Friday, October 29, 2004
well, was at my sister blog..decided to rip soem stuff off from her blog..anyway must give her credit..hahaz...
*You learn to love, not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly*
If you're afraid to love a person because of friendship, you have two choices, either tell what you feel and let the love take place or hide the feeling under a friendship full of pretensions.
It's hard for two people to love each other when they live in two different worlds...but when these two worlds collide and become one, that's what you call magic!
Love can never be so beautiful without friendship...one leads to another and the process is irreversible...the best of lovers is the greatest of friends!!! I like you because you're my friend,and because you are my friend I care, andbecause I care, I love you. I don't love youbecause you are my friend; I love you because Ido!
Sometimes I've asked myself, what would make me happy? To think that I have everything else,I get what I want... then I realized it was YOU, too bad 'cause it's you can't have... I can't choose who I'm gonna love, but I also can't just love who chooses to love me...and you can't blame me in choosing to love you as much as I can't blame you for not learning to love me. I'm sorry if you can't love me the way you loved the one before me, so I'll let you go to find him/her and hope someday you'll see that the one true love you're looking for was the one who set you free...
"How can I say goodbye to someone I never had? Why do tears fall for someone who was never mine? Why is that I miss someone I was never with and I ask why I love someone who's love was never mine?"
Isn't it funny we're trying to catch the attention of the one we think we love; we hardly notice the one we're really looking for was just there. You don't notice them 'till they are in the arms of someone else...
Food for thought, think of this.. Have you really cared for someone more than you expected?Have you ever tried to love him/her despite of all the pain? Will you keep on loving him/her as he/she whispers someone else's name? Will you???
It's better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than lose that someone you love with your useless pride. When you love someone, don'texpect that person to love you back the same amount. One of you will be ahead, the other behind. It's either you catch up or the other waits.When you love, you must not accept anything in return, for if you do, you're not loving but Investing.If you love, you must prepare to accept pain, for if you expect happiness, you're not loving but using... True love hears what is not spoken, and understands what is not explained, for love doesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but in the heart...
Love is like standing on wet cement, the longer you stay the harder it is to leave...and you can never go without leaving your prints behind...Don't love a person like a flower, because a flower dies in season. Love them like a river because a river flows forever... Love doesn't have to have a happy Ending, 'cause love doesn't have to end at all.
Never be afraid to fall in love. It may hurt a lot, it may give you aches and pains, but if you don't follow your heart, in the end you will cry even more for not giving love a chance. Love may leave your heart like shattered glass, but keep in mind that there's someone who'll be willing to endure the pain of picking up the pieces so you could be whole again.
"The cruelest thing a guy could do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall!
21 Things that guys should N E V E R do!!!
1. make her cry ( never ever let a ger drop atear for you! She will make you cry harder in time.Trust me.)
2. compare her with other girls ( e least thing ucan do!)
3. let her wait ( this is v impt!!!)
4. raise your voice at her
5. neglect her (try & she'll say goodbye!)
6. force her to do anything. (She will do it, butshe'll REM how you made her do it too!)
7. humiliate/insult/criticise her (that's e worse!)
8. order her (she's ur gf, not ur maid!)
9. show her disrespect
10. lie to her (keep white lies aside)
11. leave her alone (she needs you everynow&then!)
12. pretend (be the real you!)
13. be insensitive (gers are ultra sensitive!!!)
14. be domineering (never even bepossesive!)
15. take her for granted (although she's urs now, but treat her sweet!)
16. rank her with your friends (unless she is No. 1)
17. sleep with other girls (ha, if u wan her to leave you, do it by all means!)
18. forget the goodbye kiss
19. forget to hug (gers love huggss!)
20. forget the 3 words 'i love you' (this means a lot to them!)
21. Spend her money (guys, take e initiative to buy her little stuff and make her feel provided for!!!)
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Thursday, October 28, 2004
to a fren...
mich: have read ur blog... rmb tis.. U R NOT ALONE...U STILL HAVE ME...we tok stuff out on sunday k? no worries... we can go do other stuff on tat day too..u dun have to be the one standing and giving others support all the times... there will also be times when u fall...times when u need someone..i cant promise to catch all your tears..but i will try to catch as much as i can....pour out wat is in your heart and u will feel beta...really...it will amke u feel beat...dun keep everyting to urself...
haiz...feel even more tired after sleeping... he called me at 15:15:43.... but i was sleeping...called him and got tat sweet bye bye ringtone again...hahaz....after calling him with my hp n home fone, decided to just sms and wait for his reply lorz....
when there's a will, there's a way....just saw tis off tv... i will hold myself up....i will be strong..strong for myself...for the ppl ard me...i have hurt ppl ard me le...i'm sorry...i really am..i noe sometimes sorry is not enuff...but tat is all i can offer now...
well, later will be working le....haiz...tink what huiyi say is true...my health not good still do night shift...haiz...watever it is, i need the cash..and i have to work...its a very simple tingy...need cash=must work...
but maxtor ppl...haiz...they hear tat i'm dropout from poly, heard tat i singaporean..got o level..then why work here...i have the feeling i'm like very extra...every lead girl and supervisor just ask.. u singaporean ah? why work here... can go find beta job ma... haiz... if given a choice i also dun wanna work lahz...the supervisor said there will b alot of OT...just hope to earn as much as possible...now tinking of wat to say when sch gonna reopens...haiz..
well...i'm like super quiet there lahz....dun reali feel like lying to evry1 i see there... so instead of saying i dropout not studying...might as well, just shut up and do my stuff....
blogged at 7:30 PM
to every1 out there...
some stuff for every1....dunno if u guys will read it lahz...but..well... guess just typing it out here also will let me feel beta....any1 who sees me now will get a big shock.... have lost 3kg, then slept less than 5 hrs for the past 3 days...from someone who sleeps like a pig into.... 5 hours for 3 days....haiz....
MiCh: just read wat u wrote on ur blog... i duno wat u found out... but if u wan to let me know, i'm always ready to lend a listening ear...okie, now to the msg tat u left for me...
well, i'm just feeling lousy now... will get over it de..no worries...remember i'm the walking joke.. the one who brings the fun n laughter...heez..no worries abt the birthday ting.... u have brought me alot of happiness with the card signed by group 3...by hanging with me on 24 10 2004 with the changing room tingy..hahaz...really..dun feel bad or sad or sorry... u dun have to be...i guess hiding and running away is the onli ting i can do for the time being...er...on me being upset with lots of stuff...oh well...tings seem to be going abit too rough for me now...but it will eventually get beta, i silently pray and hope so...
guess if it's meant to be it is... if its not, there is noting i can do rite? i'm just letting tings take its own course... i kinda agree with my fren.. its time for a break...see if he has any responses...well, which i doubt he will...mayb he's just saving me the embaressment of telling me he dun like me in my face...mayb my actions let him tink the one i like is e other one...when the other one is just a guy who can click well with me....a xiao didi...omg...but i'm also darn stubborn...may i need to hear it from him...mayb after hearing it from him, i still will hold on and press on...i dunno...am very vex now...haiz...
watever it is, u have brought alot of fun n laughter during the times tat we have spent in cptc...
XiNyInG: hey ger! it has been great getting to know u and everyting tat u have done with us...
dun worry so much okie...matters of the heart is are was were never easy... take it from one who is looking like a panda and suddenly dun need food n sleep.......
jia you...for ur sats n driving okie... thanks for being with me on tat day...hope i din give u a big scare...and also always going with me so bhb go ask them to take photos..hahaz..
it has been fun hanging out with you...we can till hang out when sch reopens ya? take care and all the best....
cHuIkEaT: erm...had wanted to apologise, tat day i reali is just want to slp de...but then in the end become tap open...haiz... sorry for wetting u...and thanks for being there....abt tat question tat u asked me in the shelter, i still dun have an ansswer....
wiLmEr: well, thanks for being encouraging and telling me stuff to cheer me up or to hong me...thanks alot...thanks for ur gift also...
huIyI: haiz... dun tell u u nearly guess wrong...hahaz... anyway, had somewat some fun when u were keen on noeing who it was...hahaz...
aNNa: u offered me a different view when i showed u the 3 photos... the spot the difference....hahaz...take care and all the best!
TrAiNeRs in CPTC : Thanks for all the encouragement on the last day...currently still stuck at a cross road...well...haiz...
oh ya.... yesterday saw adam, yinzhen, jemie, sykin at raffles city....then later went to meet yongjun to pass him his n ken cd...since i already pass adam n yinzhen one to them at raffles city...heez...tat xiao didi..dun wan to call me jie jie...well, he has to......hahaz...
i had beta force myself to sleep le... tomolo got some free health check up and it picked me n mum....9.30 at amk polyclinic...another after work go out...at tis rate, i will collapse....but i dun tink he will even be bothered.....haiz...
blogged at 10:22 AM
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
pics taken tis days
as promised earlier, photos taken over the past few days... the last days in CPTC and my birthday outing with the girls!!!! ( my "daughters & new wife" hahaz...)
must reali thank my wife, cos she managed to get her bro camera and into CPTC..resulting in the many wonderful meomeries that has been engraved deep in my heart...all the joy and tears....Ger, Thanks alot.. :)
19/10/2004 tuesday
me n isma in training room
ninja teary
teary acting cool in the female toilet!
guess I look beta without glasses rite?
me n Ck in the female toilet
Me n Ali, e security guard at CPTC
Me n the cleaning auntie at admin block
me n kristino! funny guy and one who will never fail to bring a smile upon my face :)
me wearing yongjun's jersey...first time ever i see someone in national team...hahaz.
me n raymond...he's the guy who gave me alot of advice while i was helping him fix the computers in the student project lab...
20/10/04 Wednesday
me n Melvin aka guanyu
me n Saras, a friendly girl
me, Adam (white long sleeve), Ken (in red polo), Yinzhen (white shirt) and xinying who is wearin the freshmen shirt with me...heez...
me n Yinzhen, a sweet friend of mine!!!! she's understanding and caring...
me n Adam finally... the 72 bian!!!
me n xinying...
me n Adam....72 bian again... but different location...hahaz...
me n Ken... tat guy ah... trying to act innocent and cute...hahaz...
me n tarmizi..one of the malay guys in Group3... very responsible and smart...
me n Xinying (my wife! we got ROM on tis day... hahaz...the bridge and waterfall there was absolutely like ROM )
me n huiyi, a ger who is sensitive to the needs of others...
me at the waterfall...
me n xinying...
me n ck at the ROM...hahaz...
me n xy at the garden n shelter there...
me n Ck at the fence...
Me n Kristino...
21/10/04 Thursday CPTC Grad
me n the cafeteria auntie
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me n xy!
me n loo shuin, haiz... if onli i had noe him early...he's a fun guy to b with...
Teary with Daniel soh.. who gave her alot of advice....
teary outside CPTC sign board...
me n Morgan Yap in safety centre
Me n daddy ong lai in audi...
me n Anna Li
Me n Ck in audi...
Me n K Guy
Me n Jemie.. a indo chinese...
me n yong jun... outside seminar room 2....
me, wilmer, ck n hy
me, ali wilmer n ck
Me n faisal (the tickler)
Me n peeh...Syafie...
Me n Ken..at the slope going to audi...
Me n fakhrul... the guy who disturbed me abt the mole and the finger in mouth, so cute!!!!!!
Me n tarmizi...
Finally a nice pic with onglai...
Me n Loo shiun..hahaz...
Me in Janice chair...heez...
the followings pics were taken on the train...with tons of ppl looking at us...hahaz..
24/10/04 Sunday Birthday outing!!! milenia walk, esplanade & J8
me n xy in the train..apparently mich have not gotten over the camera..hahaz...
me in the train...pic taken by michelle still...hahaz...
thinking over stuff in J8 swensens.... well...haiz...
my ice blended was darn nice lahz... though its cold...
feeling absolutely cold...
me n mich...tis pic is good lorz...hahaz...
Then we went to S&K to see clothes... in the end become they pick clothes, try le take photo...hahaz...
personally i perfer the 2nd set...hahaz... though the shirt's kinda big...hahaz...
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