Friday, July 30, 2004
not taking the tpt for the first mth
Well, I have kinda decided liaoz..be staying in nyp for the first month, ciong my project..sorry...will take the bus on the second and third month..but i dun tink i have got tat much spare cash.. dun wish to go borrow or anyting like tat anymore.Sorry guys, will try my very best to meet u all often..remember to keep in touch via e-messenger.net..
Monday(2/8) I will take 715 and 716 to get to cptc.. then get my stuff from the locker..U guys wan the extra space?I can pass you guys my locker key.. then get it back from u all one mth later...heez..
Tis sunday have to go for jesse's auntie the oral ting... well.. hoping for it to be a success..have asked for my pay to be in cash... guess i'm becoming too practical tis days... I hate myself being tis way.. but... haiz... forget it...
today will be the last day I slack,next week will be serious work.. Have to like start to slowly start printing some of the stuff out..if not like got too much stuff liaoz...haiz... I have send an email to morgan yap asking him abt the speaker's notes tingy... guess I will have to go to his office on monday. Have to plan everyting out again.. and then ask him once and for all... then it will be serious work time..
Everyone gambette for wat they all have to do ba! Carpe Diem! (Seize the day!)
blogged at 4:02 PM
sianz in sch and cptc
HAIZ...SIANZ.. tat is all I can say..Yesterday came back to NYP did noting except to get 3 books from the library and read alot of cook books... diaoz... kinda lame... also complained to chris loh, sunil abt how we are being unjustly treated both at cptc and nyp...
i feel so sandwiched,so compressed, so lost, its like going to cptc sucks going to sch also sucks...haiz... how? its like i cant do anyting properly... one week is going to pass, yet I haven't done anyting for my project yet.. really.. I just feel so stagnent.. dun feel like doing anyting, just wana slack away..
Today is the last day for the NYP project students.. yet its like still cant realli use the com yet.. haiz... they are doing the NE ppt.. yet we like dunno doing wat.. cos they are all using the com, me? hahaz... i took over leonard's com while he went for the ppt..hahaz... but i signed for the com next to leonard's com.. so...hahaz... sorry leonard..however, he got the com back again... haiz.. so I was without a com, then Sally kinda got Justin away then I was able to use the a com again... hahaz...
Still wondering whether to take the transport anot...its like if i dun go cptc,then always come nyp,the lecturers will say "why u always here?" then if i stay here then chuikeat, sylvia and michelle all at cptc, then I will be so alone.. But if i stay at nyp, i will save the $50.. mayb the train concession too...It will be like i will be saving half of the money i am getting every month..
haiz... dunno lahz.. i need someone to make the decision for me...haiz..I should have gotten the 2 B license as soon as i was able to... sianz...No use regretting... now have to decide whether to take anot... how? bloggie tell me lahz!
blogged at 10:20 AM
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
CK not ard!
Yesterday had like one hour before tuition, Ck acc me ard jurong east interchange there, then we did someting very funny...I tot I will only do such a thing in m'sia..hahaz..
WE ATE DURIANS IN PUBLIC..at first we bought 2, one for me and one for her, but in the end we shared...hahaz..guess I ate very fast, so i ate most of it..hahaz.. then the 2nd one tat we eat, cant be open, so I went back to the uncle there, ask him to help us cut afew more cuts..I was disturbing his cigarette break.. hahaz..but he din just cut the durian,
HE GAVE ME ONE FREE FOR ME N CK..heez..hahaz.. buy 2 get 1 free...diaoz... after we finish the 3 durians,we kinda din have enuff, so we got 2 more.. hahaz.. ate 5 durians in total...was quite nice lahz.. reminds me of last time when i used to stay in St George with grandma,grandpa,big uncle,his wife,small uncle,mum,dad,my sis and brother..we used to all stay together... in a 3 room flat..hahaz.. i still remember it is at Blk 7, #9-XXX heez.. they will go and get durians in this big brown paper bag(also dunno get from where de) then we will all sit in a circle in the kitchen and then cos its always at nite,we will feel sleepy and then small uncle will always throw the durian shell across and attempt to hit us with it.. hahaz... those were the fun days!!!
Ck is not ard at CPTC today... hope everyting is okie for her. Buddha bless.
They are playing with the newspaper ball again...Tink I will go to School to wrap up my project..cant stand the noise and everyting... I need peace to quickly finish my project...haiz.. I still short of alot of tings not done yet lehz... haiz..But go school also not very good...haiz...It is so contradicting...haiz...
Then in the end kick the ball till their own ppl... haiz...win liaoz lorz..(-_-)
blogged at 9:26 AM
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
2nd day of doing project.. I'm late..
Hmm..I was late.. took the bus along with james.. hahaz..Wong came just now.. guess is due to the stupid email tat was sent to yow yest.. but, anyway he looked more tired... just now he sit at the side table next to me.. then tok half way i just turn my chair back to face the com instead of him and he walked out to the other room..hahaz.. a near prefect natural breakpoint, but it was initated by me lahz though..
just now kena niao by ong lai...sianz...haiz.. dunno wat to say liaoz lahz.. let it be lorz...haiz..
just now helped dawn call the ppl who are not here as they need to hand in tis jurong island pass form tingy..so, i did the calling, while Ck did the writing... then george was like, haiz... forget abt it..anyway it was a funny fone call lahz... hahaz...
wana quickly find one day and try to ride bicycle again.... if not how to go get 2B license.... haiz... east coast pasir ris watever... I wan a bicycle... then it will be a bike, X8 seems nice, but very big, scared i no strength to move it... hahaz... $8600...wahz... abit ex though... mayb get vespa? hahaz... get a bright yellow de... hahaz... okie, below are some pics of my dream bike(s)...
GT 125
X8
Super four
blogged at 2:25 PM
Monday, July 26, 2004
First day of project AGAIN! in cptc..
Yeah! Nyp
finally allowed us to blog again..hahaz..well..but the page is very very slow though..
She just send me a sms to say she is sorry.. Many a times i wonder the value of this word "SORRY" wat does it really mean? watever.. I'm too tired to think already.. all i know now is I wan to get my own thumbdrive asap.. and return her fren the thumbdrive i'm using..
trip down to simlim anyone? contact me!
Ong lai still seems to be giving tat attitude towards us.. so i dunno how to tell him I wana go back to NYP n not come to cptc..haiz..
I seem to be losing courage, really.. not as outspoken anymore..I dunno wat has come over me..Just feel so tired..and listless..
I seem to have lost my direction in Life.. I need guidance, but who can be there to help me?to guide me?Haiz.. Life sucks for now...
Dun feel like coming to CPTC, so many tings are happening, kena complained again..haiz.. its like tis guy complained straight to yow kum pang via email.. the ting is wat were the guys doing in his office?haiz..made themselves yet again vulnerable to another complaint.
Everyone seems to be staring on their final report and everyting.. me? I'm still slacking.. cos i din bring my file here.. actually i brought noting other than the thumbdrive..haiz.. tmr must bring the file here.and bring earphones..to block myself off everyting here... sianz... If not is after the school project students they come over to CPTC, then me go back to NYP..but we are going to share bus with them(I think so) so it makes it not very worthwhile to go back to school..
Just now jesse said someting abt having this test, the auntie oral tingy..apparently it was due to this other guy, but watever it is, years of earning $$$ has told me tat $$$ dun come easy..Just hope tat i will be able to make it and tat's it.expected to make $70 X 4 = $280 out of it.. Sure hope tat it will not be too draining.. remember the other times when i was helping out at the malay orphanage, the kids reali drained my energy, but they were cute and fun..
Guess i beta not edit and edit and make tis post super long liaoz..heez.. tat's abt it...heez.. take care ppl.. may this day start and end nicely for u all out there.. Buddha Bless..
blogged at 10:49 AM
Sunday, July 25, 2004
I have been getting pissed and irritated with everyting recently...Nothing goes my way or close to my way...Sometimes i realy dunno what the heck on earth am i trying and trying...Why should i be bothered if there is not enuff dough to go around?why should i make my pocket money stretch to accomodate both my expenses and some of the grocerries? why should i scrimp and save? why? Its like no one appreciate what the fuck i does.. I am really tired.. No one understands...I reali need someone, has teh person just walked past me or simply has not made an appearance yet?
I tot i will never cry again...But the quarrel with mum just now proved otherwise..sianz.. Actally if i were to put my family and other stuff opn the scales, i know tat the family will be heavier...But Is it the same for them? I dunno..
I dun understand why when the both of us are simply having the same amount of pocket money, yet u cant provide even for yourself, always taking my stuff..its very irritating do u know tat!
She has just got a
new phone...wth..
camera phone somemore..its like ever since i am at cptc, I have been hoping to get a camera phone.. so i can capture the images at jurong island..who knows if i will be able to go there when this 24 weeks are over...haiz.but who cares..no one actually bothers with what i feel actually.. Actualli if it is my brother who got the fone, i believe i will not be as PISSED! his phone is like in desperate need of replacement lorz. But the fone actually went to her,tis is a cenario of coincidence or just another act of BIG EYES VS SMALL EYES ? the worst ting is when i heard tat the reason of them getting the fone is bcoz "
cheap wat,last day promotion,singtel de,everyone also is getting it." wa laoz.. if tat is the case, everyone is having mp3 player, get one fo me lahz..I wan a bicycle, get one for me lehz.. everyone is having a license, get one for me lehz..everyone is getting a motorbike,car.. get one for me lehz..I wan to go for a photogrphy class..get one for me lehz.. I wan better features,figure lehz....get one for me lehz.. I wan to go for a makeover, get one for me lehz.. wa laoz... how lame can u all get???? hahaz... I tink i'm losing my senses and am going crazy...
anyway, tomorrow marks the start of another phase in the 24 gruesome week in Jurong Island..cos i have just completed my training... so its back to project again.. Gamebtte lehz!
Nyp have like blocked blogger..so I will try to type wat happened during the training okie..and i will post it here..cos alot of tings have happened during the training..
just now went to meet
- Han wen
- Zong wei
- William
- Marcus
- Simon
- Zhaoxiang
- Siong Kiat
At AMK S11..hahaz.. was nice meeting them, guess everyone din change much huhz.. :P
Before tat went to meet jesse's aunt for the oral ting, determined to give my best and hope to earn the cash asap... dun like to owe ppl money liaoz..heard from jesse tat it will be $70 a day..well, ppl just pray for me tat i can keep my sanity...
I'm losing it soon...someone save me pls!
blogged at 11:52 PM
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
later will be going to meet jesse, mich , jon abt jesse aunt the sminar ting, will post details here later as soon as i get it.. wat to do..i need cold hard cash..
yesterday teach the kid until i want to vomit...the mother always like drag until so late then come and pick her...haiz.. kena taken advantage, my aunt says next time at the most extend 15 min more..then must stop.. cannot let the parent got the bad habit of picking her up late..in the end my dinner was... a cup of milo and a pack of biscuits... was too pissed to eat.. anyway, thanks to sylvia, who accompanied me to biukit gomabk... hahaz... in teh end she went to her mum's shop...
oops... i hafnt do log book...haiz..
must go to the driving centre later... to ask abt the fees..class 2B here i come.. :P
haiz... got to go to the library to return the books liaoz...amk library.. here i come...too bad he is not there anymore....haizzzzz....
blogged at 10:04 AM
Sunday, July 11, 2004
wahz.. got so long nv blog liaoz...so many tings happen..enuff to set me thinking...
8/7/2004--> saw nicholas (my older than me by 2,3 years de uncle, he's in army i tink..waiting to go to uni) nicknamed nick on the train the other day... it was like i din even have to walk..train door open and walk in to sit next to him.. hahaz..so qiao..hahaz.. the best part? we both got down at douby guant..he was going to catch a movie, me to carrefour to get some stuff for my mum..we talked abt our future and he advised me abt alot of stuff, long time no talk, so its like he can reali tok n tok.. i tink if it is me and some other relative, its most prob gonna stop at where r u going and wat u doing..nick can just talk n talk.. hahaz..he was talking about his choice in life..saying tat since he's 21 now, he sees things differently..well,he's main point is
have to plan your life, even f things dun turn out to be wat u expected, still have to plan
dun regret your decision
basically is abt there.. got some minor details cannot reveal.. heez..
been doing some thinking..plan to do the following..
save money
for a class 2B license
a motorbike
get a factory job for the holiday from oct to until sch start..
tink getting a license is a big prob though, seems to account to quite a big sum..haiz.. well..
but some tings simply need to be done..haiz..wat has to be done has to be done...
blogged at 10:31 PM
Friday, July 02, 2004
been quite a long time since i last blog.. alot of stuff happened..both good and bad,
it's gonna be the mid term exam soon... so many tings to study..haiz..
got alot of tings to say, but simply dunno how to put them here... oh well, all the best to me and everyting..
nitez.. bloggie.. nitez..
blogged at 11:57 PM
