Thursday, September 30, 2004
so accurate!
well, wat a start to a day! ck din burn her proj disc n her stuff was in one of the coms in the whole pile of coms in the proj room mahz..so heez..i actuali picked the com tat contained her project at the first choice!!! heez..tok abt accurate...heez..darn proud of myself..i tink i had beta stop...hahaz...before i become so bigheaded..and float...hahaz...then we borrowed samuel de thumbdrive and later tonight i will be helping her burn her disc..
Then was chatting to tis guy called raymond when we were like setting up the coms.....he's quite a funny guy though, told me some stuff tat set me thinking...like the following: when u r young u start to tink tat after work tis amt of time, wan to go here go there..but when reality really sets in, u will discover tat at the end of the day, u study so hard is just to keep ur loved ones alive n happy..then just when u tot tis will b the last exam..then u discover tat when u go into the society and work, constant upgrading is needed...wat u study now is might not really b revelant to wat u work in the future...for eg. he studied biz studies in Ngee ann poly..but in the end he is now at JI doing admin...
tt george..argh..asked me why i am not attached...wth..why is everyone ard me so eager to c me attached..haiz.. not attched means not attached lahz... why must one be attached? now he n justin are like in the room playing on the coms too..wat if ppl walk past?kaoz...haiz... nv spare a tot for me n ck...haiz...
heez...me now using back the same com tt i used to do my safety proj..anyway, have handed in the whole proj le..hahaz...yeah!!!!! no more FYP!!
okie.. before i go off for lunch, here's a kunda pic heez...omg...he's so cute!!!
blogged at 11:43 AM
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
FuN dAy !!!
http://noracom.net/eng/fortune/color_cheki1.php
From the above webby..heez..quite accurate!
You are Green Fawn, whose
expression and attitude seems slow and lacks energetic action. You are quiet and don't say much. You will not show your inner feelings to people easily. You have the heart of a young child, and although you may act bit selfish, you will not make enemies. You are shy and reserved, and tends to be bit like
dreaming little girl. By depending on others you express yourself, and therefore people find it hard to hate you.You are
not very good at handling real world. You are interested in emotional and mental fields. And tend to study subjects like religion and mysterious things.You have a tendency to be self satisfied, but you yourself do not mind that at all. You actually enjoy that.You are
good at fending off other people's frustration and anger. Therefore you don't get caught up in troubles, and are able to lead a quiet and peaceful life. You
can not stand difficult situations, and will
easily give things up. If you can work with those people who are gentle and kind, they can bring out your inner talent.Once married, you will be an excellent wife who would protect her house and family.
Well just took tis quiz tat takes ur birthday..kinda accurate,hahaz.. wat do u guys tink?
Today CPTC kinda quiet... cos alot of ppl go back NYP take their report..then was kinda having fun "playing" with everyone..hahz..was disturbing the guys abt the room having a stench..disturbing samuel abt erm...hahaz.. then later is when we go out to help change the gasket..was feeling kinda hyper.. then was like hahaz..hahaz...
then later had a darn early lunch..after tt was like slack..saw
morgan..heez.. he was like ............. haiz...nv offered to help me out of tis shit...haiz...
then b4 we went back, was in the training room,when....haiz... just pai seh lahz... but at least i can finally get di er tian tang cd le..heez...getting it from tis guy called yongjun..heez..will be borrowing it i guess....yongjun will also be in my group during shift..well, he assured me tt group 3 will be very fun cos got tis guy called ken.. >_< my impression of ken? he is one of the two guys who help me n george moved the ladder when we needed it..and dawn was the one who asked them to help us...heez..the other guys is of cos kristino...
Then cos I went to look for ong lai to tell him tmr me, ck n xy going back sch, decided to walk the back door to the bus, then the malay guy, kristino was like smiling and waving hi...hahaz..he's one funny guy,then this other ITE guy was like staring at me as if i just landed from outer space when i smiled and waved back at kristino..haiz...
then went to the library..haiz...wanted some books de...but..reached the borrower quotea le...haiz...
had a very good chat with idiot's fren..well, he is also another one who is always encourging me to get attached.. he was saying cos i nv get doted by a guy before, since dun have bf b4 mahz..omg.. then i guess wat mr pah said to me had a very big influential power over my thinking..i still remember his exact words...its roughly like tis...when a guy from his group starts to be "steady" with this other ger from another group, they will start to distance themselves from their group/clique..then when they break up due to certain reasons, they will find it difficult to blend back in their own group/clique..
well, i beta stop le..heez..very tired...going slp le lahz...hahaz...nitez ppl.. will try to blog all the funny tings that happen in cptc... tings sure are looking brighter ( i was just practicing my shooting skills today...hey hey... not bad...din reali lose everyting tt was taught to me or learnt when watching slamdunk...hahaz..) at there...hahaz...
blogged at 11:10 PM
Monday, September 27, 2004
teary = originator of war?
i tink i just sparked off another war..haiz...It's always me...sorry...guess its always my actions tat lead to chain actions...mayb i am simply just tis suay...dunno lahz...i tink we seriously lack the communication...why cant we all just sit down at a nice cafe and throw out everyting... just talk tings out?
well, we are always still slacking in CPTC..dunno doing wat...just sit ard... no com to use noting to do...watever lahz..... i still am not able to use the home com tat often, wat to do, got ppl at my house always use wat, by the time i use it is always like darn late and I will have to try and do my stuff when I am like half asleep... so dun ask me why till now I still cant do my frontpage summary or the read me file for the final year project...or why I have not burnt out the CD for submission for the final year project...
was talking abt the touch tingy on the way back home, well, I am still currently on the look out for someone who can touch me...hahaz...oops..am begining to sound lame..ppl who know me will get wat i mean..I need tons of time...i guess....also talked abit abt idiot...and heez...why good looking guys r just for eye candy while the not so good guys r beta for a "mate" ...... clue: teary's need for sense of security all the time and laziness....
hmmm..someone wans to play matchmaker...well... hahaz... shall keep tat a secret for now first...dun really tink it will b successful though...i dun mind playing along..but..chances are low...how to find a guy who will/ is .................... u noe.... tink each dot represents one ting....guess me quite selfish huh.. me wan guy to change..but i'm not even confident if I will change.. selfish ol' me...lolz... forget it lahz... guess ppl like me will b beta off alone? hahaz...
blogged at 10:26 PM
Sunday, September 26, 2004
some tots....mayb every1 who noes me should read it
okie okie....i noe tat i have been getting really arrogant lately. like the whole world owes me everything. humility's something i seem to have forgotten...i dunno y... but i seem to be getting more n more attitude....building a very thick wall of defence ard me...dun even noe y in e first place i build such a wall....mayb i need it...mayb i dun...
i just dun feel happiness anymore suddenly....tears were welling but didnt drop....when i smile, its not longer frm the heart...there's alot of pressure to please all around me...but how do u please every1?
my head n heart were so heavy and before i knew it i was on the floor crying..i feel the need to hide. i just cant seem to trust anyone with my tots...someting seems to be missing in my life....wat is it?i dunno....
haiz.... why is it to difficult to smile tis days????
wat am i lacking of?? or like wat they say, i should not b so picky n just get any guy...however... how do i explain to a guy tt he will have to accept me for who i m, wat i have to do, am commited to do? guess its not easy huh...mayb i will be beta without a guy? or do i really need someone to b there for me??? religion wise put aside, character wise lehz... below is a short description of me..
someone who rather die than admit she is wrong....
wans pride n face....
stubborn
always wanna win...
not a vey neat person....
commited to religion.. (yes, i believe in cultivating now rather than when u die)
dun take meat....alcohol....(yes, i dun ciong anymore....)
scared of alot of tings,like,dog,cat,failure........sudden shock....try saying boo behind me...
very sensitive to touch... ~>_<~ dun ask me y..i also duno...
very simple person
no money, no looks, no grand family background
eldest in the family = i have 2 younger siblings
wan simple life
slow....
blur blur always
walk 2 fast
no confidence faith trust in herself
tends to look on the surface of tings (superfical)
does not reali spare tot for others (self centred)
don't reali like to share my tots verbally...cos i'm not v good with expressing myself...
always can be come a joke n make others laugh...the worst part?i dunno why they laugh..
always centre of attraction...and i dunno y...
guess i beta stop...b4 everyone simply gets too turned off by me...mayb i shld really sort out my tots..but the ting is.....i cant tink properly...haiz.....watever lahz...
guess i'm not a very worthy tingy ard huh....
blogged at 1:10 AM
Thursday, September 23, 2004
suay lah
haiz... from the start of the IAP on moday to today has been suay days....
monday 20/9/2004
washed the pump strainer..was no easy feat....then had to use alot of strength..trainers basically just left us there to do the job...then the worst ting happened... we had to use a hammer to hammer the small spanner... and when i was holding it... xy used the hammer to whack my right hand...i as like ouch............haiz.... then alot of sweat...me n ck decided tat if we cont like tis, it will be a 5 wk diet exercise programme for us... then i went to the workshop to find the wire brush for the strainer...haiz... the guys (jesse, justin george) haiz... had me n ck all drenched...cos is 6 of us working on it wat....went home very tired....
tuesday 21/9/04
another suay day start....janice walked in and say tat me n esther will b assisting her for thr furnace practical...her grp is the nyp ppl...then the duno heng or suay ting happened.... it rained the whole day...then later alex say he need help for the car seal, which was supposed to b done by ck, xy n jusin...since they r the ones who typed the ting mahz...in the end became me, xy n ck...guys...they simply cant b trusted....
wednesday 22/9/04
well, xy went to see doc, ck supposed to do janice de maximo pro..so when janice came in to look for ppl to cont the car sea list onli left me le...then she said she needed 2 other ppl...george n jesse volunteered...watever justin said was just /ignore....then wilson said to janice tat justin also... so in the end i split the list into 2, me n george, justin n jesse.... the rest all went to do the labelling...diaoz... the most suay ting happened to me... when climbing the platform, i tripped...and it was the on fours kind.. one of my shoe even come out...i injured my palms and my right knee cap...AGAIN...WTF... was like walking funny funny le lorz....haiz...
the dinner was a success though..heez..although it was quite funny lahz... hahaz...
thursday (today)
I decided not to go jurong...but woke up at 6 plus all the same... wth...now slacking..later go see the chinese doc... tink he's most prob gonna do accunpucture on me again..haiz... my legs are like so useless...injured the like so many times...he has warned me abt my walking speed alot of times...haiz...and my hand still is kinda swollen from the hammer whack...but...wth..i suay lahz....
blogged at 7:57 AM
Friday, September 17, 2004
wan le wan le !!!!!
I FINALLY FINISHED THE PROJECT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hahaz...feeling so happy...when i finished it in the lab, nearly wanted to cry..even though it is of no standard lahz... towards the end I do de...but, at least I finished le... hahaz...
actuali today wanted to get judy out de..but she long time no go archery le... so..mayb later meeting owyong only ba...see how...
today come back hand in report...then its slack...haiz...
Breakdown of my report:
132 compulsory must be color total got 352 pages....the rest is header got color...hahaz...all tis must times 2 cos need 2 copies mahz...then the hard binding cost 12 dollars... the divider is 1.85 each and i bought 2..so is 3.70..then the hole protector i bought 2 box...so is 2.40..then the file that time i bought is 4...so is 8 bucks...total cost 26.10!!! but actualli i saved alot on printing le..heez...
well, all is over le...and i tink we r realli doing co training with the ITE ppl...well, mayb I should take mr chong's suggestion and ask if can cont on my proj....for the 5 weeks...how? even someone else also tell me do tat beta than do _______... but morgan not ard here today... how to ask...i also abit sick of all tis safety tingy le...haiz... duno lahz... someone suggest to me do wat lehz....haiz...dun wana wear PPE...go plant...hahaz..I tink i used to sitting on chair n good life le...haiz...they say they having 3 weeks of shift work....i duno lahz..shift work tat time i cant reali slp well...then back pain..all this weeks of sitting in front of com has masde my hands, shoulders and back stiff and pain...i turn my back is like got sound de lorz...dun need the chinese doc to turn for me siaz...I can also make the sound...haiz... old le... hahaz...
blogged at 1:49 PM
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
ai qing he yue last esp...
yesterday watch fin Ai qing he yue..the last esp..well, missed alot of the story..suddenly she's in a coma like state...he's riding a scrambler(his skills look good hahaz..) and they going to the sea, then from they wan to die become she suddenly awake...then become they married.....diaoz....
I tink I will be going for the trip le..i guess...
later meeting morgan...beta get all my stuff straight....
take care ppl...
another internet rip b4 I go....
1. Understand that outer appearances are unreal because they are illusion.
2. Understand that inner mind is empty because it is devoid of self-entity.
3. Understand that thoughts are momentary because they occur due to conditions.
4. Understand that both your physical body and your voice are impermanent because they are conditioned.
5. Understand that the consequences of your actions are inevitable because all the pleasure and pain of sentient beings result from karma.
6. Understand that pain is your spiritual friend because it is the cause of renunciation.
7. Understand that pleasure and happiness are the demons of attachment because they are the roots of samsara.
8. Understand that many engagements are obstacles for merit because they hinder spiritual practice.
9. Understand that enemies and obstructions are your teachers because obstacles are inspiration for spiritual practice.
10. Understand that everything is of equal nature because all phenomena are ultimately devoid of self-nature. These were the ten things to understand.
blogged at 9:47 AM
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
cant finish...I cant take it anymore..
I am still in the mad rush of rushing everyting out..tmr must go meet morgan le..haiz...I cant take it anymore.....
today before coming out of the house, mum saw a rainbow...then she quickly ask me go see...hahaz...the good ting abt living at high level..last time i stay at 5th level..cant even c anyting... now i am at the top....hahaz...then suddeny got another rainbow appear...so the ting abt having 2 rainbows appearing together is true de lorz....yeah!!!!I got take some photo lahz...but the 2nd rainbow is not clear lehz...will put it up when I have the time...hahaz...teary's first double rainbow...
Still wondering whether wan to go for trip anot lahz.. cos.. if I dun go now, next year I must go look for work and do work le...if not how...family expenses are onli increasing..nv decreasing....but if I go, no money for bike license or bike...and still need to put aside money for....cannot tell...but i tink some ppl noe...not loan shark lahz....hahaz....
well, in a very sticky situation now lahz....beta go back n do my proj...used 15 min to type all tis siaz... take care ppl....tat is another one min...arghhhhh....
blogged at 2:36 PM
Sunday, September 12, 2004
night shift factory anyone?
I tot I'll nv shed a tear 4 u ever again.. But I was wrong...It is painful to noe tt when I cry now, there is no one around for me anymore...It is so difficult to cry witout tears and noise...I feel so bloody trapped....But who can help me...When there is no one ard...NO ONE....I tot I could make myself forget u, accept others...but when I saw u again..everyting is dashed...completely dashed....
The world is only out to make a joke out of me....I'm just a walking joke...A bloody joke...
My project also hafnt fin...sianz...I tink my final year project is bound to be just pass le lahz....haiz..wtf...waste my 3 years le...just pray hard tat come out got job let me do n can support family jiu hao le...
Finally saw the baby...he's co cute...so cute...I carried him...but not enuff experience lahz...so was like he was squirming and I was scared...then being a new baby all the aunties and all kids were like snatching to carry him...hahaz...but there was this once, where I was carrying him for a very long time...first time I felt like having a baby was so cool... new life in ur hands...he was always smiling and having fun..but he's single eye lid lahz...so he like always nv slp wake up face...hahaz...like me...always sleeping and show the hafnt wake up face...another close encounter was .... shortly after he left my hands.........he burped milk....omg...u noe when baby burp milk is super duper stink de lorz....hahaz.....heng ah...hahaz...
erm...impt announcement...I WILL BE GOING BACK "HOME" TIS YR IF
POSSIBLE... NEED TO RAISE 1200 AT LEAST BEFORE I GO FOR THE TRIP...SO ONCE CPTC IS OVER, NEED TO GO FIND NIGHT FACTORY WORK...BCOZ...NIGHT SHIFT MORE MONEY.....then....my bike license must put off for some time le...I dunno lahz... see how....
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ probs sucks.....
anyone keen to do night factory work pls let me noe...we can go look for work together...hahaz...Ciong all the way till i go and relax and rejunvate myself...hope for a beta year next year....anyway wong just confirmed tat 20 dec will b when we start sch...
blogged at 8:05 PM
Friday, September 10, 2004
messed up life...
well, I'm back in sch today cos later going to print the ppt slides for my project. alot of tings happened yest...haiz...messed up life...sucks...ever since the day I saw him...life has been going downhill...is it me or him?or the enviroment I am in?mayb I dun even belong or blend in here...
watever lahz..I havent't done the following items.
- weekly progress report starting from week 5...total of 8 weekly progress report to complete....
- printing and binding of reports.. ( hard bound and ring bound)
- hazard identification ppt
- permit to work ppt
- occupational health ppt
- have to redo the evaluation form for the course
- handouts for all topics except factories act...means I have got 9 topics of notes to do...
- hazard identification 20 questions
- permit to work 20 questions
- safe means of access 20 questions
- occupational health 20 questions
- accident case studies 20 questions
Have decided not to do the speaker's notes...will be leaving tat out..most prob next week when go back to cptc will talk to morgan..haiz..may the one above save me....
blogged at 9:55 AM
Thursday, September 09, 2004
who's the IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yesterday on my way back home, I saw someone I tot I will nv see again...IDIOT!!! he was in front of me when I alighted at yck...with tis malay guy... (why not a girl?) apparantly he din have much changes...onli tat his hair seems shorter now..well, yest was ppt..so I was wearing heels..and I was scared...dunno whether wan to go and call him...
Saw him walking towards SSDC there..then at the bus terminal there, I sms him...and he din reply..till today...if u cant even b bothered to reply a sms, dun bother to keep fwd sms to me..
at first I was so happy tt ppt has finally eneded..now onli left with report to stress.. But I had to see him...in the end I nv do anyting for my proj yesterday...I was just too i duno lahz... to do anyting...wtf...get out of my life.......
blogged at 8:54 AM
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
PpT OvEr Le!!!
ITS OVER!!!! The ppt is over le....hahaz...finally... well, was so scared just now.. cos the first one to present kena shot by tan BS till v jialat..then I was so scared.. walked around outside and saw mr goh..hahaz..later I will be popping by his OPSOC class..hahaz..then morgan see me walk here walk there then he asked me if i was going to walk ard in circles until its my turn?hahaz.. after sally n justin was my turn!!!!!!!
Then when it was finally my turn..I was freaked out..cos the thumbdrive refused to load..diaoz...
Thru the ppt, I stuttered and was like not very confident at some slides...diaoz..then when i came to the piper alpha slides, the movie refused to play..only got sound, then i was like horrified..then i ask if I can show the clip later...tan bs nodded his head n i continued..diaoz..
then i found the link and played the thing. haiz...wat a silent 1.5 min....
Then it was wat I feared the most..question time...well, onli Tan bs shot question and comments like:
What is the purpose of showing the piper alpha clip?
At least you showed what you are doing (see accident case studies & safe means of access)
Should have beta slides then can link to it show
presentation wise nothing much to say( i tink he got say tis)
then chong had no questions...hahaz..actuali chong atteneded the course, he can shot me if he wans to though..hahaz..morgan I tink he noe i very scared so also nv ask questions..Tink I was more prepared at mid term ppt.
Actualli I was so scared tt I kinda forgot wat tan bs say.. but ck say tt he praised me..haiz.. I tink is becoz he hungry...cos immediately after i finished he ask when is lunch...haiz...
Then i went over to ask morgan how was it, then he was saying the ususal tings,I dun have the "skills" yet, so got some errors n also some parts not tat confident..but he said tat overall I did okie..hahaz....
Now is to ciong the report le..haiz..friday i will be printing the report....heez..going back sch...
blogged at 11:58 AM
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
died!
Well, proj still; not done..supervisor rushing me for it..haiz.. later will pass him teh tings i guess...haiz..no matter how late i saty up to do the bloody proj, still cant finish...I'm getting abit sick...haiz...
later going to get clothes for the ppt..later show the girls see if can..hahaz..I also duno...getting abit tired..
I HAFNT DONE MY FINAL PPT SLIDES...and it is TMR!!!!!!
back to doing my own stuff le...may buddha bless...
I managed to get someone to help me print le...yeah!!!!!
I got the clothes for my ppt le..was quite a feat though hahaz..shall type in the details tmr..got to rush my project..ppl wish me luck for tmr ppt ba..hahaz... I hafnt even fin the slides..arghhhhh...
blogged at 9:17 AM
Monday, September 06, 2004
WaKEy WaKeY RiSe N sHiNe !!!
haiz..now I really am worrying...its the last week of the project..and I hafnt finished my project...wat's making it worse is tat I cant wake up in time..haiz..wat is gonna happen in the last 6 weeks?haiz..
tmr me will go back to cptc..by hook or by crook..cos must discuss with morgan abt my project...wong say if cant fin..will not b able to get good grade..either a C or a D...but project supervisor comments most impt..then after tat they nyp lecturers will grade it...i'm putting about $60 bucks aside for this printing..dunno enuff anot also..haiz...most prob will try to print it asap...haiz...and the hard bound tingy..haiz...all is S 11...life sucks...this whole attachment sucks..its an attachment without any allowance...we r all so pathetic...But who are we to complain?
Below is a pic of my last tuition kiddo..well, she's quite an attitude ger though..hahaz..
blogged at 9:01 AM
Friday, September 03, 2004
NE PPT
just now saw quekie when I was opening the door to Q4..to be more accurate, is I waiting for him to open the door..hahaz..Then he suggested wearing lab coat and printing in the analytical lab...hahaz...I ask him then u help me print la..his immmediate response? if u can find me.. -_-|||
Guess I'll have to print at the print shop le... haiz..tis attachment alot of money siaz.... haiz...
Later having NE ppt..still tinking of a good introduction..I'll be talking first..well, me going to do my stuff le...CIONG PROJECT FIRST...haiz...
he dun let me cut down...haiz...
blogged at 9:45 AM
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
cant wake up again..
Today me in school again...cos I cant wake up..haiz... Now alot of tings to do for the project...I hope I can learn some fen sheng shu(split body skill) and then with alot of computers..then mayb can finish up to morgan's expectations...haiz... shall not blog anymore...I go do my stuff le...
CK: Must jia you okie.. JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU !!! We all JIA YOU together....
Decided to cont tis post...erm...this is an announcement!
I WILL NOT BE FREE/AVAILABLE FOR THIS WEEK AND NEXT WEEK...CIONGING FINAL YEAR PROJECT..ANYTING PLS LET INFORM ME AFTER 10 SEP! THANKS..
will not be updating tis blog as often...but will still check n update my shoutbox...heez... :D
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