Monday, May 31, 2004
well, am back in cptc liaoz.. long time no update horz..heez..so sorry..
got back my results..NO D! at last..but no A..onli 2 Bs..the rest is C..haiz..
family situation getting tenser n tenser by the day.. mum n dad r not talking.. sianz..
morgan wrote on my weekly log " to keep up with the planned schedule"
i cant finish lahz.
he said that MOM's is copy righted.
i can only follow the guideline and jumble up the sequence.
sianz.
I am facing tons of problems everywhere, but who cares..
haiz.. guess i m not the onli one with problems, so complain wat..
looks like my pet phrase acnt be used " look at my face, do i look like i care " :"(
i feel like crying..but there is no shoulder.
so wat if i cry myself blind?
nothing is improved.
blogged at 10:18 AM
Friday, May 28, 2004
heard frm mum tat dad went for an interview yesterdy..some job paying for $4 per hour..
-_-||| but there was quite alot of ppl vying for the job..well,haiz.. just one more year, and i can help liaoz..jia you ba.. i dun wan to go back to the days where we owe ppl $.. it sucks.. reali..have already downgraded hse to return all debts n to pay for my education liaoz.. cant have any more mistakes..must jia you study hard.. n get job asap..cant play liaoz..sianz..tink actuali i have somehow gotten used to seeing dad at home,its like its reali a hard world out there..have more or less gotten used to the idea tat i cant spend like last time liaoz..haiz..
well, here's my plan:
after Programme 6 that is attachment/project ends, i will try to get a job at a factory..(cos pay more wat.. :P ) most prob will pia night shift.. cos more $.. that should be able to settle my sch fees..
then b4 sch(third year modules)starts,will give myself a break,mayb go m'sia cos cheaper..hahaz..budget abt $100-300 or if possible will try to get just a tix to burma, go see my fren.. c if she is still there,hahaz..food n lodging are settled! :P
then will see if got any odd jobs while waiting for graduation, then will prepare resume in the mean time, to send out to companies.. well, how many petrochem/pharma companies are there in singapore? I WANA WORK AT SHELL! exxonmobil also can lahz..heez..petrochem pay beta i tink..or is it pharma tat pays more?anyone noes?do let me noe..
had a heavy lunch just now..haiz..was planning to eat light..but..hahaz..
just now wong was talking to me abt the transport tingy..he said tat we will also be taking the chartered bus! the time when we are doing training, we take the bus with the TP students..heez.. will b able to c hanwen i guess..then when we are doing the attachment, we will b taking it with ITE students..he said tat now,no one feedback to koh tat anyone need help with the transportation fees.. well.. i dunno.. but i have the feeling he's hinting someting..well, mayb is i too sensitive liaoz..
also heard from wong ps tat morgan yap reports to the dennis ang..(marketing manager of CPTC) oops.. ;P
wong n chong will be going on course soon, mayb they shifting the attendance ting to eric there...sianz... dun feel like coming back liaoz..argh.. but if i go there will b like $18 per week..more than enuff to pay for my meals if i stay in sch..well, decide later ba..sianz.. i hafnt go see eric abt the gantt chart n the objectives.. well..okie, after i post tis up, will try to go look for him, if he not ard then bo pianz.. ;P
cuijie is alone in cptc today..sorry..gets me v tense n stressed when i m in tat place..cos the com lab is just next to morgan yap office...haiz..pray hard i can pass..
*back from eric siew office*
HE REJECTED MY OBJECTIVES! well i redo it and send to him liaoz..wat an insult..sianz.. well, me going hougang mall liaoz..my jeans are rotting there sia..heez..tmr will try to edit the powerpoint and then also do the confined space then can email it to moragn yap..hahaz..well, i still got the handouts & questions & script to worry though..sianz..haiz.. I'M SO OFF SCHEDULE!!!
blogged at 1:48 PM
Thursday, May 27, 2004
today is another day in sch.. guess wat?my ankle there pain again.. and the first person i saw on Q4 is ERIC SIEW.. sianz..i hafnt got wat he wanted out yet... later will go look for him, onli when he say okie then i will go print, not gonna waste my money.. dunno whether i do correct anot.. haiz..
back to doing my stuff liaoz...
heez..editing tis post cos i dun wana create too many posts.. :P
just now send to eric my gantt chart n objectives.. via email..sianz.. considering whether to send moragn a copy too.. guess i beta.. hahaz.. he will always say : " Is the file very big? mayb you send a copy to my email" diaoz..
me now leaving nyp..going to amk lib.. later will be going to meet ck,sylvia, mich, anna,wilmer n joey..heard tat sylvia asked him along..for dinner..well,mum's cooking..hahaz..my curry skills are still kinda above her..(i have got the one 2 one teaching of my grandma lehz.. dun play play ah.. ;P )
must find time to meet Tina..hmm..kinda missed her..she's also always smsing me to c if our schedule can fit each other and meet.. hahaz..
*anyone interested in IKEA? contact me.. *
must meet bear also.. was supposed to meet him.. but too rushed liaoz.. so must find a day to go down to SP also.. well, dover is near to jurong east so should b okie..
oh ya... the creative sales.. must ask someone to go down with me.. need to replace mouse, keyboard and get a thumb drive.. haiz.. $$$$ again... nvm.. onli for tis year.. pray hard tat when i graduate, can get job asap.. then will have to b the pillar of monetary for the family..well..guess tat's the duty of the eldest kid..and i tink at the end of the day no matter wat happens..
* xian you jia cai you guo --> Family before country *
blogged at 11:36 AM
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
well, I am back in NYP..heez..feelin so sianz..i reprinted the poster..for more details read on..
yesterday finish the document for morgan.. i went back onli at abt near 6.. so it was like morgan was so stunned.. then he say ask me leave quick.. if not the bus de frequency will be v long.. then when i return the key to ong lai..i walk in the office onli see siow ling..then ong lai walk in and said, xiao jie, so yong gong ah.. -_-||| diaoz.. then he ask if my project got cut down anot... i said yah..cut down by 100 questions..then ong lai went on to say tat the project v impt.. like wat eric siew say, it is can put inside resume de..then siow ling say wah stress ah..hahaz.. conversation with them was good..heez..when i walk out of cptc yest, the bus uncle saw me walking out n park by the road side to wait for me, when i walk up the bus he say aiyo, u rush for what? u the school one rite? will wait for u one.. then i stare ard the whole bus include me onli got 4 ppl.. then the bus was reali cold..but jurong island looked darn chio at tat time..mayb i should try tis when i am more free,stay till quite late n see the view..darn chio sia.. like see the sky frm the bus.. haha..
* teary going crazy *
well, later me going to amk lib heez..to return the books and to work on my objectives for the project..go sit at the cafe there... :P morgan say tat dun have to follow the MOM format..then the powerpoint slides too lengthy.. alot of words.. haiz..my poster he also edited... basically he printed out wat i send him (he said to send him wat i have done) and he edited and commented on it... hahaz... who can b like me... dun c supervisor often yet got so much comments...he's watching my every move... OMG! hahaz..actuali got good n bad lorz..good is i dun have to worry so much.. bad is i must always be on time..well.. back to doing my work liaoz... ciao!
blogged at 12:54 PM
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
sianz.. i m here "alone" at cptc..ck,jesse,xy,all are at sch.. i reached onli at 9.24am.. even the indian guard, the one i always say hello n bye to, also give me tat why u so late look... haiz.. well.. have to go over n see morgan soon, i see him in his room...
today was late, so nv go atm.. then remembered tat i have some $ with weixiang.. heez..then went to get money frm him.. well..but he had onli some spare cash n a $50 note..well, it was quite funny lahz..but the
main point is i appricate him for trying to pass me the money.. :D like v sincere.. hahaz.. but i hafnt had the whole sum of money frm him yet..heez..
just now went to see morgan..well, i tink i just gave him the impression tat i m not a very fast worker..haiz..well.. must jia you jia you liaoz... :(
people change very fast and according to the enviroment..sometimes just looking at a person,i will wonder wat is the relationship btw me n the person,well,sometimes.. man is just fake..wat can i say, tat is the way of life...wat is the attitude to me now? i dunno?wat's the attitude to anyone now? i dunno...well, LIFE SUCKS!
blogged at 9:32 AM
Monday, May 24, 2004
me in sch today.. got to finish wat is supposed to b done last week..so nv go cptc today.. if not got noting to hand in..haiz..I reali dunno wat to do for the project lorz..haiz..but i guess if u knew how to do, then it will not b considered a project, cos a project is meant for u to learn rite? haiz..me go back to doing my stuff liaoz..must jia you!
just had "lunch" i tot it will b a break free from all the stress but.. well,it was wrong..sianz.. reali dunno wat to do.. motivate me ba..sianz...
now is 1.30pm..well,feeling like i am so out of this world, stucking out like a sore thumb..haizz..sianz..
list of things to be done by today
1. electrical safety powerpoint
2. fire/explosion safety powerpoint
3. 20 questions on electrical safety
4. 20 questions on fire/explosion safety
5. all the sub topics for ALL ten topics to enable me to do wat ERIC SIEW TAT BUGGER wans..
6. detailed objectives
7. "gang" chart
* objectives 5,6,7 are here because ERIC SIEW wans them. haiz*
guess that is about all i think..I THINK..but i forgot.. today is monday, markign a new week, which means that i have to start on my 3rd & 4th modules...OMG.. i am so lagging behind...
blogged at 10:03 AM
Sunday, May 23, 2004
i always tot or forced myself to tink tat the world is a simple and good place to be in.. at least i am not a spirit without a body..well.. i guess i was wrong..haiz..alot of things are not wat they r.. sometimes i wonder, why i am so slow in noticing stuff..well.. guess being slow has its own advantages, at least they say igonrant are the blessed..at least i wun be exposed to the cold hard truth tat soon..sometimes i reali tink the world sucks, sometimes it doesn't..
someone say going to
sponsor me a thumb drive...but still feel funi..hahaz.. but well.. at least it is a load off my mind... so bangzi... when going pc show or creative sale?got ppl sponsor liaoz.. no worry liaoz...heez..
well, tmr i will go back to sch... cos..i still hafnt finish the stuff tat is required of me..haiz..doing one man show for the project is reali v tired..i like forever cannot fin the work de..haiz.. well got to go back n pia all the tings liaoz...tonight dunno wat time then can slp sia... well... since tmr i not going to cptc.. james de poster i have to meet cuijie at yck mrt at 7 to pass to her..haiz.. sori james..cant pass it to u personally..and also.. cuijie, sorry n thanks for helping me pass to him...sorry u have to purposely come n meet me at yck..hope u all ahve a nice time at cptc... and hope morgan dun look for me... haiz.. :(
blogged at 11:14 PM
Saturday, May 22, 2004
me back in sch again.. to type the stuff in.. well.. dunno how i am going to finish my work also.. but..haiz.. like tat lorz.. just now go print james poster, printed wrongly..haiz.. noting is smooth sailing for me today..the photocopy shop just called to say james poster out liaoz..well.. take it as to repay him for buying the chocolate for me.. heez..
bought a bag yest.. mum said it looks nice, actuali i liked another bag.. but it has no flap..so i bought tis one.. after walking ard and asking.. hahaz.. it looks simple yet unique, i tink,heez..
yest in the end nv c the dennis.. cos went for the briefing mahz.. well.. i tink monday when i hand in the progress log report, will have to see the dennis ba.. haiz..
well.. me go back to doing my tings liaoz lahz..so many tings to do.. :(
blogged at 11:34 AM
Friday, May 21, 2004
well.. today was a very stressful day sia..in the mrg when i see morgan onli he tell em say the marketing manager wans to see wat i have done.. his name is dennis.. bald guy..omg.. reali stress sia.. why is everyone so concerned abt my project? haiz.. i like have got noting to show yet.. then morgan gave me another surprise, type out a 11 page,100 questions doc..haiz.. to be done by next week.. then was cionging like siaoz..then got the sugar low low level again.. james was on his way n he asked wan to buy wat.. my request was m&m.. then he buy the big pack one... hahaz..
ong lai came to tell us tat we cant take the free bus anymore..cos.. got ppl complain..well, tink i will be reducing the no. of times i come to cptc liaoz...buit the com hyere is reali good... the sound is good... ahhaz... but everyone blast like siaoz...
yow came to visit us today, also bought us 2 packets of fruit plus sweets.. which was wat i wanted originally.. rather than the m&m.. haiz.. yow is so.... if onli he had come earlier.. :(
just attended eric siew stupid briefing... diaoz.. wan so many tings.. haiz..dunno for wat..haiz.. then we all cram into the small room,the trainers, nyp lecturers and the 17 of us..sianz...
suddenly like as if i m the onli one who is like dun see supervisor yet he knows everyting... u noe why? he wans me to email him wat i have done and my poster... which supervisor has asked for a soft copy of the poster from u?haiz.. me is like wan to slack onli can slack in sch... when i m here, my movements are watched closely..haiz.. guess i'm the onli one who is watched so closely..sianzz...
well got to go bugis meet judy n libin liaoz..bye...
blogged at 4:25 PM
Thursday, May 20, 2004
I CANT FINISH ALL THAT IS GIVEN.. BCOZ OF A STUPID DISKETTE.. GOING CRAZY LIAOZ... I WAN TO PROVE THEM WRONG.. AND JIA YOU TO COMPLETE..BUT..IT IS LIKE SO DIFFICULT..MY PATIENCE IS RUNNING SHORT..I M LOSING MY TEMPER FASTER THAN BEFORE..SIANZ... HOW? TMR STILL NEED TO GO CPTC.. AND NEED TO C ERIC FACE.. TAT IS THE WORSE PART...
blogged at 4:28 PM
yesterday the tooth relic exhibition got alot of ppl sia..well.. but it was fun lahz..alot of tings..there.. but not enuff crowd control..cos too many ppl liaoz..
the guy who send us there was the one who got dad the temp job.. but he got into some trouble and his contract was terminated.. as a result, even dad n mum r not working now..when i left home today they r still at home... and michelle (my sister) is also stopping work soon.. cos going poly liaoz.. n she says she wans a break.. been at the topic of making her work 4 a longer time for some time liaoz.. tis time she is very determined to stop working..so.. i guess..well.. have to scrimp n save liaoz.. been trying to limit myself frm using the com at home..
just now, my diskette spoil.. so have to reformat.. watever i did is gone.. wtf.. must either borrow a zip drive or get a thumb drive asap.. cant trust diskettes liaoz.. haiz..
bangzi.. when u free? need u to bring me to either sim lim or the watever com fair..thanks...
well.. got to go pia my project laioz... tmr got to hand in.. and need to help print posters.. but A3 size.. how to transport them without folding... or rolling...hmmm..
haiya.. later then worry abt it.. me got to quickly go do my project... must jia you!! if not the schedule i surely cannot stick to it.. :(
blogged at 11:22 AM
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
heez... just reached sch...going off soon... to go see the tooth relic exhibition at expo.. will be coming back to school soon... after james "disappear" for some time yest..today is me, and xinying who is going to buy some things later.. well.. got to run..heez.. update tis post later.. :P
blogged at 9:17 AM
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
teary is finally back in NYP!!! heez..reali missed tis place sia..heez.. well,there is like so many ppl here.. have prob having a com also..heez..but overall okie lorz..well.. must pray hard tat the IT project student who is using tis com will not be here today ba..haiz..eric is on course..have alot of tings to do today..if not will not be able to finish to the schedule that morgan yap gave..just now photocopied the safety notes tat wong have..so its like the whole mrg is just me being office girl..photocopy n photocopy..haiz.. later going to the library to find the books.. most prob me onli going back to CPTC on friday..cos mum is gonna work for 1 week..
yesterday when i went home n saw her nagging, and dad screaming... it was like oops... someting is wrong..i was rite...she beginning to work for 1 week..from today..cash is low wat..so tonight's dinner is i cook again i guess..well..the guy asked her to work for one week cos they need help..and also he ask her how is she liaoz.. feeling beta?then she was always screaming " u tink i wan to work ah..very tired.. house work no one do.. blah blah blah... haiz.. well.. tink for tis week die die also i will be in school..except friday..cos tat day is eric wan to meet the students under him..
well... me got to go back and pia the project liaoz.. well.. see ya..
blogged at 11:15 AM
Monday, May 17, 2004
tis mrg...I WAS LATE... REACHED CPTC NEARLY ABT 9..haiz..knew tis day will come... but nv expect it to be so soon..but ong lai nv come today..so just walked in n sign i come at 830..smart huh?heez...then call tis guy to bring me to meet morgan..morgan like dunno anyting abt wat the project siupposed to hand in n all... in the end i even told him abt the 12 wk 12 wk and now the split into 4 6 weeks tingy...he passed me some stuff and then i saw wong poh seng written in mr wong's standard handwriting..the ting he give me photocopy is he take out some..he say wong will have the full copy... hahaz.. he say if i go look for wong is he close eye one...tat is considered own resource..hahaz..then went to control room to photocopy e ting..still got the factories act hafnt read or photcopy yet... actuali got some more stuff.. but he say got copyright..haiz... then after tat just slack..
then suddenly they say we have lab laioz...so go to the com lab..then suddenly they say cannot use so must make own lab..so we had to move table n chair n computers..then someting very funny happened!yow saw us moving the ting... dunno wat he was doing at cptc.. but it was like..wat r u all doing?so we all say move computer lahz.. they like kope 3 com from here n few com from there to give us those coms... at first they neglected me as usual..haiz.. then tis guy who is apparently higher post than the plant maager helped me get another com and everyting.. hahaz...was in bigger shock when he noe tat i was doing the safety project.. then asked me for my name.. b4 he left he still said, GOOD LUCK REGINA...oh my god..he even said i was morgan right hand woman...haiz..i m so bloody extra there..if they forget anyone is me..leave out anyone is also me..haiz..then 2 ppl also came to zi xiao.. cops every1 the com is face the so called teachers table... and i m using the one on the teacher's table... cos onli me wat... then must share network point...haiz... so sianz...
then later go into control room slack..wanted to leave early, one trainer even let us sign early...he say he onli work once a week..quite cute guy..see me photocopy until face green green tried to help me but... haiz.. i very scared print wrong... so use my darn slow method lorz...but just as we were abt to reach the gate, everyone ran back, cos yow was walking to the control room with the plant manager..then they tok inside the plant manager room..yow will like peek out of the room to look at wat we r doing..then when he walked out n saw me sitting there he said he is unable to tok to us today...will find a day to tok to us...i forgot to buy the ticket... so after reaching the checkpoint me n xinying took sbs bus..saw the not so advance side of jurong island...well.. it looks so different...haiz..
the books are in the locker.. really heavy sia...haiz..well.. have send email to morgan... now is c if it can really get to him laioz...haiz... the poster is do using which programme?haiz... so may questions... sick..well... go watch tv laioz lahz... its so hot... haiz..tmr go sch will jia yo n do i tink.. sianz...
blogged at 10:37 PM
Sunday, May 16, 2004
haiz..even nyp lecturer also noe i kena blacklisted...well... i still have lots of stuff not done yet... haiz...the weekly report log and blah blah blah...sianz...reali sianz...still say wan to prove them wrong...KNS LAHZ U..REGINA NG.. oh yah.. finally remembered wat i wanted to blog... haiz...
was telling everyone how "mistrested,ill-treated" i was at CPTC..then later my auntie say she dun understand why i wan to go study such a diploma after she heard abt the person tat died while i was like onli 1 wk in jurong...haiz.. wat can i do.. dun study also study liaoz... somemore it is like i left with onli one year...then they all were like telling me go stay at my grandma there( serangoon nth ave 4) then my uncle can send me to cptc..( he also work at jurong island) but when go home is go back myself lahz...then how.. but the ting is... i dun feel comfortable i guess... then i in the mrg so difficult to wake me up... the good part is got ppl send me in and then can everyday eat ah ma cooking lahz... the down side is they will really noe how difficult it is to wake me up in the mrg n then i cant behave as freely as i m at home..haiz... duno lahz... but got put it behind by saying i buy the mrt stamp laioz... so must use it for a month... ppl.. how?gimme suggestions ba..
since noe how to cycle laioz... practice more n i will go take motor license when doing program 5..(when studying final year) anyone interested? i already got some relatives n frenz who wan to go take with me laioz... but duno whether accurate anot.. or they say 4 fun one... haiz...
well.. now waiting for song to download... actuali is still waiting for my turn...haiz..well.. must go do my weekly log.. haiz.. must jia you...haiz.. find one day go back to sch, sylvia, will try to go back to sch n pei u.. inform me the date(the days when mich is not ard)when it is nearer.... i now dun carry planner... so... erm.. cptc just need to ask from the supervisor like one day b4..but morgan v difficult to find so make it 2 days ba..
kangwei said got comp drive coming soon.. well.. must buy thumb drive...haiz..another expense of $$$... the transport to jurong already enuff to kill me liaoz lahz..mayb i shld reali go stay at ah ma there...but... haiz.. alot of tings lahz... duno how to blog here...
blogged at 10:54 PM
Saturday, May 15, 2004
well.. wanted to blog yesterday... but body too pain...in the end sleep early liaoz..i have tis blue black there at my leg there... haiz... i tink is when climb the flare stack must until de.. haiz..alot of tings happened yesterday.. at cptc, at home..blah blah..
yesterday i saw how fake man can be..haiz..well, but i also saw how one can go all out to help another..
mrg went there then ong lai teach us the other part of the control.. the one tat has the camera and stuff..then the plant manager later tok n tok abt alot of crap, say wat we must be self motivated..must go and look for info ourselves..wtf..i noe lahz.. but the ting is i dun even noe wat the heck to do yet.. kns.. then we went for lunch break..then sometings also happen there..well..sometimes i wonder what will happen..haiz..do i tok too much or is someone ignorant?haiz..dunno wat to say liaoz..mayb wat they say abt the one out of the picture sees the picture clearest is true..darn true..haiz.. life sucks..
after lunch, everyone who needs to go to the field to trace process or watever went to do their stuff, except for me..haiz..i hafnt even met my project supervisor..then pineapple see me like duno do wat,in the end i followed him to the flowserve room,along with siokwye and oskar..haiz...when we reach there poor pineapple had to run ard to look for the key to open the flowserve room.. then there saw koh hf and eric who came to cptc..then after tat cuijie came to look for pineapple..she seems to get along well with james..tat's good..then the unbelievable happened..when i was at flowsrve lab i finally met morgan..talked to him for like abt 3 min..was abt to see a clearer pic of my project..not as blur laioz.. but he says to go look for him on monday.. haiz.. one week wasted..the ting is... if i had not followed pineapple or he had not sympathized with me n brought me to the room(he also dunno wat to do with me, cannot let me go off n dunno wat he can do with me)i would not have met morgan yap at the flowserve room..haiz..then after i went back to the pantry/dining area.. weixiang said tat eric wans to see the students under him..went over to the meeting room and then crap crap crap..he says tis is open clasroom learning,must be nmotivated, must go n loom 4 them ourselves...u wana noe how i feel?there is not enuff communication btw cptc n nyp..the trainers there dun even noe wat to do with us..project students should be briefed better, the cptc ppl should have been briefed, there should be a place for the students to start their work.. but... haiz... more on tat later..then later koh hf said something tat reali argh..
she said tat morgan yap is very good, she also had trained under him b4..then later eric also say tat he is a certified MOM safety officer,then when he say stop work, no one can cont working...since he is setting up the safety centre, i should have volunteered to go n help him... can learn alot..wtf.. i dun even noe where on earth he is..how to help..then also abt the attire n shoes tingy.. they said dun care wat the other poly r wearing, nyp ppl must wear shoes...haiz.. suddenly i feel they very contradicting.. first they say we must be more initated which means we must be like adult rite?then bother so much abt wat we wear.. tat is like as if i m a 3 yr old kid who cant dress herself..m i being trested like a kid or an adult now?tell me lahz...eric also photocopied a copy of our project descrpition then also asked us if we will be given computers..well.. the PLANT MANAGER PROMISED WONG N CHONG WHEN THEY GAVE US THE BRIEFING TAT WE WILL BE GIVEN COMPUTERS OF OUR OWN TO WORK WITH FOR THE PROJECT.. but then... apparently it is like he din reali kept his promise.. cos we r still not given computers..the plant manager is reali someone who reali noes how to bring out his best side sia... tat day at the powerpoint ppt tat chong gave he was like so sneakily go n print out the slides... treat us like prince n princess when the lecturers r here, but once they r gone, we r treated like shit again..suddely i m so envious so those in sch..haiz..theose in sch, u guys r reali darn lucky u noe tat... haiz..
oh ya.. cont back on wat happened at the debriefing at the pantry..pineapple said tat he is not coming on monday...oops...die..then.. he is not able to get the computers for us as they r reserved for e-learning...then he asked us if we will b able to get com when we r in sch..haiz.. its like..WTF..WTF..i wasted one week liaoz lorz..he aslo said he has been like running ard to try to help us..PINEAPPLE,REALI APPRICATE U FOR ALL U HAVE DONE,THANKS.. haiz.. who can we blame? tat day at the presentation wong already sid if wan to feedback shld be to the project supervisor before feedback to sch.. and tat stupid plant manager said tat he dun like having negative feedback to nyp... its like if there is someting positive then of cos we will say it wat, but then now there is ONLI NEGATIVE wat.. then wat? are we suppoosed to lie? in the end alot of ppl r going back to nyp on monday.. well..for me,i have to go see morgan yap..
i have decided liaoz... i will ask all i can think of on monday when i meet morgan, and then if can, i will just go back to school liaoz... sianz..but sylvia sid that now sch alos not much com for us.. haiz..then how..well.. also confirmed tat I M BLACKLISTED AT CPTC..blame it on my impatience lorz... haiz...
well..just hope tat will be able to make it for the 24 weeks..haiz..1st 6 weeks is project 2nd 6 weeks is training with tp students..imagine 17 nyp n a whole bunch of tp students..haiz..3rd 6 weeks is finish the project..last 6 weeks is attachment.. mayb will be co trainer helping them train ite students, mayb is doing other tings.. haiz..
someting abt the blacklisted ting..haiz... been telling myself have to prove them wrong,must jia you.. must be able to finish what ever is given, i will succeed..BUT..i m like losing abit of the found confidence.. haiz.. wtf lahz...cptc sucks..life sucks...sianz...
blogged at 9:27 AM
Thursday, May 13, 2004
well... today was late again... haiz...dunnno how sia... i slp early also cannot wake up, sleep late also cannot wake up...today is a super jialat day... wong n chong came down today..then gave us tat briefing... tat stupid powerpoint slide with the no gossiping and no sleeping ting... haiz... now me have to go either to nyp, or cptc from 8.30- 5.30 mon - friday... if mrg go nyp, must stay there till 5.30...if not, have to go back to cptc..watever it is, every day must report from 8.30-5.30 lahz...they must know where the heck on earth we r located..the timing is like tis...
working hours : 8.30 - 5.30 pm
break: 10.00-10.20
lunch: 11.30-12.30
break: 15.00-15.20
haiz... so stupid... then when wong came n always smile at me funnily... i knew i reali created trouble laizo... haiz...then he say blah blah blah, the last resort is to call back to sch, should solve with the project supervisor... but i hafnt even see tat MORGAN YAP.. well, noting to say liaoz... just tat got alot of tings to print sia... haiz.... oh ya... the project is so lame, cannot listen to music, cannot have radio...if absent from desk for more than 15 or 20 min, must indicate where we r going... like prisoner sia...then still got spot checks,if found to be absent, will b dealt with seriously...then somemore no slippers or scandals...haiz...the project must hand in 2 hard copy... who can help me print sia... haiz... somemore for my one is 2 hard copies... liews... the photocoping and the binding fees on top of my transportation fee... can die laioz lahz...haiz....
after lunch of cup noodle,change into the overalls and then went to the field... climbed up the flare stack..wrote my name there also laizo... heez...was kinda fun climbing up... the scenery there reali nice,but the thing ah... can shake de sia... when someone is climbing or when the wind blow...JURONG ISLAND IS ALWAYS VERI HOT... haiz...wherever u see alos metal, there alwasy sunny, no clouds... hahaz.. tis few days i dunnno saw tis how many times liaoz... "jurong she me dou mei you, jiu si metal zui duo" hahaz...
then later pineapple say he will bring me go see morgan tmr..he said tat morgan is a nice guy, and he is not the knee jerk reaction type.. if i got any questions can ask him and settel with him... haiz... like as if i will complain abt the morgan or wat so ever... haiz...wat to do... first step move wrongly...haiz..now me so prominent sia... project i doing alone, i on the black listed list no. 1..blah blah blah... i tink i really is died laioz... haiz...
me go slp laioz... tmr got to wake up at 5... well... nitez...
blogged at 10:15 PM
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
11/5/2004
2nd day at CPTC..well..i have just moved one more step closer to making it tops on the blacklisted list..well.. it is still the safety tok tingy.. it is two days mahz.. with a MCQ test after tat..the mcq test veri lame... hahaz.. but tis test they also give the foregin workers.. so..cannot say anyting lahz... even pineapple also say tat it will b an insult to poly students..the whole day is like onli got the talk.. if onli i nv itchy mouth n leg n hand to go n ask them again abt the project.. sianz..okie here's wat happened..during the lunch break after eating at oasis, (clarence i noe where oasis is liaoz..i open my eyes big big n i saw! :p ) got noting to do, hang ard the dinig area tat side, then after tat was like pineapple is inside..then we ask him abt the project ting... he was like yah he has got the project list, but will us be happy with the arrangement n stuff..he still talk abt the one doing it alone... when i reali cant tolerate,i told him it was me lahz...then he said we shld ask nyp abt our project.. then i offered to call chong n later get back to him n see if the list they have is the same as the list tat nyp has... he said okie... then later before his safety lecture started, he called my name from far, and said tat dun need to call chong liaoz... when i have just called chong n disturb him while he was having lunch...haiz... stupid pineapple..then it was like i tink i reali gone case liaoz... shit! kena marked and famous in the 2nd day... nv realli try being famous in such short time... cos last time my "fame" is slowing build up one... not at one shot... haiz...
12/5/04
i was having tummy ache again... tink CPTC is giving me alot of stress and all,having alot of pimnples liaoz...everyone say i now darker...dunno why.. haiz..jesse, xy n cuijie went to mac to eat while waiting for me, then when i reach there,the bus uncle was there,he say ask me wait for the next bus.. coming at 8.15..diaoz...have to be there at 8.30 lorz... so in the end i crap with him until they all came...hahaz..he was like wahz... 4 of u ah... tink he was just expecting 1 person onli when i said i waiting for fren... hahaz..well, when we were at the check point, the chartered bus(the IAP students) were also there, so we hoped on their bus... hahaz...anna was reading the asia pac comic version of heart sutra... been looking for the book for some time in the library... but she said it belonged to k guy, tat time i saw the book on sale, but din wan to buy it...cos i read books like 2,3 times then i will put aside, so not v good... hahaz... suddenly realised tat i alot of the words in the heart sutra forget laioz... can onli remember how to chant the front...haiz..really is all learn liaoz, then return ah.. :( safely reached CPTC on time..hahaz, can really consider taking their bus... :P
ho min chew was late... when pineapple giving us the briefing on the project,e plant mamger was also there, then he was like when he walked in late, almost immediately he asked him why he was late, the he say tat every company got its own culture,CPTC is like a company, and has its own culture... diaoz... he say the first ting is punctuality, like directly shoot ppl lorz...then he say abt the way we feedback, he dun like how we went straight to look for our lecturers...[me lorz, cos is i talk to chong de wat] haiz.. then later pineapple told us the project and all,then he noe tat i m doing the safety ting, which doesn't realli concern the KDU,but he say i should have the sense of "kponess" in me, go and learn more, then he say tat bcoz we will be there for 24 weeks, mayb for our attachment for CPTC he might let us be co-trainers for CPTC...omg... imagine tat...when he was like so familiar with my name, the rest were like...huhz.. then when they realise i am doing the project alone, then not so bad,but its like he really made it a point to like always talk and look in my directiopn, as if like if i dun understand i will go n call nyp to complain again...then when the plant manager left, pineapple told us tat they are all very busy...and what he said really happened, tat is there are ppl who r not happy n wan to change..haiz..after lunch the trainers and pineapple were in the training room with us,they were like dunno wan to let us change anot lorz..haiz..then the xiao lin(the plant manager said tat he is a first class honours horz... dun play play ah... see he boy boy like tat.. :P )call back to sch say look for quek, then when he came back, he said quek having lunch,then they started joking abt nyp lecturer lunch break say is 1 hr, but can stretch to 2 hr..diaoz...quek on course lahz..haiz... felt like saying tat but, in the end i still shut up.. at the top of black list laioz... there is like no more color tat can be darker than black rite ritez?haiz...
however i still dun get to see who morgan yap is,cos he was not there lorz..well, at the end of the lesson, pineapple ask me when i wan to see morgan yap.. like as if i of higher post like tat sia, when he was talking to me...haiz... walk the wrong step again,then i say i anyting..then he went on to explain stuff like the trainers there are all doing the sem pro for the first time, morgan has no such experience in such a field,and if morgan dunno pineapple is sure tat he will get someone who can guide me... haiz... tok to me in such a way... haiz...well, like i have said, wat is done cant be undone, wat i can do now is just to jia you n jia you, and NOT SCUMMUB TO LAZINESS...show tat nyp students r good...so ppl doing the project must all jia you! show him wat we r made of...we r the piooner batch mahz...
think all the trainers there know me liaoz... famous liaoz lehz..jesse says to look on the broight side, he is actually helping me..as in pineapple is helping me..i m so prominent, the only one doing the project alone, and the one who anyhow feedback... plant manager say feedback positive is okie..but not negative... haiz...i dun see anyting good in it, other than tat everyone noe who i m lorz...
i left everyting in e locker today, well, will bring them back tmr n i can type in here, wat i will do for the project here... ppl who know how to do flash animation and is an expert in powerpoint, pls help me... thanks, and who has got extra thumb drive?can lend me...pls and thanks... :P
pineapple say the 3rd and 4th day he is going to show us ard the KDU, so tmr will be wearing the overalls...the ting is so hot lorz... haiz.. sure sweat like i dunno wat... bringing stuff to go there bathe..hoping to climb the distillation unit... but body still ache frm the bike on sunday... haiz...
went to woodlands lib, hang there until i heard the we r closing in 30 minutes... diaoz... din noe i hang there for so long,i found ji mi picture book! yeah! saw dou yu vcd, selling whole set $24... the show like v nice lehz... :D well, must go to slp laioz... tmr meeting 7.15 at yck..hafnt pack bag... sianz.. must bring the bathing stuff...today's post very long, cos i nv online yest and then still at a new place mahz.. :P
blogged at 11:44 PM
Monday, May 10, 2004
alot of tings wan to blog sia...well..start from the bbq ba... dunno who say chris will b there at 1pm.. in the end we all went east coast reali early..the good news... :drum roll: I NOE HOW TO CYCLE LIAOZ..NOT STABLE THOUGH... hahaz..the bbq was kinda fun... but due to the bicycle lessons and me practice even though leg no feeling, now darn pain... is whole body pain... cos of all the sudden breaks and nearly knocking into so many tings...and nearly falling into drain..heng nv fall down..meet some new ppl..heez... cos 2 guys brought along their girl girl...oops... is 1 gf, 1 finacee...the onli lecturer who came in the end was chris...he brought his finacee...28 yr old..2 yr younger than chris,working in semi conductor...at tampines there... they were classmates worz...the gf is K guy bring de... marie,sp,in maritime business...she also stay amk sia.. :P even though i duno which part exactly she stay even though she explain to me...haiz... ppl with no sense of direction is like tis one... haiz...she's a sweet ger...heez..i couldn't find anyone to go rent bike... then she noe how to cycle so we went togther..but the bicycle we got was like shit sia..haiz..mich intro me as the class mummy... diaoz... then later dunno wat i did then she suddenly blurted out: ni zhen de hen xiang mummy lehz...omg..haiz...i reali like tat mehz... wonder wat i did...i reali give ppl tat type of impression mehz...die liaoz... i m too old for my age...even someone whom i just noe for few hours also like tat say me...die liaoz...
went home quite late... before i left the house for the bbq already got scolded... then my hand itchy call home to say i going back home also kena scolding... wtf..call also kena scolding...already body ache and all laioz...walk also got problem... still kp me for wat..haiz...but overall was quite fun...can consider having gatherings there,but dun have to prepare own bbq.. go there play n talk cock...then eat at the mc cafe and all there... got komala's...wan to try siaz..anna suggested chalet for the 6 of us..haha.. but abit ex..i to of hotel, then we rent bike overnite..next mrg then return..hahaz..well body still ache... but better liaoz...my massage skills still not good... nv practise..haiz...oh ya... got a very funny gift frm .... haiz... kena conned... tot i was to be thrown into the water... :P
first day go cptc... reached home late..so not enuff slp... practically dragged myself there... was like a zombie for the day...darn shag...then body pain... cannot slp properly also at there...used alot of money today.. haiz...the food not v nice also... I MISS NYP...I MISS EVERYONE THERE..I DUN LIKE CPTC...I DUN LIKE TAT PINEAPPLE..HE LIKE "U ALL SHOULD NOE WAT U R DOING FOR UR PROJECT,U SHOULD NOE SOMETING ABT YOUR PROJECT..." STUPID GUY...IF I NOE, I WILL NOT BE AT CPTC LAHZ... complained to sylvia then she help look for yow..who ask her to look for chong... then chong call me and talk for like nearly 13 min...haiz.. his main points were summarised as follows... today is first day..mayb will tell us the project tmr or someting like tat..ask the person wat time we report tmr.. and yes, we have to report unless they say we dun need to...and cptc ppl have got the list of who is doing wat project..safety is v impt..
haiz... it is so sickening... heard tat maths no one fail... tat means i confirm is get a big fat D laizo...(common test i got D also) but beta than i have to take supp... its so tiring after going to cptc..dunno where to get the energy to study maths....now to worry for fluid and bioprocess...
well..tmr is another day at cptc with one whole day of lecture on safety and there is a test at the end of it...the ting if pass will get a cert,valid for 3 years... must renew one... haiya... ma fan rite...
cuijie tmr going to meet straight at jurong east,well.. going to take the bus tmr back home... the catered bus...today everyone took the bus back... except for me, ck, xy n jesse...haiz...me beta go slp laioz... nitez ppl.. miss you all.. really... haiz...
blogged at 10:35 PM
Sunday, May 09, 2004
EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER! however tat also means tat need to go cptc...haiz... will b loss of sleep n money... sometimes i wonder, why let me be the last one?haiz... i go there is all the smarter than me ppl... ppl do project is two ppl... me? i doing it alone... bcoz is odd number of ppl... since i last one... so i do alone... haiz... two ppl workload i one person shoulder...wah laoz...i the least smart there n i do 2 ppl work...haiz... oh ya... i saw uncle's jurong island pass just now... it looks like ours the temp one... just tat his got foto... i will b showing him mine too... heez...
tmr is the bbq...kinda looking forward to it.. will try to learn how to ride bicycle... hmm... will try to be more confident in myself...i said i will try... meeting jon at 11.55 at yck mrt..he will go woodlands to get the charcoal n ice box from sylvia then travel down to yck to meet me... then later we go tp to meet anna...at tp... hmmm then will go to bedok to take bus..take bus 401...chris will b there at one... we will have to go buy ice n drinks... chris will be leaving early cos he need to go for mother's day dinner... which, speaking of so, wat m i going to make for my mum? hmm... tink i tmr wake up early cook ba... hahaz...i finally bought a frying pan... haiz... but tis days the cooking is mostly done by me.... like is buy for myself not for my mum... hahaz...
today heard from jiahui say tat maths they will help us pass one... as long as common test pass, then like me how? i scrape thru just nice pass maths common test, then i screw up my maths exam worz... and i alzo screw up my fluid due to the same thing... someting called "miu" its the u tat is written with a tail... i tink ppl taking the paper with me will noe wat i mean... haiz...
hmmm SYLVIA, WHEN U GETTING THE SONG FROM ME? THE SONG "LYDIA" ROTTING IN MY COM LIAOZ.... i scared later i go jurong not enuff slp then how...i will not be online tat often... then u doing project is in school...haiz... hope my project supervisor will be kind to me... * cross fingers * *pray for me ah* :P
me go slp liaoz... tmr must wake up early....
blogged at 12:14 AM
Friday, May 07, 2004
hmmm... i cant find my bio procss book... diaoz... haiz... all my notes inside... haiz... will cont finding...
blogged at 2:06 PM
some time since i last blog..been busy with exams... haiz... done 2 papers... left one--> bioprocess applications.. give u a run down of wat happen..
maths paper--> the bloody first paper, haiz.. i tink i can get ready for supp.. when i step into the exam hall, quek come n disturb me, give me tat type of cannot make it looks... in the end is really cannot make it... haiz... my paper like empty siaz... shit.. haiz... warning already given... i just passed common test.. must strive like shit for the exam... but... now.. this! KAOZ!SHITTY MATHS!THEY SAY YONG WAS LIKE HELPING EVERYONE.. BUT I DIN ASK HIM.. COS.. I WAS AFRAID TAT HE WILL MESS ME UP MORE.. HOW... DIE LIAOZ LE!haiz... shouldn't have kept on saying i will hand in empty paper for maths... now is like as good as empty....
next paper was fluid... i took it yesterday..another YUCKS one... how the heck will i noe wat is cut size? wat is shear stress... guess wat was my ans: cut size of a cyclone is the diameter of the particles in the cyclone... ppl laugh... laugh laugh... now for the next one... shear stress is how much the thing can stretch over an area.. *laugh* *laugh* last question, tat 20 marks gone! then tat stupid car question... really shit... and that pressure difference... i yesterday still made chris call me back when he was at home... in the end come out... but i dunno how to do... he was like hovering ard me to see if i got difficulty to do the questions...i feel so bad....guess wat? before i went in he still wish me good luck.. feeling absolutely bad when i left the hall.. somemore when collect the paper he n the other lecturer was like wan to collect my paper..(i was sitting at the last seat in tat row) in the end is the other lecturer take my paper...
then was supposed to go for the briefing... going from yck to cptc is so ex... haiz... guess must really take out my savings liaoz.. already not much $ left, still must do tat, then michelle(my sister) going poly this july also...haiz... everyting also need $.. let me faster graduate ba... i need a job asap.. first day go cptc is at 8 am... diaoz... from jurong east to cptc is an estimated 45 min... then i from yck to juring east is another 45-50 min..die liaoz...2 hr on tpt...
my nyp supervisor is goh...haiz.. was hoping for someone else, i wun mind wong,sunil,quek,chris... >_< my cptc supervisor is ????? i will let u noe ba... all of us like seperated... haiz... sylvia n michelle doing the proj in sch, wilmer going exxonmobil,me n cuijie doing proj at cptc, anna is doing the training first....
clarence is also doing the training for 6 wk... hanwen will b coming in after clarence... cos tp coming in after sp... hope to see them... i tink i will lorz.. i will b there for like 12 weeks... 6+6= 12 hahaz...
hmm... been thinking on wat someone said to me... why so no confidence? hmm, i also nv reali discover tat myself.. guess it has been like tat sincce i left xinmin..but seriously i tink when u r alwasy seen as the funny one, the butt of jokes, there is noting tat can b said ritez? i sometimes dun understand, wat is there good to zi xiao me? fun mehz? once, someone told me is bcoz my rection v funny.. diaoz... haiya.. but i also get some fun in it lorz.. so okie lahz.. hahaz.. but seriously nv see myself as someone who is able...mayb i reali lacking in confidence ba...
yesterday was like barking at everyone at home, dunno why...haiz.. just felt so lousy at myself... wanted to cry.. but cant.. tat's the worse part... i tink is bcoz of the cptc and the final year project...haiz...
there's like so many tings to buy...so many tings i need...haiz...
1. $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
2. new bag
3. SD card for tat camera.. the one starhub gave along with tat HP printer if not with it's internal meomery, onli 33 pics can be taken...BenQ camera.. 2 mega pixel, the flash is freaking big and BRIGHT...
i guess tat is abt all ba... oh ya... i need to refresh memory on how to make the straw star...heez...am tinking of doing someting...heez... anyone keen on a trip down to IKEA? do let me noe...
okie... got to go sch n study laioz.... very lazy to change lehz... tink i will just go sch wearing wat i m wearing ba.... hahaz..
blogged at 12:44 PM
