Wednesday, March 30, 2005
my post got lost...again
Haiz..the post i type..is gone...wth...blogger seems to be giving me such probs tis days....haiz..waste my time...anyway..today i created a new drink...read more abt it in the bottom of my post..hahaz..gym was not too great today....alot of ppl...i must change the habit of talking to strangers....hahaz..esp. aunties...lolz...had kfc today....diaoz...root beer...long time no drink le...haiz..too bad no vanilla icecream...if not can make float le...then went over to coffee bean....had chai ice blended...the cinammon...was too empowering...so..I added alot of chocolate powder..after like drinking half of it....hahaz...it tasted good lehz...hahaz...mayb shld suggest to coffee bean and get them to do choco chai ice blended..hahaz...in the end....today too shag le...nv really study..jialat...sianz...feeling sick n tired...well..just let me get the darn cert....get a decent job, get a decent guy, get married, have kids, and die decently...hahaz...i rmb having tis female classmate back in sec sch..i still rmb her saying her saying her biggest wish is to die beautifully..hahaz..she was a simple ger with simple goals in life, goals so simple tat at tat time we all felt she shld ask for more...now, i tink i'm able to c on par with her....i tink i noe why she feels tat way le...indonesia got earthquake....hmmm..tinking of going to help after exams r over...hmmm...will mum let me go? haiz...i hope so...i wana try helping at all tis stuff...mayb for abt one week? heez...anyone interested?life is just so fragile...are paper qualifications really tat impt? Is physical appearance impt? is money impt? is being attached impt? is it wrong not to have certain qualities? haiz..life sucks..simply...when noting is going your way, life sucks...haiz...i really need light n guidance in my life now...mayb i'm too tired to do anyting or watever le..I dun wish to understand and refuse to understand....
blogged at 9:34 PM
Monday, March 28, 2005
GMP paper
Today had GMP paper...well..suddenly like cant be bothered how the paper is...lolz...jialat...then had AIC lab..then alter like v early....then anna also say like v early...so we went delifrance n discuss a big plan...well..i also dunno la...but i guess...hope tings turn out fine lo...I finally receive the cheque for the 2 days i work le..but the road show pay still not here...kaoz...haiz...i'm broke..but well...i also dunno how...i'm not gonna be kuku n go all e way to paya lebar la...its like...wat the heck...one month later then get cheque...haiz...jialat siaz...well..tmr..got pharma n petro tut...feeling tired..me go slp le... sianz....
blogged at 11:02 PM
Sunday, March 27, 2005
haiz..sianz...
Well, slacked much over the two days...tmr is GMP paper le..hafnt studied much..just feel like sleeping...which i have..hahaz..well, GMP is just sianz... its like so dry..like got alot of ting to rmb n yet like dun need to study can write out de...haiz..dun have the mood to study...sianz..sianz...sianz...as long as dun fail can le..as long as can grad can le...hahaz...i'm so sick n tired of everyting...just give me my diploma and a job..hahaz..life is a struggle..i guess i need a break...i wan to feel new..i wan to get away from the past...and look into my future...if there is one..hahaz..
blogged at 9:11 PM
Friday, March 25, 2005
studying/slacking day
Just reached home..let's see...today, i went over to serangoon gardens...slacked/study abit at coffee bean..with xy,wilmer n anna..had mocha ice blend as usual..hahaz..hafnt tried the chai ice blended...hahaz..will try soon...
then met up with kangwei..with wilmer n anna..walked to chomp..too many ppl..walk to the market there...the good stalls all closed...my fone was like ringing...in the end he confiscated my hp.. -_- hahaz...then in the end we walked to have prata...hahaz..chatted quite abit...
ken was online just now..hahaz.. well, i kinda wonder how he is le..wondering whether to tok to him anot..then finally..he just said a =P gtg cya...hahaz..dunno wat to say...
hafnt reali studied today...ended up laughing...hahaz..cos...sgn grd got too many weirdos.. =P for example..a red adidas shirt guy...
tmr...must reali start on gmp...haiz..actuali...like dunno wat to study also lo..like alot..then again...like so little..lolz..contradicting..just dun feel like studying..sianz..tmr going to school to study...then going yishun..for dharmma session,sun going to go pray my own grandma..haiz..how to study.....sianz....bo mood...means bo mood...how to cramp? haiz...........
well..gtg slp le...tmr is another long day....
blogged at 11:48 PM
Thursday, March 24, 2005
headache from a horror movie
back from the movie...well..i din scream la...hahaz..but got headache after the show...cos i was like covering my ears and eyes closed..and i sat low...cant so blood circulation not very good...tmr meeting kangwei for chomp chomp dinner... =) wonder how he is now...lolz..next mon GMP exam, friday process....haiz...have to start studying le...haiz..i hafnt started...haiz..no mood...i wan my motivation lehz!!!!haiz...just now when i came home, the downstairs auntie saw me again..haiz..she ask me study until so late ah..then i told her i was out..she ask me go pa tor ah? then she asked where is the guy who send me home the other time..i just smiled and walk away...haiz..she always ask me where is tat guy...how to tell her siaz...everytime she see me she will ask me tis question...dun wana b rude..mayb the day i cant stand it, i will tell her he in jurong...hahaz... notti notti me... =P okie, i'm sleeping le...heez... wana watch swing girls ,be cool n miss congenality 2!!!!anyone interested?
blogged at 11:38 PM
the eye 10
Yest someone used some nv c b4 no to sms me..lolz..turn out to b yongjun..he managed to get into RP le..had conference with his fren Zen..another lamer..hahaz..cannot tahan...After the fone call, some meomeries came back..tings so badly wanted to let go n forget...been telling myself it does not matter to me at all..I guess i was wrong..well..i guess, at least its not as bad as compared to a month ago... =) I will move on de...i remember jesse ask me tis: do u wan to move on or stay ard? i hafnt draw the diagram siaz..went to sleep yest..haiz..the questions also hafnt do..hahaz..feeling sianz...Tonight gonna watch horror movie..haiz..jon actually managed to get xinying to watch also...so i'm also going le..hahaz..my last horror movie? dark waters..the jap movie.. hahaz..imagine...so long ago de..hahaz..hope i dun get too freaked out...To a fren: Life is full of challenges, mayb now u just stumbled n fall, but never stop trying.If u r tired, rest..give urself time to recover,then bounce back on track! I have confidence n faith in u..U r one who is able to hold on to what u believe, one who is strong if u wan to...u can make it de! Jia you! Every cloud has its silver lining.Only after a thunderstorm then u will see the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.. =)
blogged at 9:31 AM
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Singapore bans AIDS concert, citing gay artists
http://sg.news.yahoo.com/050323/3/3rfyy.htmlSINGAPORE, March 23 (Reuters) - Singapore has rejected an application for a concert by a local AIDS support group, citing concern over its gay performers following a spike in HIV cases.
Los Angeles-based Christian gay pop musicians Jason and deMarco were the planned feature performers for the April 3 Action for AIDS event organised by Christian group Safehaven.
"Based on the duo's website and reports of their performances in the United States, it is assessed that their performance will promote a gay lifestyle which would be against the public interest," said the Media Authority of Singapore in a statement.
The ban follows comments this month by a Singapore government minister who said a gay and lesbian festival in August last year may have led to a surge in the number of local AIDS cases, a remark that outraged gay activists.
Although Singapore has one of Asia's lowest levels of HIV infection, the number of new infections hit a record high of 311 cases in 2004, up 28 percent from 2003. A third of the newly diagnosed cases were gay men.
Gay activists say many the remaining two-thirds appeared to be heterosexual men who caught the illness from prostitutes in nearby Southeast Asian regions such as Indonesia's Batam island just an hour's boat ride from Singapore.
Safehaven said the concert had aimed to raise funds for AIDS programmes and increase awareness about HIV among gay people.
"We invited Jason and deMarco because they are a monogamous couple for the past 5 years and we wanted to send forth the message to the gay community that a monogamous relationship and responsible attitude towards sex should be the approach to take," said Peter Goh, a coordinator from Safehaven.
"We did not intend, and still do not intend, for this to be a gay concert," he said.
Singapore's gay community has only recently enjoyed greater freedoms and after former premier Goh Chok Tong announced in 2003 that homosexuals were now employed in the civil service, a low-key policy shift aimed in part at fostering a creative class.
He said homosexuals could hold key positions without fear of discrimination -- a move once unthinkable in a country where oral sex even between men and women is still technically illegal and punishable by up to two years in jail under current laws.
"It is unfortunate that the authorities rejected the license. These people had good intentions, they wanted to do something for its community and help us as well to give funds to our prevention efforts," said Brenton Wong, a spokesman for Action for Aids. WTF.... wat is wrong with singapore....haiz...stupid siaz...wan ppl to accept then give tis type of crap..contradict themelves only...haiz..
blogged at 3:34 PM
to do list!
In project lab now...haiz..missed pharma lect..again..more than half of it..lolz..later meeting bear to get the discs...heez..meeting up for dinner too.. =)gtg for class le...left with the following to complete:process questionsprocess diagramgmp lab rptAIC ReportGMP tutorialProcess tutorialpharma tutAIC CMS quizlolz...tat's abt all...alot of stuff to do huh...haiz..well, left so little time le...must get well soon n finish them all..
blogged at 12:00 PM
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
sick sick sick
Still not feeling well...missed AIC tut today...haiz..today pharma tut made me discover tat..missing out on one lecture reali lags u behind..i had no idea wat sunil was talking abt today...haiz...
today i laughed till i nearly cried...hahaz..long long time nv laugh so happily le...all thanks to someone...LKK..hahaz... dunno whether to hate or to thank him...hahaz... i will pass de lo...mark my words...
well, back to doing my report le...heez..
plans after exam
marina steamboat
fish head curry
cycling
m'sia, thailand,taiwan if possible...hahaz.
job
my better half =)
okie...enuff of dreaming...hahaz...got to get back to work le...gambette!!!
blogged at 10:37 PM
Under the weather
Well, now got AIC tut...but i hafnt finish my SOP..haiz..so i'm still at home..hahaz..still feeling under the weather lo..haiz..so many tings to do somemore...haiz...how to recover siaz...hate it when i'm sick...my normal productivity already quite low le...me being sick will onli make it worse...haiz..later got pharma tut..i discover tat missing out one pharma lect..is enuff to make me miss out on alot...haiz..the prob with good lecturers is tat u cant afford to miss out any lecture...or u will b darn lost...tings to be completed by today:- SOP
- Hazop report
- process diagram
jia you worz!
blogged at 10:58 AM
Monday, March 21, 2005
AIC results
when love dun matter so much..u'll eventually let go of love..we're just selfish when we made our friends into lovers..cos lovers separated too easily..
《忘不了》
歌手:施文斌
翻开一本旧日记
记载着一段旧恋情
每段都那么的甜蜜
往事历历在这里
曾看过多少的风雨
曾说过要到哪里去
曾做过觉得傻的事
爱过在这城市里
昨晚下了一场雨
让我忽然梦里见到你
躲在某个地方哭泣
好想紧紧抱着你
有一次从朋友口中听到你消息
我的心都在发抖
你是否孤身一人
我不停追问
分手两年后我还是想着你
多久没有见过你
现在你住在哪里
只怕有一天我们都会老去
只想留一点回忆
能够让我们依靠
我在一个咖啡店
透过玻璃窗往外望
你的人影无所不在
无心无魂的想你
为什么人总要等到失去才珍惜
我来不及想告诉你
要永远不分离
A song that i been listening to repeatedly tis days...nice song..
Today..got back AIC results..i passed! hahaz..anyway,i got tis card from Mr Quek, he's leaving nyp le..haiz..tot next time after grad le can go look for him...heez..anyway here's wat he wrote for me
Regina, in a way you are a bit of a loner-just like me. I admire your mental strength in going it alone and overcoming the challenges.wahz..i din noe tt i have got mental strength...heez..well..to u sir, all teh best in ur future endavours.....
still feeling quite sick lo..haiz..fever,cough, flu,sore throat...wat more can be worse...haiz...
today in AIC lab, saleha came talking to me, was talking abt guys, then joel said someting very true: when guys dun wan to cont the r/s anymore, they will come up with all sorts of excuses...
suddenly discover tat i have got alot of stuff hafnt do...jialat..
well, off to do my stuff le..
blogged at 8:20 PM
Saturday, March 19, 2005
sick, india
Today...slacked ard the whole day...feeling sick...haiz..One of my relatives just got back from india....seems like a cool trip! I got a shawl, mum got one..my sis got tis bangle...hahaz..anyway..my wrist pretty big lo...the bangle will not look good on me..but i like the bells..lolz..its very indian...hahaz..actually i have liked the sari...but i tink wearing one takes too much time..hahaz..but the overall effect looks good..tried one b4 at little india...hahaz..the price was even beta...cos the one i tried was a silk one...lolz...hafnt done anyting..sianz..jialat...duno how le..so many tings to do...hazop, sop,process diagram,process questions...tmr dad gonna go watch motorbike racing....i was supposed to go with him la...now..i tink i beta guai guai go do my stuff...haiz..sianz..in abt 3 weeks..everyting will b over...when it is all over, i will go n have fun...hahaz..gonna contact everyone and meet everyone...see how is everyone doing... *making a mental list of who to meet..heez*
so ppl, get ready for my calls n sms ah...lolz... =)
blogged at 11:40 PM
Friday, March 18, 2005
Hitch
I finally m able to do wat i promised..finally able to watch hitch with judy le..nice movie..nearly laughed myself to tears...the whole cine was flooded with ppl la..lolz..we cant get back seats..so in the end we sat in front...hahaz..
The movie...reminded me of some stuff..haiz..watever....i wana look forward..to my future...but..why m i rejecting everyting tat comes my way?haiz..i wana open up my heart..but i simply cant now...haiz..teach me how to accept someone..
went for a facial..got brows plucked again...boy i tink i'm becoming sadist and m enjoying it...lolz...my wallet's not enjoying it though...
gonna watch the swing girls or sth..lolz..its a japanese movie with this group of gers who wana become a jazz band...lolz..funny movie la...the trailer was great..its by the same ppl who did waterboys!!!
hell lot of stuff to do..tmr got to like be at tiong bahru at 7.30am...omg...dun need to slp le...haiz...
off to do my hazop n SOP..got to draw tat darn diagram also...haiz...
blogged at 10:42 PM
Fotoz!!!
Me & ATT at tampines..got this pic, credits to yixiong..who is now using it as his avatar...hahaz..
Hard at STUDYING? omg..no lahz...act only lah...
@ S474...Was talking to Anna, when mich took tis pic.. My new jacket!!!
CK bday celebration at Marche..got a staff there to take for us..
The gerz @ the Sky Garden..as CK put it..GANG DATE..hahaz..
Me & CK feeding each other...the frozen peach...boy..it is cold... brrrrr...
The gers again...hahaz...got a female smoker to take tis for us...
Me & my wife!!! Xinying =)
hahaz..i got robbed of my kiss...again..hahaz.. =P looks great huh? mayb one day it will be taken from the front...lolz..
blogged at 2:11 AM
Thursday, March 17, 2005
AIC/TM/TP
Today AIC test...gone le..i see the ting i also dunno wat...lolz..just anyhow do...hahaz..see if quek will pity me and gimme marks..hope he dun fail me.. =)After the test..took 72..hahaz...got 3 amk ite guys to entertain me on the bus...so the ride was not too bad..got ppl sing and entertain me...somemore they wait for me to get out from my seat n out of teh bus..then we walk to tampines mall together..lolz..buay tahan..they reali jokers siaz...when i reached tampines mall....long queue for the movies...haiz..at first judy say her briefing got cancelled...was planning to go marina for steamboat and watch hitch...in the end,she still have..haiz..so we had pastamania and chatted...i show her all the sms le..after tat..i actually deleted them all..hahaz..a brand new start!!!!another big step!!!!I turn the egg tingy at tampines mall there...i got tis dog which was wat i wanted from the machine, judy din get wat she wanted, but its still a pretty cute green dog...heez...its now hanging on my hp... =)I saw ATT at tampines mall...i shouted her name...when she saw me she was like omg..regina is tat u...look beta le..lolz..then we took a foto..using her hp..she went like she must show everyone tat she saw me..hahaz..then i pei judy go back to TP, saw cawley...he onli saw judy..then at the drinks machine then he finally saw me..haha..still ask me i study in tp de mehz..lolz..i really change alot le ah?lolz..then i went to take bus 8 to toa payoh..then tried some gui lin gao...its vegetarian de worz..5 bucks...hahaz..not bad..then there got rotiboy!!!hahaz...erm...so i...hahaz....diet plan all down the drain...then i bought a top from baleno...hahaz...was actually tinking of getting the pink one...in the end i still bought the blue one...omg...wat has come over me?hahaz...2nd april going to go for marina... =) good friday meeting kangwei for chomp chomp! hahaz...he says to inspect n see tat i'm okie le...lolz...bro, i also must see tat u r okie le!!! heez...tmr going to cathay to watch hitch with judy...finally!!!hope there r no hiccups le.. sat n sun working for jesse aunt.. yeah! can work ard kids le...hahaz...after i finish most of the reports, i'm gonna go apply for the NIE..decided le..i'm gonna try.. =) wish me luck ba....i hope i will not get the woman who told me to go study JC and then come back n apply for a position...hahaz..i still rmb her curly hair...lolz..okie...i go eat dinner le...
blogged at 7:56 PM
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
AIC test...tmr...dooms day..
Just learn abit more on for the AIC test tmr...everyone seems to be like having an easier time than me...lolz...i guess it should be okie le ba..i also dunno..i just cant get the so called model de la...haiz..was having a chat with nabilah..hahaz..complain session lo..
I hope tmr..i can do lo..lolz..
Tmr finally can watch hitch le..hahaz...all the best to judy!Hope tmr will turn out fine for both of us..and we can finally enjoy the movie lo..hahaz.. =)
next movie to watch...huffalump!!! Miss congentiality 2!!!
All e best to everyone for the test tmr..hahaz...
blogged at 3:33 PM
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
stuck again..
Well....i'm okie le...ppl who saw my msn nick, i'm alright le..not to worry...just having some probs and feeling pms...today..quite okie lo...hahaz..had a great tok after school..gonna launch into a big plan...hahaz...wondering if i shld go apply for NIE la..lolz..mayb i shld..but it will mean i slog 3 years for noting...hahaz..mayb i should just go try..everyone is like so into it now...lolz...xue fen was saying tat why sometimes i wear until very feminine,yet sometimes like today i wear until very hiphop...erm..does loose jeans n big shirt n big bag mean hiphop..hahaz...cutest comment i have heard today..hiphop...the last word i will have on me...din noe how to reply her siaz...so i just said, when i feel like a ger, i will wear like a ger, when i feel like a guy, i will wear like a guy lo...hahaz..lame answer rite? but wat else can i ans?hahaz...at the coffeeshop saw some guys...lolz..was like pasing comments le...lolz..i'm back to observing guys...hahaz..is tat a big move?hahaz..i dunno...just make myself happy la hor...life is short...where is my better half? lolz...i'm starting to be like a mix of meide n meili...tink the show is doing me more good than bad i guess?hahaz..just now was watching the 9pm show..it has like become a family tingy for all of us..hahaz...dad was commenting on the meide very wilful,he say must spare a tot for others, say wat tat's the virtues of being a woman, then wat must consider tat zheng xi is a single child..lolz..then i was like huh?i'm also like tat de lehz..now alot of ppl liddat de wat...i told him say wat meet the parents very frightening..then he just tell me then u beta dun find those with single male child de...i told him i dun like single male heir..very creepy..lolz.then mum n dad was saying...ppl spend so much effort, time n money bring up the child..u say wat creepy..must show respect for the parents..mum also say tat the more u dun wan, the more it will come to ya..lolz...ya lorz...come to tink of it..quite true...idiot n someone is both e onli male heir...lolz..dad was telling us(me n my sis) not to go home late...got a riding instructor help tis ger catch a molestor...omg..at my house here nia...so biantai....dad's dig at us is...at least the ger knew how to shout and was calling someone on her hp, if it is us, how? will we just be silent?hahaz..okie, have ripped the discs...time to go slp le..everyday i come home, is eat,watch tv,play com,sleep...jialat...when will i be able to settle down n study....well...i cant study at home de la..then now liddat...dad sure wun let me come home late late le...haiz..jialat...how to make time out to study le..then i must watch the 9pm show lehz...lolz...jialat...may buddha bless and let me pass..let me grad...hahaz.. =)
blogged at 11:48 PM
Monday, March 14, 2005
haiz..
i admit..i'm not as smart la..dun need to put me down tis way...haiz..when i put in everyting i got, i get teased, when i cant put in all i have i also get teased...wth...haiz...well...i guess really cant please everyone...
was so pissed by everyting..i went to J8 after school..my sis was looking for her ppt clothes..met her there..walked ard..saw tis reali unique ring at felin..its a guy n ger ring..together they form a hearty shape..its darn cool la..costs abt 900+...pretty worth it if u ask me...hahaz...perfect as a wedding ring.. =) my sis was still saying if not we get..then i take one she take one...lolz..trust her to tink of sth liddat...girl ah, i dun buy ring de...ring is ppl buy give u de okie? lolz..
got so much tings to do...so much stuff dun understand...can i really grad? sometimes i doubt myself...
well, guess its beta to just do watever i can lo...haiz..i also dunno le la...life stinks..
blogged at 11:28 PM
Sunday, March 13, 2005
end of roadshow
Well...am very tired now...2 days...passed just liddat...i sold 20 sets in 2 days...8 for yest, 12 for today...lolz...the highest is me le...heez..n i onli work 2 days...the whole IT roadshow is 4 days...lolz...so happy.. =) feeling abit richer...really not so stress le...heez...can go shop shop le..BUT...school is still stress lo...haiz...so many tings to do...haiz...
the kenneth very joker lo...cheng san also...hahaz..kept saying tat i got enuff for my shopping spree le...lolz..when daniel was reporting how much we sold...he just said..winner regina..20..i'm the onli one to hit the 2..hahaz..got ppl is single digit n ppl with 10+...
mayb tis is wat they mean by 情场失意，战场得意...lolz..
will be receiving pay by cheque..by mail..haiz...got to wait...sianz....
mayb next time i should consider working exhibition....i fare quite well in tis...lolz...from last time..until now...my skills not lost lehz...lolz...
next week mayb helping jesse aunt...wahz..tis 2 weeks...i like got cash coming in...hahaz..but my school grades..like going down...haiz..
okie..got to get back to my school work le...haiz...sianz....i go make supper first....tired...mayb i should just pretend sick...tmr dun go school...but..got 2 labs tmr...haiz...
blogged at 11:54 AM
Saturday, March 12, 2005
First day at work
Just bathe...lolz...today road show first day...lolz...before i work..i popped like 5 panadol for mens...lolz..then later i discover tat working can really get my mind off many tings...i din eat bfast...ate onli at 3pm...lolz...when everyone had already eaten...then later kenneth came in to join me...lolz...he really reminds me of someone lo...hahaz..in the end....i onli ate like 1/4 of the rice..then i cover up and like got out of the room...kenneth was like asking, u eat so fast ah...hahaz...he also asked u have difficulty selling ah when i told him i still hafnt sold any...haiz...stranger also concern abt me...jialat..really hate to eat alone....hahaz...make me no appetite de...lolz..jialat...i'm such a troublesome ger...8 plus near 9 then i discover i hafnt had dinner...lolz...i tink i like too ciong le...dun need drink water or eat sia...hahaz..m so stunned by myself....i very long nv concentrated so much on someting le...i'm like proud of myself...hahaz...teary so BHB....some stupid guys and customers reali...haiz..but got those really good de lorz..hee...i tink i sold 7 sets today...hee...must do beta tmr..daniel says tat will let us noe the figures tmr...tat sylvia ah...still tell joel so much of my pai seh tings...haiz..make me so throw face...Tmr boss de boss coming down....jialat...tired siaz....i still got so many tings not done...next week still got jesse de kids training...wahz...suddenly i'm like so busy...lolz...okie...i going sleep le...darn tired...throat very pain...from all the talking and no water...tmr i going to bring water with me everywhere....lolz..
blogged at 11:43 PM
Friday, March 11, 2005
thailand?taiwan?
We will meet 3 people in our lives
1 who shall be the one you love the most
1 who shall be the one who loves you most
1 who shall spend the rest of life with
Firstly, you will meet the one who loves you most
and learn the meaning of love
As you discover the feeling of love
you will find the person you love the most
When you have experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved
you will meet the one that suits you most
and spend the rest of your life with her
Sadly, these 3 are never the same people
The person you love the most
is never the one who loves you most
The person who spends the rest of life with you
is never the one you love most or loves you most
He juz appeared at the right time and place.When you leave remember the place where you have left me
If you go back and i'm not there it doesn't mean i don't love you anymore
i juz love you that much
i've left to search for you
In this life, I only ever
Loved one and once only.The one You. Yest went to marche and celebrated CK bday..its an early celebration la..hahaz..well..she now 21 le..so cannot call ger..well..lady, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!had much fun...well, shall post the pics up in my foto album once i get a hold of them..hahaz..leg super pain...haiz...so useles...lolz...today couldn't even stand up from bed..well...expected la..my leg always giving me probs and i keep on hurting them...lolz..well..woke up late...just ripped the discs i borrowed from the library..haha..nv expect them to have norah jones..later gonna return it..hahaz..I seem to have so much to do..yet, i'm slacking away...lolz...enjoying life to the fullest ye?hahaz..MR n gang planning to go thailand in april..well..if i go for this..then confirm no more money for taiwan le..lolz..how...how...i wana give myself a break after the 3 bloody long years...mayb get away from it all for some time also...i guess given my current attitude, i dun deserve a break..hahaz..but..i really need one before i lose it...lolz...okie..prepare n go sch le...sianz..ciao...
blogged at 9:54 AM
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
NAFA
Today is NAFA lo..hahaz..i FAILED...haiz...but at least i fin the 2.4km....hahaz...alot of ppl nv fin..actually i was also gonna give up at the 5th round...but..still press on...lolz...ankle there pain like shit...haiz...Before NAFA got a super long break...so i watched grease in the library...hahaz..rock n roll !!!!also borrowed the bridget jone's diary OST...yeah! now then i noe tat the library is actually not a bad place..lolz..gonna watch the other show also..hahaz.. =) xinying, still wana watch the zhang wei jian show? heez.. Dad came home with grandma's bittergourd and salted veg stew...the onli time i will eat bittergourd is when it is bittergourd omelette or when it is cooked in stew by ah ma...hahaz..i'm quite picky when it comes to food actually..hahaz..Seeing mum like tis kinda freaks me out...I dunno la...its like...i sometimes really hope i'm a guy...not a ger..may sound bad la..but i really dun wan to get sth like tis...i'm scared...i really m...haiz...i guess no one will understand wat i'm feeling or trying to say de...i'm like wasting my life away...sianz....dunno wat to do....
blogged at 8:43 PM
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
heez..
Today...gotten abit used to my new look le..hahaz...skipped petrochem tut today..well, seems like i'm having trouble making it to the first class in the day...but all is not lost...hahaz..i saw vinnie on my way in to school...gonna make time to meet her...hahaz...most prob after i grad ba..hahaz..she like gain weight le..hahaz...then later saw fadrizal at enginnering block...hahaz...hey bro, all e best for ur project...U can do it!I 've got faith in ya...
my leg still hurts from the near fall la...haiz...Nafa is tmr..I had so badly wanted to bad..now my leg...wat the heck...but nvm..I WILL GIVE IT MY BEST SHOT!!!
exams are drawing near n i discover i dunno alot of tings lo...jialat...must start studying...i need the motivation siaz...hahaz...well..must study le...clear all tots and JIA YOU!!! heez...
Things to be done:
- AIC
- GMP lab report
- Pharma lab report
- GMP tutorial
- Safety hazop report
- Process practical questions
- process PID
- this weekend suntec roadshow
- exams are coming..must study...must ask when in doubt..
- pack room
- reduce tv n com...hahaz... =P will try...
- another Gym session..not gonna suffer e pain for noting..lolz..consistentency is the word! =)
blogged at 12:32 PM
Monday, March 07, 2005
omg..
Yest..onli slept 2 hours...skipped GMP again...haiz..the gas man came late...lolz..
sometimes i tink..i really dun give much tot to wat i say...after i say le..then someone got to tell me then i realise tat wat i say will be decipher in another way by another person..haiz..sometimes, is it beta to just shut up? haiz...i dunno...the world is such a complicated place....i seem to onli be able to live in my own world...my comfort zone...where everyting n everyone is so simple...lolz...if onli the world is tis easy n simple...
Today after AIC, i walked to the front..wanted to ask quek wat's the diff btw deadband and dead time...the most stupid ting happened...I NEARLY FELL...SO PAISEH!!! haiz... wa laoz...i myself also cant bear it n just laugh....how stupid can i get....hurt my ankle there again la...old injury...duno must go n make it how many times....haiz...i'm just so useless....
After sch, went over to daniel there and attended the briefing...well..products not bad for light use lo...should be able to sell... =) hope can make money lo...hahaz..
then sylvia say she going to her mum shop...so i followed her lo...now still trying to get use to the new look la...i look so so weird...hahaz...I dyed my hair and cover the bleached hair from tat time la..its now a shade of brown, and i shaved my eyebrows...was like so not used to it at first...i nearly wanted to cry....hahaz...stupid rite? now getting more used to it le...but still feels weird..not as hairy as before, i touch le also weird weird...
well, new look, new start! Jia You!!!
blogged at 11:31 PM
Some flash movie i saw
Oopz...its like 4 am...hahaz..n i'm still half thru my factories act report...haiz...i must really concentrate le...anyway..some stuff i got from some flash movie...hahaz...to catch what is said, i had to watch it like over n over...hahaz...现在我只想把你放在心底最深最深的那个角落里。。
好好宝贝呵护锁起藏着。。
虽然越来越喜欢你也越来越习惯你。。
多么希望你们没有在一起。。
但我知道世间感情事往往就是这么有趣，苦涩，与无奈。。
除非在单纯的空气里 。。
我才敢真的敞开心没有顾忌的好好去爱你去疼惜你。。
但现在， 我不能让自己跨过那条线去不小心伤害你，让你为难也伤害另一个我不认识的他。。
如果连我自己都开心不起来 我又如何奢谈让你开心呢？
虽然我真的真的越来越喜欢你。。
但我愿意压抑自己，也决不让你为难困扰，现在这样淡淡温烘烘的就很好。。
真的真的就心满意足了。。
失去一段感情很痛。。。
但是有不少人却选择了拒绝被爱或是害怕去爱人。。
其实感情不就是这样来来去去。。
从每一段感情得到成长得到智慧不是吗？
其实静下来想想。。
有时候放宽心乐观一点对爱不放弃。。
上帝总是会在关一道门后又开启另一到窗也许更光明更美好的。。。Got to go to paya lebar for the briefing after school..well..hafnt receive pay for the 2 days...hahaz...i tink tmr should be able to get ba..whole body aching from the workout...hahaz..must maintain...jon was saying starting will...get used to the pain..and it will be fine..must be consistent..hahaz...okie..i'm gonna finish the report le...heez..feeling hungry...but..well..hang on for few hours...can makan breakfast le...lolz...okie..gonna quickly fin up..tmr go sch early print lab report and then got teo lesson..first ting in the mrg..tmr..is a long day...hahaz..i'm competing with anna..see who will reach school earlier and on time...hahaz...lolz..let's hope i will not be late...okie back to my report...hahaz.. =)
blogged at 4:08 AM
Sunday, March 06, 2005
I'm sorry i really m...
wahz..i got more than 1 day nv blog worz..hahaz..wat a big accomplishment...lolz..
Let's see....recap of what happen...friday...slept early..cos too tired..hahaz..
sat mrg went to get the vegetarian stuff with mum at amk..wilmer came and teach my bro..then we went to hougang gym..was actually gonna meet up with xinying...but in the end..too tired le..hahaz..then after tat went to meet owyong and ate at crystal jade scotts...reached home at 11pm..whole body ached....long time nv exercise le...tink i'm going to make going to the gym a necessity...it actually feels good to sweat it out n everyting...really relieves stress.. =)
Then later talked with someone till 4am...I'm really sorry...I dun tink I can accept anyone now..I'm really surprised tat u will tell me someting like tis..I never expect it to come from u...I know i hurt u deep when i say tat my answer will not change even if u ask me 200 or 800 times..I'm sorry if i had send any wrong signals to u...I'm really not as good as u tink i m..I know its worse when i said given another chance, i'll still choose my ex over u..but tat is wat i really feel..u noe me..i'm straightforward..I really dun agree with u when u said tat we have known each other longer so it should be easier, i'm sorry, but i guess it does not work tis way for me...3 years and i seriously nv feel any chemistry between us...I'm really sorry...but i cant take u in now...how can u when u noe tat i dun have u in my heart? i'm touched by wat u say..i really m..but it is not possible..I have nv had such strong emotions and feelings for someone b4..it simply does not just fade with time..I just wish to be alone now..I dun have room for someone next to me now..I'm still learning to get over everyting..I eventually will..like wat u say, i'm strong willed..But i hope after tis we can still be frenz.. =)
Later going over to yishun...well..sunday activities have resumed....let's hope i can get back to being religious...hahaz...hafnt been doing anyting tis week..jialat...and i still owe tat stupid factories act lab report...sianz..so many tings to do...so little time..haiz..
blogged at 10:53 AM
quiz..
In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)
What Lies Behind Your Eyes? (With Pics, See All Results!)
blogged at 10:30 AM
Friday, March 04, 2005
tired....
i finally finished one lab report and the gmp tutorial..onli slept for 2 hours...haiz..tired...
Jemie: Wish u good luck for e interview! All e best..may courage,faith n confidence be with you..now add good luck.. =)
Now in Q3 lab...so long nv come here le..hahaz..tink i will sleep for awhile b4 i go for Process...mayb later process will sleep also..hahaz...brought e wrong bag..now wana hug someting n sleep also cannot...haiz...
blogged at 3:17 PM
Thursday, March 03, 2005
shirt n jeans?
Today had process lab..darn sianz..well..no mood mahz...its like so fast...going to fin le...hahaz..3 years, so many tings happen within this 3 years, so many tings changed...been thru so much stuff..well..left this little time le...its time to press on..time to prioritise and noe wat is then right for me..
saw teo and she saw me in tee n jeans...she say liddat more like me...hahaz..she see le also more shun yan...lolz...reminds me of e ch 8 9pm show.. simon went to get the formal clothes for the ad shoot which yukiko wanted him to be her spare, in case the star din come, but in the end, he told meili tat he feel beta in tee n jeans...lolz...sometimes...we should just get wat is within our means...not aim too high...hahaz...man should not be too greedy... =)
he sms me today...ask how i m and if i'm having a new life.....well.. new life...hahaz...u shattered my life..brought me up to heaven and kicked me down to hell...I nv tot i will be tis weak...nv tot i will be just stagnant...when will i be able to move on? i dunno...seriously.. i tell myself i will b beta off alone..i will b strong..but then..i m not....but i noe i have accepted the fact tat i have now another brother.. hahaz.. tat is one ting i'm proud of myself...i noe i'm slow in healing..but i will...i just wana take my time...slowly heal..slowly recover...tis is someting which i have to depend on myself...someting which no one can help me...I will be able to move onto the next chapter of my life de..I will be able to..I will not disappoint myself de..
got to do the safety lab reports le...haiz...5 more weeks...must press on...I will jia you de...MUST START STUDYING LE!!! wake up wake up!!! mr pah..i hope u r here...to scream wake up at me...hahaz...the most motivated time in my life...from a F9 student to a L1R5 15 pointer...I miss secondary school..the innocent days...haiz....as I grow up...things ard me get so complicated....haiz...why must i grow up? Why cant i be tat kiddo who nv grows up? Ppl ard me may not say it..but i do noe tat they hope for me to snap out of my fantasy..the world is an inperfect place..yet i build an imaginary space where everyting is perfect ard me...i have lied so much to myself...so tat i will not be hurt...is it wrong? well...i dunno.. If i were to heal myself using someone else...it will be so so unfair to the other person...dun wan the person to go thru wat i did...anyway, the person wun be able to pick up the broken pieces of my heart and mend it back...how do u mend a heart? hahaz...let me noe if u noe the answer..
blogged at 7:32 PM
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
dun tempt me le la...watching hitch..but not now..
today petrochem lect i onli attended one hour out of two..hahaz...then walked in...grand entrance again...after lect saw teo..she saw me in my black sleeveless top n skirt...so she was staring n asked how come i'm in sleeveless today..hahaz..she was like staring at my bod when she was talking to me...lolz..she say she not used to it...lolz..then she ask me wear so nice, go meet bf ha?i replied with a "i'm now single..just got dumped on CNY 1st day" she stopped n asked me if it is true..then how come i'm smiling so happily...i told her...cry also cry until no tears le..he dun wan me wat can i do?she just told me to be strong n to live for myself..hahaz...sometimes i tink she quite cute...but sometimes...her standards like so high, i always wonder if i can make it..hahaz..then then later waited n waited for mr quek lo..had a chat..hahaz..he said i'm not in the fail list...but i'll have to not let myself fail...hahaz...well...Suddenly discover tat i'm so capable of smiling when i'm actually crying inside...lolz..feelings r supposed to fade with time rite?hahaz...y does it not fade?hahaz..well, i have accepted it as a fact la..just tat i hope tat tings will not have to turn out tis way?hahaz...i'm moving on...looking on the bright side, i feel more free and empty...hahaz...watching the 9pm show at ch 8 does give me hope...lolz...i hope to find someone a combination of An zheng xi and Simon..hahaz.. someone who can cook for me..someone who will treasure n cherish me..who will let me have my way, and is my better half.. =) mayb u r not the one.. when will the one appear? haiz...i wana bite someone..hahaz..getting sadist again...Well, mich is watching hitch with her sis, jemie asked if wana watch...but i was already home..and i'm flooded with lots of stuff to do...haiz..tons of reports...all snowballing... aiz..tired...really m..haiz..feel so sianz..must try to complete everyting...hahaz..dunno wat to do siaz...haiz..
Assignments that i owe:
- safety fire emergency plan safety lab report
- factories act safety lab report
- pharma encapsulating lab report
- GMP sampling lab report
- GMP tutorial
blogged at 9:15 PM
rainy day..
You are the Chill out GuruYou’re cool and lead a life with as little exercise as possible, and getting on the wrong side of you is a definite no no... that’s the motto that rules your life! Fashionistas and packed dance floors are definitely not your scene. Your sofa is definitely your best friend! Your peace and quiet is sacred to you... there's never a raised voice or a drama in your house... but in times of need your friends know they can turn to you. You are renowned for being late and having your head in the clouds. Despite this you are very attractive to others... especially as you know how to keep a clear head, all thanks to your amazing knack for taking an unbiased outlook on situations. On the style side, you’re neither one thing nor the other. One day it might be a wild hair do, the next a buttoned down practical look - your style always takes your friends by surprise! You’re mad about new things... in particular, you love skin care products and shampoos with gentle fragrances such as vanilla and mango. An expert at pampering yourself, you always keep refreshing and enriching lotions to hand so you can treat yourself on a lazy Sunday afternoon.
http://www.garnierbeautybar.co.uk/index.asp?location=/00000/01000/skincare/synergie_pure/015/skincare_product_01015a.aspYou are Balanced.Faithful to your ideas and values, you know what works for you and you stick to it with a minimum of fuss...You set yourself achievable objectives based on a healthy and balanced lifestyle: reasonably healthy food, a regular sleep pattern, exercise... but are you really listening to what your body is telling you??Every once in a while why not say NO to the norm and let your imagination run wild... let yourself take a free expression dance class or go to a comedy club with friends... run, jump, move, throw caution to the wind and you'll really get the most out of your body!
I got albert's lect at 12...but its raining so heavily...hai..sianz...Just did quiz...hahaz..results quite accurate horz..lolz..got to rush to sch le...haiz...sianz...my life sucks....haiz...
blogged at 11:43 AM
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
Hitch is now on sneak preview
HITCH IS OUT....on sneak previews!!! starting tmr..hahaz...wana watch lehz...hmm...but i got alot of tings to do...GMP tutorial, 2 safety lab reports, GMP lab report,later got pharma lab, so another report...haiz...then i'm like so lost in all the lectures and stuff...haiz...jialat...now i darn scared whether can grad anot...haiz..must really change le...i have the tot...but dun have the energy and strength to do it...OMG...sometimes i really suck...Must solve this problem..haiz..Just did a quiz..hahaz...
Your Seduction Style: The Coquette
You are a pro at playing the age old game of hard to get.Your flirting style runs hot and cold, giving just enough to keep them chasing you.Independent and self-sufficient, you don't need any one person to make you compelte.And that independence is exactly what makes people pursue you
Your Brain is 53.33% Female, 46.67% Male
Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female
You are both sensitive and savvy
Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed
But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve
Today is the last pharma lab le..we doing the encapsulating machine...heez..tmr onli got petrochem lect...wondering if i should come for just a 2 hr lect..but i told myself must try to come for all classes...so i will come...hahaz..pharma lect tis week has been officially shifted to thurs after the lab... Judy's still pretty stressed up over her project n she has fallen sick...haiz..must take care n recover soon! heez...i waiting for ur submission and then can go marina makan.. =) hitch also..i nv forget hor..hahaz...provided u can tear away from ur project... Just got my pocket money for this month last nite..well..its not even enuff to cover wat i had spent extra for last month...heng i dun have credit card...or i will die..hahaz....waiting for the 140 bucks...but...its still not enuff to cover...haiz..must study n study n get job after tat...i dun wan to have negative assets..but to have some assets.. =) i'm dreaming again..hahaz..
blogged at 12:12 PM
