Sunday, February 29, 2004
shiying's laptop suudenly crashed today... called me n tell me tat all tat everyting tat we have done on friday need sto be redo by this afternoon... yes.. i admit all tat was presented today was slip slop work... but wat can i do... haiz... well.enuff of the sad stuff... tmr i will be going to cherry home... heez... can go see all my frenz there laioz... wonder if ni ni really went back to burma... nv heard frm her liaoz... maybe zhen de went back liaoz... haiz... will know tmr when i go there... heez...
hmmm.... no mood to study... need to have ppl ard me to nag me to study ba... haha... zhen shi mei you yong... haiz... i need you to nag me to study lahz... heez... me go slp laioz... tmr will be one whole day gone... after service will be going to do the folding...well.. no mood to study anyway... do someting more meaningful ba... haha... anyway i give out all the hang ten vouchers liaoz... need more!!!!!!!!!!
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Saturday, February 28, 2004
well... having alot inside me wanting to let it out... but is so darn tired from all the paper work i have done... i just wan some rest from words... will blog them all here i promise... mayb tonite... provided the "adults" dun get into soem arguement becos of sowm word and i will be fine... haha... my flu hasn't got any better....and i have having those sudden heart happenings again... it will suddenly just stop... or it will just have pangs of pain... nearly cant feel my own pulse yesterday... someting is terribly wrong... haiz... but u noe wat... i dun wan a doc.. cos i m afraid... i dun wana be a burden to the family anmore...i m so scared... i dun wan anyting to happen..i still hafnt seen alot of tings..hafnt do my part for this society..hafnt have my very own home yet..hafnt found someone who i can hold close to my heart and let it open its doors to him without worrying...hafnt had my own bike... hafnt learn swimming..hafnt learn how to ride a bicycle..there are simply so many tings for me to do... i wan to go to china or india, i wan to get out of singapore...i wan to try nunhood...but will i be able to sever all ties with everyone in this world? i dunno...
anyway, michelle i hope u can really get into a diploma course tat u like not just bcoz u tink it will help anyone... if u hate tat course it will be darn difficult for u to study... u will freaking hate the subject and all... i'm sorry.. but bcoz of the finicial situation now..i promise u if i can get a job when i m out of poly i will try to pay for ur fees...then we will work hard to get joshua into poly too... i remembered dad said he maximum can onli get us to poly.. actuali i know he mean he can get us to poly if onli he was still working with the old boss... but.. haiz... i tink the old boss conditions are worse than us... at least we have got everyone of us together.... hope dad will be able to get a job soon...well... i noe u dun really like ur present job, but.. pls bear with it... u will need the money for now..pls dun anyhow spend on comics or anyting stupid again... i know u will not be able to read tis but i hope tat u understand....
well alot of tings are happening in school too... everyone becoming more n more fake... n i m tired and also scared...i dun noe who is real towards me and who is just putting up an act... hey, if u r just putting up an act just let me noe. i dun wana be the last to know... u wan to be my fren so be it... if not, mayb it is best for us to just cool it...sounds straight forward but... tis is wat i reali feel... no point if u dun like my company or anyting yet have to make urself be happy when u r with me...is it worth it? let's all be frank... wat's the use of writting on paper or complaining? no one will noe anyting... writing on paper will onli reduce ur anger for a while... but after tat the anger normally comes back more than it did just now...
i m really tired...mayb u r rite.... i should have been a loner from teh day i entered poly... haha... but well, u noe me... i can't satnd loneliness.... haiz... so how? but now, i tink i feel so alone n left out, i guess it makes no diff i tink... sometimes i wonder if anyone will ever care if anyting happens to me... i'm losing contact to the world... help...
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Thursday, February 26, 2004
You are Rerun!
Which Peanuts Character are You? brought to you by Quizilla
You belong on a lazy-day beach or anywhere where
you can set up a relaxing bench or chair and
watch the world go by. You don't want to make
any changes, watching is enough to make you
content. The blue of the sky and the light of
day beat into your soul and you drift into the
world and around without harming anything or
making any ripples in the fabric of humanity.
Enjoy your peace, few have it, though few would
want it at the cost.
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Libra Drinking style:
"I'm jusht a social drinker," slurs
Libra, "it's jusht that I'm so damn
social?" Libra loves nothing more than to
party, mingle and relate to everyone. Whether
dipped in favor of Good Libra (with
Insta-Friend device set to "on") or
heavier on the Evil Libra side (they are little
instigators when bored), the Scales can really
work a room. Charming as they are, Libras are
notoriously lacking in self-control, however,
which can get them into all sorts of trouble
-- including wearing their wobbly boots waaaay
too early in the evening, flirting with their
best friend's beau or even blacking out the
nights events entirely. Oops!
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Scorpio Drinking style:
Don't ever tell Scorpios they've had enough, for
they'll smirk at you and quietly but
intentionally keep tippling till they're hog
whimpering drunk, out of 100-proof spite.
Scorpios like to drink, and screw you if you
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also remember everything -- especially what you
did when you were blitzed. Only drink with a
Scorpio who likes you.
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Wednesday, February 25, 2004
You're a Glass of Wine!
What Type of Alcoholic Beverage Are You? brought to you by Quizilla
You are a SERIOUS person. Yeah yeah, fun is fun,
but there's also work to do ryt? You're not
childish at all and you hate being joking
around. Then why are you doing a quiz! LOL ^_~
Yet another personality test ^-^ (nice anime pics!) NEW outcome!! brought to you by Quizilla
You are one of the few out there whose wings are
truly
ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and
divine, you are one blessed with a certain
cosmic grace. You are unequalled in
peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of
Light your wings are massive and a soft white
or silver. Countless feathers grace them and
radiate the light within you for all the world
to see. You are a defender, protector, and
caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver
of the wrong, chances are you are taken
advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often.
But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in
everyone and so this mistreatment does not make
you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will
try to help misguided souls find themselves and
peace. However not all Angelics allow
themselves to be gotten the better of - the
Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting
for the sake of Justice and protection of those
less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever
change - the world needs more people like you.
*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~* brought to you by Quizilla
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Tuesday, February 17, 2004
See what Care Bear you are.
haha...even the quiz says i m sleeping de... haha.... oh well,just received call tat tmr wan to go swimming... 8 am lehz.... ..................................... s o freaking early... anyway, michelle, lost tis time can win again next time mahz... :b well me going back to watch tv laioz.......
blogged at 9:45 PM
Sunday, February 15, 2004
well... its been some time since i tok to ya bloggie... heez... been pretty busy over th past few days...okie... to get sth of my chest first... thurs was thermodyanamics class.... well... mr song heng mun... i tink if u carry on like tis v soon u will c the class going against u...i mean it...then there will be trouble��� I mean its like ur reputation not too good��� remember last sem u flunked half of ur class for the reactor systems��� while mr pang let us all off���. Haiz��� actualii I find u not bad��� I got really pay attention to ur class��� until I dun really listen to wat the others in the class r tokking unless its like u r just addressing to one student��� haiz��� another ting happen���I was kinda very messed up with all the + and ��� signs ���. Then later I can c song on the verge of exploding laioz��� haha��� then later suddenly while Jonathan who was explaining to me, k guy who was sitting next to him, smiled and said, aiya, thermodynamics dun need to understand de��� sleep lahz��� ARGHZ��� I immediately replied��� u then sleep lah��� tis few days always slp���. Diaoz��� okie��� fine��� I noe I not tat smart���. But dun need to like tat splash cold water on me ba��� :���( encourage me mahz��� but looking on the other hand��� at least there was tis lame joke and he made the effort to wake up to crack tis joke to me��� cos reali abit stress ah��� :D haiya��� contradicting myself��� but seriously bloggie, feel tat tis few days I getting more n more pestimistic��� more n more sad���. Dunno why��� was so happy when I was in sec sch��� remember all the lame jokes���remember the times Simon ears will turn red and we will all shut up, remember the times when zongwei will start to slang n imitate enienm��� remember the times mengrern will disturb say I short, say me n kangwei��� remember the times owyong try to come into my class and get niaoz by the guys, remember how zhiren���s class noe I like him��� remember the stuff tat they say���remember how me n Judy used to hang ard so much they tot we were lesbians.. remember how I cant get used to life without her, and always went upstairs to sneak into e5 to find Judy���. Haha���. What a life I used to have���.
Thurs after thermo when I went over for to serangoon for the meeting��� dioaz��� everyone was arrowing *ahem* then all went back home reminding one and another tat on sat during the meeting must bring out the probs okie���.
Then Friday I only went out to meet Judy���. She bought for me a friendship band and a note book from Thailand��� thanks char bo��� :D saw Gareth gates��� oh well��� I onli like tat ���it can happen to anyone of us anyone can��������� other than tat���. Haha��� I tink he looks pretty ____________.................... haha���. Then the most stupid ting was, the Turkish food was good, but with one spoon of food, I hear one arghhhhhhhhh a lot of jc girls were at garth gates performance cum autogragh session���. Haiz��� GIMME ENERGY AND I WILL PICK THEM OVER HIM��� HAIZ��� Y TAT DAY NOT ENERGY���. Haha���. Oops���.
Oh ya��� sat the open house day���. Haiz��� zhuo bo��� then later michelle came with her frenz���. Haiz��� suddenly in my sister I saw my shadow���. Dunno wat to pick���. Diaoz��� michelle a word of advice to u���. pick sth tat u will like��� :D thena in the end hang ard sch bringing her n her frenz ard��� haha���.saw Diana too��� she was with jonathan���s grp���. Still as cute n petite as ever��� she got bond with KK liaoz��� heez���yeah��� good for her��� been missing her��� haha��� must grab her for lunch some day��� went over to serangoon���. Haiyo��� wei liang getting more n more cute��� haiyo��� the eyes so big���heez��� wonder if I was like tis when I was young��� heez���.
The meeting��� was a FLOP���. Haiz.,���. Getting more n more sianz��� but a promise is a promise��� I will stay with it till they decided tat they dun wan tis society���if not I tink I will still be in it ba.,��� but now everyone like wan to be in power���. Sianz��� listen once or twice to others will not have anyting happening rite? Oh well���.Went home n just sleep��� recently felt tat going there is very tiring��� come home must immediately recharge���.why is everyone so not united?
Well��� I din reach home very early today,well���.just went to take the camera n printer��� the HP printer reminds me of venture���. Haha��� yeah���finally��� haha���. Can scan somemore��� but dun tink I will overwork them yet���cos I noe my bro n sis r darn eager to use the. Need to but a card for the camera���if not tis cam can onli take 10-15 pics I guess��� internal storage onli 8 mb nia���. Haiz��� but after blowing $100+ on Friday��� thanks to the smartbuy cdr and the enzer Discman and the Turkish dinner���.haiz��� tink the idea has to be shelved for a long time��� heard tat one of the burma nurses will be leaving the home to go back to burma soon���.haiz��� after some time horz��� really cant bear to see her leave lehz��� considering going to the airport to send her off���. Wish u all the best and may u find the man of ur dreams soon��� :X must confirm all details with her���. But horz��� if she taking Myanmar airways��� the best is she take Friday flight sia��� they normally onli fly on mon, wed n fri��� then I can go n spend time with her before she leaves���. Guys, any ideas on wat I can buy/make for her as a memoir? Let me noe k��� thanks��� I hafnt studied for thermo lehz��� how���. Die liaoz��� but hor���. MOULIN ROUGE SHOWING���. So em going to catch the show���. Heez��� haiz��� class quiz r like there for me to flunk��� diaoz���.
blogged at 6:49 PM
Thursday, February 12, 2004
now in the lab...ROTTING... sianz.. was supposed to help out in the oepn house but.... haiz... dun wish to elaborate anymore... bloggie, u noe i noe... -_-||||||
now very sianz.... i discovered i cant smile for long... haiz... too much sadness inside me... just now heard tat the maths project is pair work... diaoz.... who will work with me? huiyi just now at the aduitorium ask mich to work with her laizo... so tat means two out... hmmm left who? diaoz.... haiz.... walk one step look one step ba...
tonite will be going to grandma place... got classes later... and i forget to bring my notes as usual... diaoz.... wonder when then i can remember the stanzas of verses... diaoz... everyone can remember laioz,.... onli me... even small kids also remembered laioz.... how? if they all can chant but i can't is so darn pai seh... haiz...
tmr i wan to meet judy for dinner and mayb go tp for open house... but then horz.... if today they cant finish the meeting i will have to meet them on friday nitez.... how.... then how i go meet judy.... tat time say until now... but i still hafnt go with her to the turkish rest at suntec... haiz... must keep my promise... tonite try to cut short the meeting... if not really will become every friday all gather at my hse laioz... diaoz... then i really every friday must stay home frm mrg to nitez...and COOK for them.. diaoz... then how... i dun wan lahz... later must asap for everyting ah.... haiz... such a small grp yet got so many problems... haiz...everyone is not as united as before.... haiz... i tot we were supposed to be united... i tot everyting can be solved by talking... but i guess i was wrong.... i looked onli at tings i assumed... nv reali looked at the big picture... haiz... but now wat was i supposed to do... i dun wan to see everyone like tat... how... haiz...
May there be a light in front of me... i need guidance.... someone pls guide me...
blogged at 6:06 PM
yesterday someting happened... haiz... i tried very hard to keep it...but... my eyes refused to do it... haiz... so paiseh... argh..... oh welll... dunno how to say liaoz... haiz...well... will try to get over wat happen...
today during the fluid n particle lecture, k guy they all sit behind me..haiz... leg long hand long ppl will always have prob... i normally put my leg under the seat mahz...then he kick my leg!arghhh.... haiz... why all the leg long long ppl must kick ppl de... :X BUT he said sorry... so forgiven.. then later i blur blur go and put the table down... nearly hit his leg...diaoz...today yow lecture early by 1 hr... wahz... then had to go pack the goodie bag... cos still got alot to pack, so michelle made an appeal to the lect hall ppl in the end got alot of ppl go... haha...when i making the things got tis splinter go into my finger.... wahz... poke in tat time like v pain.... finally i felt phyisical pain... diaoz...
then at first onli me n anna there packing....later weehock, k guy,yong qiang and some guy i tink call wei qiang came to help us... haha... see they all pack like so slack... then yong qiang do the first step mahz... so they lkeep on ask him to go slower, cos he do v fast... haha... then keep throwing more things for him to do... the cycle goes tis way...
yong qiang, me, the wei qiang,wee hock, anna li and lastly keng guan... all like bullying the keng guan... haha... he one shoot must put a lot of bags... haha... diaoz... then they started staring at a ger... cos she wear tight mahz... and she has a realli developed.. * bossom* diaoz... they started talking all the carp... like his position is the best to see lahz... and stufff... they dunno who say is the ger purposely wan to show off de... diaoz... *faints* however they remind me of nandeska dirty jokes and all... i miss the times when i was in sec sch... really fun lehz... haiz... today hear them tok all the stuff but cannot laugh loudly like i used to do when i was back at school... haiz... but hear them tok really rake up all the meomeries... :D i miss u guys... hope to have some gathering soon lehz...
must go try tat stupid biz man chinese compre... but i very tired... haha... diaoz... tmr i not going for quality control...will be accompanying mich to go to mac for bfast... diaoz...well... see if tmr got anyone help me sign attenance ba...
tmr must wake up early to do the biz man compre...sianz....
blogged at 12:27 AM
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
now trying to do the lab report.... but... haiz,... jus now war again... sianz.... haiz... y everytime must like tat... then in the end everyone is not happy and stuff.... then no one gets to do their stuff... no com, no tv, no peace... very tired of tis lehx..... haiz... me go back n attempt l;ab report laioz lah... sianz...
blogged at 12:37 AM
Monday, February 09, 2004
well... i din reali blog over the weekend... heez... oh well.. basically me now addicted to ch 62...SERIOUSLY ADDICTED...I WATCH UNTIL WEE HRS OF THE MRG... heez... now while blogging i m watching it too... repeat tis old show, shen jing dao yu fei tian mao... got jimmy lin, maggie cheung,jacky cheung... its tat flying fox story... haha... so long ago show... remember last time very crazy ovfer jimmy lin.... he is realli one baby face sia... haha.... today mrg was so freaking late for sch...i tot is at 9 mahz... last session we were supposed to b at 8... now shld b 9 wat... go there is become 4 ppl in a grp to do the experiment... diaoz....
walked back to get slipper for mich... cos her slipper came out.... heez... happened to me once... so paiseh... must walk slowly... diaoz... mum tot wat happen.... i just tell her i later wearing slipper for lecture... so more comfortable... heng ah... she nv suspect... haha....
today for quekie class got ppl come n film...then call us fill some form... waht qualities shld a good / bad teacher have.... diaoz...then quekie say the guy (anthony tan) is here cos got complaint tat got alot of ppl slp in class... but if he come during albert lesson... haha... sure die... :X then i wrote alot... then KK he come over and tok cock... diaoz.... say wat nv fang them yi ma... haiz.... but i still consider tat short leh.... make me so pai seh... -_-|||
iscover tat the SHE new album tat i d/l is not complete... alot of songs onli 1 min plus... hmmm... is this album realesed liaoz... if not tat means is they get frm dubious means..... diaoz...
anyway me going back to watch tv laioz... alter going to msn then see how... must settle the venturi report somehow... haiz.... brb...
jon, haha... i saw ur signature liaoz... heez... thanks wor... anyway if u get ur bloggie must let me noe k... :D
blogged at 6:32 PM
Friday, February 06, 2004
yest mrg went for q c late(again)haiz...... then the biz man horz... we got to print out the missing stuff ourselves....sianz... tis is so sickening... last time marketing also got to print... now biz man also got to print... diaoz...
i finally returned quek the cd... haha... when thermo ended, it was time for me to go "swimming" siaoz.... so nervous... went to toilet again... sianz... at first got scream... haha...then at least beter laioz... not so much screaming but still v tense n scared...well... at least i made some progress...heez... thanks to wilmer, mich,anna and huiyi who were at the pool... wee hock, leonard and k guy also were swimming... diaoz... so pai seh... then wee hock also say he also v scared of water de... haha... hope i can learn asap ba... but actually still abit scared lorz... haiz... but not as much..
when go home tat time saw leonard fren... he say he call joel.. diaoz.. made a new fren :D must make it a point to say hi to him..saw quek too... when i come down the escalator...quek say he got swim... friday or saturday.. then he also learn frm frenz... no formal lesson..haha.. he say just like tat learn lorz... but the ting is.... how to like tat learn... diaoz... went to ABC and bought watercolor pens for $1 then got 30 pens lehz...wahz...but got some like crack at the pen cap or the pen plastic casing...haiz... no one uses watercolor pens anymore...but they r best for coloring u noe? :P
today during song lesson... can see he v stress... ahha... got me in his class..the blur one.. haha...diaoz..but not i wan de mahz... just tat the thermodyanmics horz... haiz...
blogged at 1:29 AM
Thursday, February 05, 2004
still sick... diaoz... haiz... today albert call us for a meeting cos tat song heng mun complained abt us....diaoz... hmmm... tot he was some pretty cool guy... but oh well.. he turned out to be... diaoz... today was the pack open hse goodies day... diaoz... the cd-r was so screwd up i winded up burning many copies of remember... thre them down the bin just now... sianz... ahiz... smartbuy beter... haiz... must go sls buy laioz... if not will die from dehydration of music...
tmr will be learning swimming... hope i can survive ba...
today thge packing goodies bag mich brother came to help too... he is so cute... haha... cos he is still young...young kids r always beta than old boys... :X diaoz... i said hello but he din hear... then mich say to him tat got to say hello back... then intro me as "mummy" diaoz... can see the "scratch scratch" on his head... haha... make him blurz... reminds me the first time i know wat god-mother was.... when i was young, my mum let her fren take my sister as god- daughter... when i heard my sis call her mummy i tot she wan going to take my sisiter away... remembered tat i cried over it... diaoz... but now i also call her god - ma... haha... so funny... haiz... the good ol' innocent days.. when we were all "dunno" "dunno" haha... but it will not come back will it? nvm i just wan to be happy now... i wan to be like in the past when i was in sec sch... happy go lucky... laughing and smiling frm my heart...i will be able to do it... i can and i will and i shall.... haha... me go slp laioz... tmr got albert lesson... later i make grand entrance again... :X
blogged at 12:58 AM
Monday, February 02, 2004
hmmm... tis whole holiday... haiz... been sick like hell..flu,cough n sore throat...but still got to go to ppl hse for chinese new year... haiz... why must everyone start to call ppl go to their hse to makan during cny? haiz... so jialat... then i go there, eat medicine and slp... must wait for ppl all to finish gambling then i can go home... haiz...
the funniest ting happen... i go to some provision shop then like v sick, the uncle ask me isit eat too much chicken... lame joke.... *bird flu* diaoz...
haiz... just got news tis afternoon tat tmr got to hand in lab reports and tmr got MATHS test... diaoz... haiz...today went to irene place.... no com at her place sia...hmmm... she's single,living with her married sibling... woithout children... tons of vcds and photos of them when they go overseas... but ... NO COMPUTER.... diaoz...
tis year start onli, have been falling sick... sianz... how come suddenly me so weak? diaoz...
haiz... tmr go sch see how ba...
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