 PM

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

more tots

Wells...I'm still missing you... what happen to our tree? promises? is it gone?

i dunno wat to do...when i leave my house or come home...i dun even wana use the lift or stairs...anyting tt reminds me of u...hurts me deeply...leaves me empty...

Do i still have u? i'll wait...I have expressed my stand..It's now up to u. I still love u lots..If u ever need me, just let me noe..i'll b there for u...promise..

blogged at 6:52 PM

Monday, December 26, 2005

another day of my life

Met up with Ju today n 2 of her colleagues...took lots of fotos at waraku...lolz..food's good...but i din have much...hahaz...her new fone is nice...super oriental... haha...nokia fancy fone...

then shopped at this shop, bought some stuff...tried clothes...lolz...

then headed to chat at waterfront...after chatting n venting out watever i had inside, i noe wat i wan le...

but i'm afraid of the truth..

blogged at 10:18 PM

Saturday, December 24, 2005

xmas eve

Merry xmas to all!

today...i tried e mac spicy...they combined e two thin chops into 1...pretty spicy though... watched king kong...just like the comments given to me, it was nice, but darn long... lolz...

then went over to pris place for e meeting..

To someone: I'm sorry for everyting. I was a bitch to force an answer from u. but i guess u sensed e missing passion too.

I guess i was too much of a perfectionist...seeking perfectness in watever there was, however, there is simply no perfect anyting...

I'm sorry for all e time, effort n watever u have put in. U were right, we had it too fast.Its just me being stupid again.acting smart, mature, when i was unable to handle anyting...in e end, i just hurt myself n u..

i'm really sorry...it was my fault.forgive me.

blogged at 11:54 PM

Thursday, December 22, 2005

tots

Just suddenly remembered tt i had so much stuff to do...though sick with 2 days mc..yest..was a day totally wasted..today..i will go take my glasses, pack my room, throw out stuff (spring cleaning) and take ah ma n cousins to the delifrance treat..

yest when i went over to ah ma place for dinner, passed her a red packet..4 her bday..e first time ever i gave an elder a red packet..though not much..but it was nice..rmb the times when i was young n ah ma was e one who fed n bathe me, attended to my every need...ah gong too..but he's now in e home..suddenly..its like a feeling i cant describe.. time simply passes us..no matter wat happens...

was going thru some of my stuff just now when i realise tt i used to write alot..not now le, since i had this blog..mayb i should start back..hahaz..and put this under construction..

Was reading this book by a shanghainese woman and there was like lots of " yi zhen jian xue" kinda comments on life,men,sex. horrifying but true.

A fren is in pain n despair now..seeking advice..but in e state i'm in..i'm not sure if i'm actually in e right position to tell her anyting.wells..just hope tt all will turn out good for her..she deserves it..one who will care n love her.. =)

when i was not alone, i miss being alone..now left alone, i wana mingle with the crowd..wat do i wan?

if i went missing, will any1 look for me?

suddenly i rmb tt i used to discuss with a fren, how we wan our funeral to be like..how our wedding will be like, how our home will be like..to the extent of penning it on paper...

I shall be independent.

off to my room to pack stuff..throw stuff..will throwing away stuff change anyting? nopez...but it makes me feel beta.

wat a bitch..yes, tt's wat i m.

blogged at 8:41 AM

Sunday, December 18, 2005

updates...

Perhaps love is nice...watched it at bugis with him...then met up with pris n sam n e 2 guys...hehe...quite a nice date though... =D

watched aeon flux with judy at marina square...e cinema there rox manz...haha...ate carl's jr for dinner..wells...wat can i say? darn freaking big n full...

ttsh eye doc is cute...haha...he said i have developed an allegry to the contact material...must wear glasses for 2 months...gave me some eyedrop for 2 months...then if wana wear back contacts must in e 3rd month wear back...then wear i like as if i'm learning how to wear contacts...omg....so when april go back for e appointment, he can observe...haiz....contacts lenses is a temp solution....lasik is e perm solution....after 21...haiz...tell me e stuff tt i noe...lolz...

fri met up with jon, anna,xy,wilmer at wheelock fish & co...long time nv c them le... =D

sat went to make glasses at hougang mall..318 bucks burned...wells...its pay day....and i tink i beta get 1 since its gonna be glasses for me le...

tmr got talk...hmmm...signed up...but dun feel like going le...

warning: u beta do well for ur exams....or u will know! *bares teeth*

blogged at 6:15 PM

Sunday, December 04, 2005

pics....

Hahaz...as promised...e pics...e 1st is from korea by a colleague...i cant find e one from china....haiz...dunno put where le...

Today we din go to e exhibition...instead went to 2 temples...haha...did alot of thinking also...

Tink...over e years...i have become more n more vain...haiz...time to go back to who i m....haiz...

regret alot of stuff now....my haircut...my job..my diet...my eyes...my attitude....blahz blahz blahz...

okie...go slp le...nitez....eyes itchy again....haiz...

blogged at 10:37 PM

Saturday, December 03, 2005

Wat a Day! ="(

This mrg...was late for Jillyn's wedding..but onli missed e front part..she looked so pretty in her wedding gown.. =) arthur's sweet too...he sang for her after they exchanged the vows..so touching...made me was like kinda gonna cry...haha..

after tt went to tampines with rebecca n bought tis braclet... hahaz....starz!starz!starz!

then went to suntec to meet judy...i went yes eyewear...n ya...B&L having sale again...cheaper tis time round...wells...but bad news was on e way...I've scratches on my cornea n severe protein built up...got to do without my lenses for like 3 weeks..wear glasses...cos i wear lenses too often n too long...haiz...mayb i should go c a eye specialist...but e doc most prob gonna give me e following as according to e optimerist...normal saline eyedrop n an antiboitic eyedrop..haiz...the optimerist told me to go back to him in like 3 weeks time n he will test for me again.to determine if i actually can wear lenses again...u noe how its done? he actually kinda dye my eye with tis slip of paper n look at it with some blue light...haiz..it looks darn gross...there was tis poster tt showed how it looks like if urs was severe or minor...mine was e last stage...severity extreme...

then he started nagging abt how contact lenses r best not wore for more than 8hr a day, not wore everyday...how i should not be wearing them for so long n stuff..have i forgotten tt i actually do wear glasses la...i have to go home, just remove tis pair of lenses n throw it away...blahz..blahz..blahz...haiz...

then i was totally sianz la...then judy was like trying to cheer me up...thanks alot ger...really appriciate tt..

after tt we got tis toys r us brouchure, so we decided to go n see...was so tempted to buy e flower...haha...was toying with e idea of us getting for each other..then we walked ard n started playing...haha..nowadays de kids are so lucky.....in e end we nv buy e flower....haiz...cos judy say she must find container to put the flower...haha..e ting is..e flower is just...$3.95...its like so cheap lo...haha...e red rose is like so valentine's day...e pink rose sucks...e rest of e flowers...wells...look okie...i tink e red rose looks e best...

then went over to S&K and i saw tis pants on sale...haha..then bought it...$29 nia..its like cargo pants kinda n has tis super duper interesting feature...wear the top it becomes a overall, if u dun it becomes an interesting pants design..judy bought a belt..i had e pants altered...cos...my legs too short...lolz..

then we walked to bugis n ju was looking for her LBD..for e performance... heh...then we took 2 fotocards...shall scan them n put them up later...watch tis space ya?

then we walked to e national library n saw tis bowl exhibition...e bowls were unique lo...haha..nice nice...there was tis bowl tt allowed u to stick ur chopsticks at e side...tis fullof holes de bowl...nice indigo dyes de bowl...

saw e zheng he exhibition again..haha..tis time round walked ard slowly n really read everyting properly...its so interesting how it all happens..how far he actually went...

then walked back to suntec 2 collect my pants...haha...shall wear them to work to test water...see if they will say anyting..lolz...i wan uniform la...no clothes to wear to work le...sianz...

Mum wans to go to e today de health & wellness exhibition tmr..should i go? haiz...dun wana go out with glasses... i wan mei mei go out lo..not like tis...arghhhh....

shall go to bed le...its like 1 am le...haha..mayb i will go c a doc for my eyes...haiz...must save for lasik!!!! arghhhh....I HATE MYSELF!!!!!

When the swan is no longer e swan but an ugly duckling once more....how many will really care abt her?notice her? haiz...life suckz...

blogged at 11:47 PM