Friday, April 30, 2004
din get a good slp yest.. haiz..sorry to those who msg me after 11.. cos i was away in dream land... feeling ache everywhere... dunno why.. haiz.... tis time de exam is giving me the creeps... its like i noe i wun be able to do well... well, i know tat my maths common test nearly flunked..haiz...
very vexed with myself..so frustrating... mayb i should have just take tings as they come instead of asking so much... i nv liked to make decisions.. its like watever i do also will not be good... wat m i supposed to do...now i feel like i'm at this crossroad..walk either way also will be doomsday...
haiz.. had a nightmare yest... no... is not onli 1... is alot...m i thinking too much? mayb i should have taken up mt e the 3 sessions... but... sianz...forget abt it lahz...go there i also wun talk much...
feel so sick...reali so sick.. watever is my decision i also like cannot live with it..wat the heck is it tat i wan?
no mood to study...will i be able to make it? no one noes...
blogged at 10:17 AM
Thursday, April 29, 2004
hmmm.... thinking of someting now... haiz...already sick n tired of studying...now even more no mood to study... i really at a loss now...haiz...i duno wat i can take and wat i cant face...its like watever i pick also no good...wat m i suppose to do...haiz.. sianz... i go slp laioz lah... hope to have a decision when i wake up...
blogged at 10:37 PM
well.. i was vey late tody... haiz... started my day at the wrong note...but at least when i settle all the housework today, tmr i will be more free rite?cooked curry today... received good response..had packed aside one portion for someone... but in a rush to go out... i forgot... haiz...
today went to meet judy, she's on attachment now...attached to polo raulph lauren....haiz...wat abt me? no pay noting... still need to fork out $$$ for transport... haiz... well, i manage to FINALLY get the stupid digital camera (that time starhub offer de... tat benQ 2 mega pixel..but has no zoom... but beta than noting rite? :P ) after my sis has like stuck it to her body, finally... i get it... hahaz... walked around esplanade and was like darn, there were ppl running... there's tis jpmorgan or jcmorgan run... haiz... i took lots of pics... will put them up here ONCE I LEARN HOW TO...haiz... i need help ah...
she had to work overtime, so i went down to esplanade first... there is this sign tingy on exhibition... very unique, i got take pics... oh ya, today got sell the straberry coated with chocolate... couldn't resist temptation..hahaz... oh welll, i also took a photo of the toilet, it was so clean... is it bcoz of regular cleaning or bcoz no one uses them? hahaz...
went to marche eat.. was like wat can i eat? in the end i ate rosti,choclate mouse,mushroom soup... and also carrots n corn off judy's plate... hahaz... sometimes i tink we two r suited to the core, wat i take, she dun, wat she dun take, i take...hahaz... judy ate one whole chicken..but she nv finish also... haiz...
today spend alot of $... $50 plus... haiz... must watch how much i spend over the next few days liaoz...haiz...
TODAY NEVER STUDY AT ALL... DIE... SUDDENLY GOT THE I WAN TO GIVE UP N JUST LET IT BE... BUT...I DON'T WANT TO REPEAT ANYTING..I PROMISE HIM I WILL NOT REPEAT ANYTING.. I TINK NOW I DUNO IF I CAN KEEP MY PROMISE...REALLY NO MOOD... HAIZ....
blogged at 1:37 AM
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
today i did someting funny...i walked ard looking for a pond some one told me... hahaz... stupid rite... it's near the exam and i m doing tings like this... it turned out to be a lotus pond... i just stood there n stared.... from the place bright bright until dark dark... the pond looks real nice... its at the park opp amk library... if u were to walk pass it, u also will not notice it... cos it is hidden by trees n bushes...
i did someting even more funny today,a south korean woman, she is 28, on a sightseeing trip...she was at yck mrt the walkway that leads to nyp...she suddenly turn ard and talked to me...diaoz...she wanted to go to the zoo... diaoz... she should have dropped at amk...but... heez... in the end i took the train down with her and took her to the bus interchange... tis is her 2nd time in singapore... 1st time was a business trip... this time is a 7 day trip... 3 day in singapore, 4 days in KL... i reali envy her sia... but i tink with my lousy sense of direction, throw me in somewhere and i will end up like her... appearing at the wrong place... she looks kinda lost...heez...tired also...she's staying at a hotel in chinatown... heez... wanted to go stay at those old hotel at chinatown, been planning it like for so long...
anyway i have drafted and written the letter that i wan to send to ni ni win... heez... will send it to her asap...
okie, me going to slp soon... take care ppl...
blogged at 12:00 AM
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
well... i woke up darn early today.. even though i watched tv n chatted till late last nite..cheer me up ba..i tink i seriously need it..my best burmese fren(she's a nurse at one of the old age homes i go to during sunday, currently my society serving 3 homes..interested? let me noe? :P ) she's taking the flight back to burma at 10 plus today...myanmmar airways..cant go n send her off... cos her agent will be with her..she called me at abt 12.25 am when i was watching energy who appeared on jacky wu show... no kunda was a disappointment..then her call :( i know this day will come but din expect it to be here so soon.. she told me she just know that she will be going back from the person in charge there at 7 pm.. and she's working night shift.. when she called me at 12 plus she hafnt pack her bag finish... wat can i say? haiz.. there the nurses are seriously over worked...well, she said the agent will be bringing her out of the home at 8 am.. tot of going down at abt 7 am or so... can take some photos with her...but her agent will be there... not very good for me to go..i wana go to the airport, but...haiz...i got tell her to send me a letter when she reach yangon, she said she will be back in singapore in abt 1 or 2 months time...hope to see you soon...ni ni win, take good care of yourself..i will pray for you... yangon's temp is hot now... take care my fren....
if i appear funny later, pls leave me alone...if i offend any one of u.. pls dun take it to heart*
blogged at 9:12 AM
Monday, April 26, 2004
well... no study mood sia...sianz.. dunno how to survive... haiz.. all bcoz of the thermo.... sick.... haiz... go back to tv watching...
blogged at 9:25 PM
hmm... hafnt touched the come tis days... suddenly discover my life is veri routine! here's a break down..
mon- fri --> study and school.. then after tat go home and watch tv/internet/ sleep..
sat --> yishun or grandma there for class or meeting it stretches all the way till late nitez.. throw in supper and it's reach home, bathe and sleep..and lets proceed to sunday...
sun --> wake up,prepare and then go to service old age home / physically disbled.. then after that go to grandma there for more practice... then its like until nitez, see if got any other activity, eg. who need to go buy stuff, supper blah blah blah and then its again reach home,bathe,watch tv and sleep...
my life style is so bloody routine...well, has been tis way for quite some time, few years in fact, sometimes i wonder... what will i be like if not for this...a kid always roaming the streets late at nite?dunno where to go?dunno wat to do? there were times when i steer away from the guidance, nearly become a free thinker, but now, as the fate is there and the time is ripe, i m back again..currently on my way to eternal happiness...the road of nirvanna.. this road may be a easy one, may not be..but i strongly believe in the ones above, the guidance they give is enuff to bring me there..it all depends on me now i guess... :D
today went to singapore burmese buddhist temple after going to lee ah mooi old age home,well, no $ to go burma, so go the temple lahz... hahaz... lame.. anyway the temple is just next to wan qing yuan ( the place where sun zhong san stay) the place is quite a nice place to slack.. can just sit there n daydream... hahaz... another mad idea contributed by teary! :P
my hair getting longer at the back... considering of cutting... until i discover someting... i can tie it into two pigtails at the back... then will not tickle me laioz... wat a brillant idea.... but then the result is a act cute fella...with a big face... :X haiz...but it at least gets the hair out of my neck..
okie... me going back to see wu bai laioz! he rox!he's now on SCV ch 54! got his concert! anyone with his mp3 can send me? thanks... looking for one song, someting someting shen ling....
blogged at 12:13 AM
Friday, April 23, 2004
hmmm... where to start... so many things happened today...got wat happen at biz man exam, i call quekie,went library to fotocopy the maths,then saw wong he tell some attachment stuff,then went to woodlands,then back to sch, talk on hp until hp batt flat,went to buy stuff with dad..n finally getting the mp3 i wan...okie.. first ting first...
reach sch at 9 today...then jason sms say he in school..sitting outside the room, but in the end also nv go meet him... me n anna were the last one to go in...before tat i got to know abt my thermo results... i got a freaking C... the reson why i cant B is tat the quiz 2 pull me down...(i nearly failed quiz 2).. got a c for quiz 1...just 2 more pathetic marks and i would have made it to B... darn...to tink i studied at the expense of my sleeping time...haiz...2 more marks... n i would have made it...haiz...now i got a freaking C... sianz... was like plannign to ciong n get a B....m very sad...haiz...quekie say results submitted liaoz...
today was the biz man exam..got one section, i forget how to do... then when the teacher was like coughing, and she went out, everyone started copying... hahaz... me included of cos... :P then she showed us her wedding foto.. hmm... can see her hubby n her is the rich rich type... can alway travel here, travel there....
yest, wilmer nv pass the maths to anyone, so ask him come back to sch...hahaz..he also need to go see sunil abt his class dunno wat.. someting abt split n merge class... then my stapler no bullet... so went to counter to borrow... hahaz.. the librarian stare at me with her eyes so big, then lend me the stapler... as if the stapler is the last ting i wan frm her... hahaz...use until nearly finish...so pai seh... then we went for lunch, at south canteen... then when we were sitting there, wong suddenly approached us and then he also sat down n ate with us...he told us ometing very shocking... i until now still cannot believe it... still in the state of shock n confusion... he said tat i was the last one they consider for sem pro at cptc...he said i m likely to be there cos if he nv remember wrongly, i was the last one on the list...he said tat its based on results.. the one with beta results will go for sem pro at CPTC.. the one not so good will be in-house attachment (as in stay in nyp) erm... wong say is to let the ppl have beta impression of CPT.. so send the beta students there, the project supervisors will be the ppl working at CPTC....i dun believe sia... me always band 3 also still consider not bad...well, just wondering after all my whining and moaning, will he decide tat since i m last, then just let me have my wish n let me have in house attachment? diaoz... then cham laizo.... well, got to prepare extra cash for transport fee liaoz.... at least the $26 safety shoes i bought will be wore more... hahaz.... oh ya he say the project will be pair work, so judging frm the fact tat i m last tat mean the ppl there will be smarter than me...so i will have a easier time i guess... ahaha..*looking at the bright side*
oh ya... v impt ting to add.
WONG SAY TIS IS NOT SUBMITTED = NOT OFFICIAL.... :P so can have changes... hope my frenz will be together... then we can all turn CPTC upside down... Hiakz! *boom* *CPTC officially down* yeah! :D
then after tat went to woodlands...hahaz... bought tis hp sock... was like wondering which one to get... got so many shoices... that is such stress.... hahaz... if dun gimme enuff choices i will complain... haiz... troublesome... :P saw the pooh tat fauzi wanted....or i tink he wanted...yeah...heez....hope tat is the one tat he wanted ah... :)
then anna got to go back to sch, cos teh squash gathering is a meeting...oops... but i guess i made her late with me looking around...
anna sorry....then i went to the library and i saw wee hock studying bioprocess again...saw him come to sch when me n anna went to woodlands... hmmm... then idiot fren called... and we talked until my batt flat,had to borrow wee hock's hp to call her... hahaz...ppl go library study, i go library chat on fone to disturb ppl...hahaz.. where to find ppl like me? :X
wee hock, even though i noe u wun see tis, but still wana say thank you!heez... sorry ah... must have been funny... talking to me...hahaz... simply take ppl fone and just call... hahaz...
heez... today's entry kinda long... so.... hahaz... *teary still in shock tat she managed to be one of the beta ones.. but is the LAST one...* :P *blush blush*
blogged at 12:23 AM
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
hmm..today kinda hanged in sch till abt 7.30pm.. anna thanks for accompanying me.. heez.. hmm.. befor e i left.. saw wee hock studying for bioprocess... then it suddenly dawned on me tat, success comes with hard work.. but the ting is... he is hardworking.. i m not... dun really tink i will be also.. hahaz...
i still hafnt memerise the biz man exam tings for tmr...sianz... just not in the mood to study once i come home..haiz... some more pain... haiz...well.. me going slp laizo lahz.. sianz... but first now waiting for my song.. but hor... freaking IRC.. que so long...argh! haiz... but once i get the song can happily sing liaoz... hahaz..
something i found..on the net..
What got in your way? What's making you unhappy?
Others creating new bad karma onto you now?
Your own past bad karma ripening now?
Your attitude to your bad karma ripening now?
Nothing can make you unhappy unless you let it.
blogged at 11:21 PM
well... tat's my results...haiz...
blogged at 10:43 PM
Monday, April 19, 2004
The benefits of sleep
Boost your weight loss.
Lengthen your life.
Enhance your memory.
Improve your mood.
Stay sharp.
Keep your heart healthy.
blogged at 11:41 PM
hmm..some time nv blog liaoz.. got few days nv touch computor mahz...heez :P
well, feeling kinda down tis days.. except when we all went to eat durian at geylang yest..imagine tis.. a grp of people who hafnt had proper dinner went to eat durian and later din eat anyting..hahaz..it was my dinner n supper..was fun though
hafnt got the present yet.. haiz.. how.. get wat? i also duno...wat to get for a sec sch ger?
think the weather is getting to me...it's been so hot... haiz... feeling kinda out of place everywhere..feel like an extra..not a tinge of happiness is with me.. it's as if they were all gone.. and my happiness factory is down for maintance or wat..haiz... it cant be tat they r down forever rite?
just bought shoes for CPTC.. the safety shoes.. diaoz... it's $26 bucks...quekie's were better to wear...really..
tmr got to come sch early..got some lab test for bioprocess...well, i know exams are coming, but simply no mood...the heat is simply killing me... well.. me going home to sleep liaoz... so anna, cuijie, have fun at elq... :P
blogged at 3:23 PM
Friday, April 16, 2004
oh ya... fogot to add tis in...i saw tis notice outside ero ( the lingerie shop) at J8..
DO NOT WEAR BRA, IT INCREASES CHANCE BREAST CANCER,CAUSE THEM TO GO OUT OF SHAPE...
remember few years back when i was still younger n tis was like still in the guessing stage, now its confirmed... the guys were like, if the gers all dun wear bras, it will be wahz.... :P
go junction 8 n take a look for urself ba... :P
below are some info i found..
bras with underwires squeeze breasts until they can't drain lymph. A clear fluid that moves through our arteries and tissues, lymph is laden with cancer-causing toxins that we all absorb from the environment. Over time, these toxins cause breast cancer.
natural breast movements that occur with every step taken give bra-less women a healthy breast lymphatic circulation
Nevertheless, Ero's tagline 'Stop Wearing Bras' does make sense. It is a myth foisted on women that bras keep the breasts perky, because all breasts must eventually sag with age as milk glands are replaced by fat.
There's just no good reason to wear a bra: If modesty is a concern, loose camisoles will do fine.
Working women who wear bras everyday and postpone having children could be at higher risk
three out four women who wore their daytime bras to sleep contracted breast cancer so did one out seven women strapped into a bra more than 12 hours a day. Bra-free women have just a one in 168 chance of being diagnosed with breast cancer,says Singer.
Don't sleep in your bra!
Women who want to avoid breast cancer should wear a bra for the shortest period of time possible - certainly for less than 12 hours daily.
some 80% of bra-wearers who experience lumps, cysts and tenderness will see those symptoms vanish, "within a month of getting rid of the bra."
Push-up and sports bras are out. Choose loose-fitting cotton bras. Make sure you can slip two fingers under the shoulder-straps and side-panels. The higher the side-panels, the more severe the restriction of major lymph nodes. Don't wear this disastrous device to sleep. Take it off at home. Massage your breasts every time you remove your bra. Sing your lymphatics into health - or at least breathe deeply.
Red marks left by wearing a bra are an indicator that the breast tissue is inflamed and that the bra is the source of this tissue insult, i.e., personal observation is the best way to know if your body is having a reaction to your bra.
Bras can add additional constriction in pre-menopausal women because breasts swell during menstruation, i.e., look for redness at different times of the month.
God gave us a bra: it's called "Coopers ligaments". They are perfectly fitting and exactly matching our breast's weight. They pull the breasts in place instead of pushing them, and by consequence aren't constricting; they allow all necessary movement for our metabolism and they allow air to circulate around our breasts in contact with our skin to keep them cool. This wonderful design can't be improved.
women didn't wear bras for all of history until pretty recently and they did just fine. no one thought they were vulgar or "wrong". bras were invented by a new york socialite who sewed one out of a couple of hankercheifs to go with a particular dress she wanted to wear.
wearing bras does the opposite of keeping your breasts from sagging. by constantly holding them up, your muscles weaken from disuse. when you take the bra off, they'll sag down to your ankles. stick with just a tank top...shelf bra for larger breasts.
blogged at 12:35 AM
Thursday, April 15, 2004
still desperately trying to finish my QC report.. haiz.. but anyway, just now went to J8.. the whole place changed sia... erm.. thanks anna for accompanying me... :P u beta slp ah...and rest well.. if not i tink not onli us, k guy will disturb ur panda eyes...mayb the lecturers will start disturbing u too.. :P
i bought earrings at perlini's onli to find out tat the birthday ger de earhole has closed.. diaoz.. wat m i gona do?haiz... wear them myself or see give who ba... oh well.. tmr go nyp n look for another gift.. well... wat to get for a sec sch kiddo? hmmm...stress...
tis few days i have been feeling the pressure of doing hsework n handling school... very tired...i reali m..for the past week, i have to get dinner ready b4 i get out of home to go to sch.. then need to wash up,blah blah blah bathe n everyting..then confirm always late..doublely late..haiz...i know i originally will b late laioz... but now... even more late... but for my family and me, i will jia you! erm.. thanks to my mich who lend me her bioprocess,cuijie for her maths and anna for helping me copy the maths... :D anyway, mum will not be working after tis friday, i tink so shld be okie...haiz... dunno lahz.. wan her to work so tat can at least have someincome, but at the same time i know i wun be able to shoulder all the hsework, and the two idiots dun wan to help.. then wat can i do?
well, i kinda worked out when can work part time during third year..well, will work hard towards tat goal..
gota go back to my Qc report liaoz... take care ppl... tmr got to go buy alot of stuff.. flowers n everyting... -_-||| getting to be more n more like a housewife than a student... siaoz... like as if studies r my second priority.... NO i cannot let tat happen...
blogged at 11:56 PM
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
just changed my wish list... hahaz.. just now jason taught me how to run msn messenger everywhere.. just go to e-messenger.net then can laizo... but v slow lehz... now onli left cuijie n anna still playing..
will try to finish the qc report today...ppl ned few days/weks to do... i wana copy n paste...dunno can anot... haiz.. give it my best shot ba... no choice laioz... stil must do the biz man letters... write 5 bizletters lehz.. how to fin..sickening...
well.. me go do my stuff liaoz... now mega saving to go somewhere... i just wana get a stamp on my passport... go m'sia also good... anyone interested? hahaz.. tmr after biz man go johore..but friday nite must come back... cos tis sat mrg i will go help my grandma cook.. so must come back singapore early...
or shld i just use tat day to go visit my grandma n granddad..cook someting bring down..hmm... walk frm my hse down to serangoon north... v long nv do tat liaoz..hmm suddenly in the mood for cooking...diaoz...now tinking of wat to cook...i dun feel like baking though..hahaz..hmm... still thinking... :P
well me go buy someting to eat then will sart to do my qc.. :P haiz.. with an attitude lke tis, how to finish? i tink even if gimme one more month also gt prob finishing... haiz...
blogged at 4:12 PM
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
was very late today... diaoz... missed bioprocess n maths tutorial... haiz... regretted... should have come to sch earlier... then i will not have met him(sun)...haiz..but then wat can i do... see is see liaoz.. wat... he nv say hello to me sommore... now the onli image in my head is he cut botak... diaoz... how come...look v funny lehz...the person michelle saw at amk lib yest reali was him... omg... *shock*
well.. later going yishun.. so guess term paper will have to be pushed back to at nite then START to do...... tmr got maths at 10am... must make it a point to come on time... then have to do the biz man 5 biz letters... haiz... me always so last min... hahaz... but i guess tat is wat i m most capable of ba... doing it at the last min... then see if die or stay alive...but most of the time... buddha bless,i get away just in time... of cos i also have frenz n family who help me along the way...
* special thanks to them *
well, me got to go liaoz... tis whole week dinner is on me... so... now still thinking of wat to cook tonite... guess i beta go plan out the whole week de menu hao le...yesterday dad din have much to eat cos i basically throw egg into all the stuff i cooked.. forgot tat he dun take egg liaoz...
oh ya... ppl seriously speaking.. going veggie as alot of benefits..give it as shot.. will try to put up the benfits here.. mayb when i m free ba... :D
okie... got to go... take care... all the best... anyway, quek has replied me for the sem pro...ppl go check ur email, and let me noe okie... :P
blogged at 3:13 PM
Monday, April 12, 2004
heez... been donkey time since i last blog liaoz huh.. :P well let's recall wat happened over the weekend okie... heez..
friday 9/4/04 --> well... went to do all my stuff then ard nite time then reach home...but therm n QC common test is on sat... so i did wat i nv tot i will do... i stayed up the whole nite to study QC n thermo....then i discover tat i lost my thermo tut 7... argh...then i onli saw K guy n odd online...odd status was away...so asked k guy to type tut 7 qns...slp onli abt 3 hrs...hahaz.. so funny...
sat 10/4/04 --> 1st time i din slp alot...hahaz...then at abt 5 am i went to bathe... when i came to sch it was like...so early... n NYP looked kinda chio at tat time...thermo paper was kinda disappointing... i cant do the last few questions... haiz... then during the break tat we have b4 the QC paper, quek came over n say he onli mark the 1st 2 qns...n i got them correct... hahaz... yeahz..but my behind qns were like screwed up... haiz... wat to do... not smart de ppl is like tat de... then the Qc paper... haiz... cant do...wat i studied simply din come out... wat i left out n din study came out.... guess tis is wat they mean by u cant have the best of both worlds huhz... haiz....but i just simply din wan to give up.. so hang ard inside e exam hall... but albert gave so much space n my ans was like so short... not in the mood for crapping... aftter the paper i went over to grandma there... she was out laioz... haiz...din go over n help her cook for like a couple of weeks liaoz....haiz... tis sat must go help...
sun 11/4/04 --> slept like a pig...hahaz..then watched vcd... then went amk lib to meet shiying... sun din work on sunday...haiz..was hoping to see him... cos the first time i saw him was last sunday (4/4/04) then went to yishun to eat... dad cooked penang assam laksa(with the help of tis bottle of vegetarian assam laksa paste).. with udon...hahaz...it tasted quite nice...
mon 12/4/04 --> was so freaking late for bioprocess...haiz... sunil deliver lecture very well de... but i missed his class... someting happened today...jesse was like trying to sell tis book... well... dun wish to elaborate... but hey fren.. i duno if i sounded too harsh or anyting...but... sorry...i reali m... i noe u wan ur frenz to benefit... but.. i realli tink u r aiming the wrong target...i noe when u wana sell stuff, it is best to go to frenz.. but i realli tink u shld try other groups... here's wat i tink... just a reference for u... ultimately u decide if u wana use them... i wish u all the best in ur sales...
- try to aim ppl above 21...the working adults...
- u r in the adam khoo tingy rite... try to promote tis to ppl who know him... ppl in the group...
- sell it online...place it in auctions.. scan the book cover u have n all the info u noe..u have got adam khoo's other books? scan tat in too... offer to meet ppl.... then u can do net working at the same time...
- give ppl time to change... everyone is different...
- it's good to try... but dun exert urself too much... u look very tired...
- take care of yourself... :D like they say... image counts... first impression counts...
* All e best! weigh out n see if it is worth the effort... *
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blogged at 8:25 PM
Thursday, April 08, 2004
just finish the e quiz... the 20 qn one i got 18 correct.. then the listening one i onli got 4 out of ten...haiz... i failed listening... looks like i m not a very good listener...haiz...guess wat?i was late for the chinese ppt sia.... dotz dotz...haiz.. i hafnt even catch my breath is my turn laioz...argh..so nervous... nv present according to the script i prepared... wat a waste of time...but i tink over all we (me n anna) did well! heez...
hmm.. still pondering over wat mich say yest.... ger wat do u mean.. hmm.. why suddenly so interested in my eating habits? -_-???
thanks cuijie... she agreed to help me buy battery... cos ang mo sell cheaper... :P
blogged at 12:15 PM
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
hmm..now still at home... the flu medicine reali knock me down sia...haiz... gona miss maths anyway... sianz...later must get anna choong notes to copy... seem to always get her maths to copy... well.. later must try to study... tried to open thermo yest... u noe wat happen? i simply stared at the paper and slp... diaoz... at first still wanted to rehearse the chinese ppt... in the end just slp lorz... diaoz...
i seem to be having tis mental block... cant seem to get tings into my head... how... sickening... i hate it when tis happens... always will like tat if i going to fall sick or too stress....arghh... must recover... i hafnt forget tat i dun wan a D for thermo... i wan a B... hahaz... abit ambitious lahz... but... aim high.. so even u fall also wun fall far... but tat din apply for my maths common test...
jon...thanks for your encouragement...erm.. abt ur "image" will get used to it de... :D gimme some time...
wilmer and xuefen... congrats on the company attachment..
haiz... got to go sch laioz... for lunch... wahaha... later i tink beta stay in sch n study ba... go grab disc man.... :P
must buy earpiece asap... argh... haiz... well... take care ppl... :D
blogged at 11:51 AM
Monday, April 05, 2004
today ah... quite an okie day i guess..went to ask abt the $$$ but then... haiz... oh well... money wun drop down frm the sky...haiz..mayb there r ppl who need it more than i do...had wanted to like stay in sch and finish the e quiz... but...today got meeting...just got the news at abt 12 plus... haiz..my westside story last esp tonite.... arghh...
just now went to ask albert abt QC.. he like not very willing to teach... haiz... but at least i have gotten the the revision tutorial answers frm him.... he say eh will send a copy to song...haiz... tat one ah... another haiz...dunno wat m i going to do sia... the more i study.. the more my brain rejects the acceptance of the info... haiz...
last friday quekie got help me calculate laioz... i need abt 78 for lab 78 for common test to get C... its the will confirm get C type.... diaoz... 78 lehz...hope i can get it ba... but now with the mental block... dunno wat to do sia... >_<
i need to get ear piece for my fone..last week heard tat woodlands selling good quality ones for abt $6.90..well..see how first ba... must budget budget abit...
i tink i either go home or wat ba...or shld i go stright frm sch to yishun? hmmm... just now some one ask me interested to pick up some temp job... its 3 days onli..its like in the early mrg...7am... distribut someting de... dunno if i shld do it... but it's like confirm will miss some class lorz.... haiz... how? but the $ quite good... :X haiz... gimme some comments ba... :D
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Sunday, April 04, 2004
who will know the pain in me?my heart is being sliced.. piece by piece..she tinks she is so fcking great...it's always her on the com, always taking my stuff..why cant she get her own?bloody miser...scrooge... even when i wan back my things she also dun give a dammn at times.. still must ask her nicely...who's the elder sis here?just bcoz she's the apple of dad's eye doesnt mean she can do watever she wans or get watever she desires....
I used to be this happy kid.. onli wondered where to go, wat to play and wat to eat... during my weekends will just go out whenever i wish... but now.... my weekends have become routine....i dun seem to have time for other stuff..haiz... mum will tell me all stuff tat no one noes.... normally the " gossips" tat she gets... yes it helps me in the judgement of ppl... but then when i get to noe the dark side of tat person, i will be biased towards tat person... haiz...
all i noe is tat i m darn unhappy now... cant get them out.. i cant smile frm the inside..i cry to slp...but who cares?ppl who once cared so much abt me are simply not there anymore..they either changed or r out of my sight now... all i wan is just one who really cares...i need a shoulder to cry on,ear to listen to me,heart to be with me..and also mouth to talk to me and to hold me when i need it...But is there such a person still? i doubt so... haiz....
yesterday went back to xinmin for homecoming.... oh wtf... i lost my way....at least they r moving back next year... hahaz.... the one at hougang ah.... i close my eyes also noe how to get there... been there for 4 years liaoz mahz...
after all tat shit... there is someting tat happen during the week tat made me kinda happy... :D :D :D
I will be going to amk library the cafe after e service of homes every sunday...from tis week onwards... cos of someting tat happened today... heez...
there's tis guy who... haha...gonna make myself sound like a despo..... but oh well... good tings r meant to be shared rite?heez... i went to the lib to meet my auntie today.... then i ordered potato chunks... when tis guy served my food... he say u Nyp ah...i also nyp lehz..u wat year... i was like so stunned...cos he kinda cute.. :P i was like thinking, u tokking to me ah... then i say yupz... yr 2... not hoping for anymore conversation, i cont looking at my stuff.... then he say i yr 4 lehz....i went huh? then he laughed said cos he repeating mahz...and walked back...then he was like send food always must walk ard my table, stare at my tings...haiyoz... :P then when there was not alot of ppl and he was packing the chairs, he came over and talked to me while arranging the chairs.. he said he yr 4 cos he every sem also repeat...then he asked wat faulty i was in... i said chemical n life sciences, then he say he engineering..then he asked life science and chemical v good rite? i said good also no use... SCL is using engineering blk... lvl 4 and 7.. then he say he he is lvl 6... below me... diaoz.. like tat also can... he win liaoz..but i realised someting..the cafe is alot more noisier than normal with him ard.. when nearing the closing hours... he on the radio v loud... he seem to like onli the "loud" music.. he was like singing along with it...e ger even asked him to shut up...hahaz..but my auntie say he bluff me i also believe.. haiz.. is he?i dunno.. just wanted to make myself happy i guess...even if it is just out of plain zi xiao i also dun care.... at least it brightened my day... :D
last time me also like tat happy happy... tok to any stranger also can happy...but... now.... haiz...
attachment is on 10 may... no money somemore.... wat can be the most suay ting... haiz... must try to get other job while on attachment..... if not i jialat....so sickening... 8 may is last paper.... then 9th may is the class gathering.. (looking fwd to it --> K bOx!!!!!!! anyone interested? i will start saving money... :D ) but 10 may is the stupid attachment.... haiz...
blogged at 11:03 PM
Friday, April 02, 2004
haiz....m i so no hope...today went down for the mental analysis... well... here's basically wat is said abt me...
EXTREME state of confusion..hope to see u asap..u seem to need to solve some problems asap..tis asap,tat asap.... kaoz... i really look so jialat?dun let the problems get bigger....but due to ur financial status, i would recommend u to go for tis scheme i recommended to ur fenz too... there's tis 3 sessions by a new counsellor...mayb after the 3 sessions then we see wat we can do....and some other tings which cannot be disclosed....dun wish to let anyone noe.... haiz...
wat the heck... i got so serious mahz?haiz...where got so jialat?okie, mayb i m kinda tempermental tis days...not myself and cranky tis days...but... got so serious mehz? i dun tink i will go for the sessions.... will try to smooth out tings...
i willl.... i swear...i will gain back control of my life... i will and i noe i can do tat...
wilmer: thanks for teaching me thermo today! thanks alot...
anna: slp early and get rid of the eye bags ah..
jon, huiyi, mich: i had to attend to some stuff...hope u guys had a great time at suntec today..
cuijie: i will pass u the tings tmr... still looking for it... me not a v neat person...sorry ah... but hope can help u... very easy de... :P heez...
*quote of the day: dun push ur luck too far.. i m not wat i seem.. u only noe one side of me.. do u noe the other? *
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