Tuesday, August 31, 2004
struggling to wake up...haiz...
today was nearly late...the stupid alarm clocks...woke everyone up...except me...haiz...had to rush like siaoz...
yesterday me cant wake up..so in the end just went to sch tyo sign in..hahaz...then heard tat the aunty at cptc wanted to pass me tings..oops...sorry...so i bought some bread for her..heez...
yesterday was my last lesson...haiz...jobless again..the kid seemed quite happy though...haiz...
Must hand in draft for the project..yest heard from ck..haiz..big bomb sia....I alot of tings hafnt do lehz....haiz....died liaoz...
Thursday me going back Nyp..they going the rest to eat...if i come jurong not enuff time le..haiz..must rush all the paperwork n stuff withing tis two weeks..if not IAP cant go back to nyp..must come jurong..haiz...22 oct..come quickly!!!
idiot's fren is always asking me to go to his house...haiz...bu yao larz...haiz...
decided to just cont tis post..heez..
CK: the pasta was good...heez..thanks!
later going to meet morgan yap..dunno wat to tell him also...haiz...I'm such a failure....
blogged at 9:14 AM
Friday, August 27, 2004
kayu jelly...
just made jelly yesterday..and realise tat my cooking skills seem to be going down! omg! crisis!!!! wat on earth is happening to me?
yest had a little chat and realise tat I reali seem to be distancing myself from
everyone...haiz..guess..it all comes down to one word again...
ATTITUDE....I dunno wat I want or have been doing..just feel so sick and tired of everyting u noe?I'm not sure whether i wan to be left alone or be with the masses....
Guess its funny huh?hearing tis from a ger who is onli 18..but I reali am very tired..I just dun wish to wear a mask...from the time I meet the guys n a ger...they will know who they r.. :wink: I have already promised myself, I will not be fake anymore...
This is me..accept it or leave it...however tis has also caused alot of problems...well...I dunno..mayb I should just take a step back and look at the world behind a mask?but having a mask blocks "ventilation" and is uncomfortable..
This is me..plain ol' me.. take it or leave it...I just wana be myself..ME AND MYSELF... everyone is unique, when one is a true fren, he/she accepts u for who u r...not who he /she sees u as...I onli need true frens..not masked frenz...
Guess I'm being stubborn and self centered again....haiz...dunno lahz.. need time to sort out my tots....
blogged at 9:44 AM
Thursday, August 26, 2004
argh...cant wake up again..
Here I am..back in school again...reason is simple...I woke up onli at 10am..haiz..well, so b e it then...guess I'm gonna be in big trouble when project ends and we start attachment...argh..DUN WANA TINK ABT IT...
just kinda did my calculations abit yesterday...looks like having a license and then riding a bike is no easy feat...haiz...well...but I do hope to have own tpt though...it sucks having to see ppl on bike while I have to squeeze on public tpt...the feeling is....haiz.....
well.. me got to do wat I left over from yesterday...the NE tingy...sianz..I still havent touch my project...like since monday?haiz... die liaoz.... they say ppl at sch nv reali fin their report...I was tinking of asking morgan if I can leave out some topics... but I guess..I dun wana affect my "ability"... its like he already know tat I am a darn slow worker....then with tis incomplete ting..I tink I should be considered lucky if he let me pass...But I dun wan a pass...Its like I have been through so much shit in tis stupid diploma...I tink I should be worth more.... :"(
Yesterday was having fun chatting with judy..anyway she changed her skin and char bo, Its very nicely done lehz.... :) Must meet up soon...heez..I miss ya... :P
In fact, I miss all the fun times I have had...life seems so sickening now....
Life sucks...
blogged at 11:11 AM
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
sianz...
today was late...haiz...had to take the bus in myself...so sianz... so long nv take the bus liaoz...just did the NE tingy...hoping to be able to complete it I guess..hahaz... must at least settle someting mahz...if not I everytime come CPTC also do noting...haiz...die liaoz... how to finish siaz...
Determination and willpower siaz... tat's wat I lack of now....haiz... dun say liaoz...me beta go back to doing liaoz....sianz...I just feel so sianz now...yesterday missed the love contract...today must watch! hahaz...hmmm..guess with the no. of esposides i'm missing, most prob will have to go get the VCD..diaoz...
blogged at 4:11 PM
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
sick even more
had difficulties breathing yest nite..haiz...i'm now in school...just signed in...so later going back home...haiz... just asked chong abt the file ting.. he says I have to get the file myself... well,me will go look for wong mayb later..see if he can provide...hahaz... :I'm so bad:
tmr going cptc...hmmm... now tinking tmr mayb bring pasta agin....cos.... the sauce still in the fridge..hahaz.. and i still have the pasta...not cooked..hahaz...
okie, me going back home liaoz... be back in school later....
It's 7pm and I'm still in school...haiz.. still in the lab... guess will be going to get the red cabbage soon...yishun cold storage...hahaz...whenever I come to nyp, my train pass is wasted...haiz....
okie.. I have like decided on my header n footer liaoz... also typed wat i need from some books... left 1 book only...today was the due date...heng, I renewed it again via the internet..hahaz... well, got to go..if not will reach home late..still got to prepare tmr lunch..will continue on my project tonight...if I have the energy..hahaz...
oh ya, next week onli wed n thurs the 407 will be open... eric siew dunno wan to do wat lahz...haiz... hungry liaoz...gtg...be updating tis post again...if I have the time later..if the 2 buggers are not using the com...to be more specific is actually onli 1 bugger: dragonluv....hahaz....
blogged at 7:09 PM
Monday, August 23, 2004
still sick....
Me still feeling sick lahz...haiz..notice any differences in my blog?heez....
yesterday was grandma's sister funeral..as in the chu bing..suddenly i got the everyone is leaving feeling again..haiz... guess it always take time to get used to the idea tat they r not ard anymore..may buddha bring her down the path...Yesterday went down to suntec with my sister for her presentation clothes...haiz... then she actually met this guy... dover ITE...well... must say he is good-looking...hahaz... 20 yrs old..oops...he's working at carrefour...reminds me of the ah kai in love contract...tat ger and her "lan tao hua"....oops :X
Well, feeling kinda drownsy... the medicine lahz... and tat stupid antibiotics...giving me probs...haiz....me off to surfing web liaoz... take care ppl...heez
I'm back from lunch..decided to cont tis post so tat will not have so many posts...heez...hahaz.. bio until another guy liaoz...hahaz...I tink he's not bad looking..tink just now tok too much at lunch...now throat itchy and cant reali tok liaoz...argh...tmr ck cooking..heez...looking forward to it...Mayb I c wat mum cook tonight, then c if can jia liao..heez...its like our turn to feast....hahaz...later me going over to morgan there I guess.... the safe means of access I still wondering how to do it though...haiz... got alot of tings not done yet... not much motivation lehz....argh....must pick myself up liaoz... later got tuition also...my love contract...argh...hmmm... must try to get another tuition job or sth... not enuff to pay off everyting....haiz...
blogged at 9:03 AM
Friday, August 20, 2004
me slight bronchitis?
went to see doc again...haiz..got MC for two days... the doc say I have got
slight bronchitis...haiz...which is an inflammation of the bronchial tubes, or bronchi (the air passages that extend from the windpipe into the lungs). she say I cant talk id becaue the duno wat inside is swollen..tat why i cant talk...She also asked me if I get coughs easily... then I told her, I seldom get sick, but occasional cough... but if I reali sick will drag for a very long time b4 i recover lorz...then she was like u must take care of urself... haiz...
let's see wat I found abt bronchitis....
Bronchitis is an inflammation of the bronchial tubes, or bronchi (the air passages that extend from the windpipe into the lungs). The inflammation may be caused by a virus, bacteria, smoking or the inhalation of chemical pollutants or dust. When the cells of the bronchial-lining tissue are irritated beyond a certain point, the tiny hairs (cilia) within them, which normally trap and eliminate pollutants, stop functioning. Consequently, the air passages become clogged by debris and irritation increases. In response, a heavy secretion of mucus develops, which causes the characteristic cough of bronchitis.
Acute bronchitis is usually caused by a viral infection of the upper respiratory system. Symptoms of acute bronchitis may be experienced during or after a common cold. The onset of symptoms can appear suddenly and generally last 7-10 days. However, coughing can last up to 3 weeks or longer.Treatment for bronchitis usually focuses on reducing the irritation to the airways. Bronchodilators are helpful in some people that have symptoms of airway tightness.
Got some kind of very diificult to eat medicine...haiz...
well, she say if still dun get well, must go see her again...haiz...
well...I tried going to sch just now...wanted to go and just sign in and out...but wong's office was locked..so I waited..then mum called...tired of waiting I decided to go back home...Then when i was walking out I saw WONG...hahaz..I told him I was going back... then he say beta go see doc..which I told him I was going told... but actually...I had a 2 day MC liaoz... hahaz...
Well, Cuijie, sori tat I cant go today..was reali not feeling well..kinda cant make it...sorry u had to be 3 guys... the room must be real silent huh...take care okie... me will get well asap...see ya soon!
blogged at 1:07 PM
Thursday, August 19, 2004
tut hair lahz.
haiz... had a bad haircut...haiz...at first cut my back liaoz...then i was like hmmm..okie... not too short..then later he ask me if wan to cut fringe...then he ask if i want to try tis japanese style...then i say huh? okie lorz...u decide...then........ ARGH...tut. tut.. then in the end i was like haiz... cut the back abit shorter lorz....haiz...siaoz. liaoz...
Judy, we need to meet up n i need to buy cap....arghhh
later meeting morgan yap....alot of stuff not done..and need to hand in soon liaoz...now i kinda scared...but then...i like still taking tings easy...still doing slowly...haiz... siaoz. liaoz....
blogged at 9:24 AM
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
sick in school...
I'm in school today..heez..still not feeling well, when i went in to mark attendance, wong say he was also sick...told me to go see a doctor..which I told him I did...hahaz...looks like alot of ppl r sick...haiz...
Later me going to go cut hair....hmmm....dunno wan to cuit wat yet....haiz...all damaged hair..was tinking of dying it again.... BROWN
Copied this off an email..
4 Reflections
Baby & Mind
Just like a baby always seeking for attention
An untamed mind always seeks for excitement
Thinking that happiness can be found from outside
Unknowing that happiness arises from within,
A peaceful mind without desires and Self
Young & Old
A young mind is pure and light
It is defilements that burden it and make it old and sick
The natural state of mind is calm and bright
Why force it to be unnatural and disturb it with thoughts of attachments?
Give & Take
Through fighting and owning with attachments
You gather suffering and pain
Through helping and serving without attachments
You gather joy and happiness
Through giving up and letting go of ego and defilements
You see a light of liberation
Future & Past
People always thinking of the future, living in the past
Unknowingly that the future has become the past when they started thinking
Live in the present moment, moment by moment
Do not attached to the past or the future, not even the present
As everything arises and passes away so quickly and inevitably
blogged at 10:57 AM
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
Very Sick!
Feeling very sick... no strength..Got fever, cough, flu, sore throat,body ache...Very Xin ku...Yesterday in the end nv finish the ppt or the questions...haiz...
Guess I'll just sleep for a while first...haiz...
My project when then can finish? haiz....
morgan go hospital..tmr then will be back.. but tmr i cutting hair..so will be staying in school...
Me cough till my stomach there darn pain...its like when cough need to hold my stomach...haiz...
just now lunch also so darn bland....everyting no smell no taste....YUCKS...
blogged at 1:45 PM
Monday, August 16, 2004
missed the fireworks!
I missed the fireworks yesterday...again..after the national day de I missed, tis is the 2nd fireworks tat i missed...
today woke up supposed to be able to go to cptc... but in the end i came back to sch..cos i calculated the time n tink will miss e bus..haiz... paying for noting... tmr I will take the bus...hahaz..if i can wake up 5am to watch the love contract..if not will go home n watch the replay at 12pm..hahaz... or whoever has bought the vcd, lend me k..hahaz...
Now have to reali do project... but its like I AM SICK...kaoz...the cough is killing me...
well, me gonna by hook or by crook, finish the confined space ppt today..and the questions... JIA YOU!
later got tuition...got a feeling I will be sacked soon..hahaz..dun ask why..i did sth last friday...well, time to look for someting else to do...(guess its now on Anne Chin English Dynamics laioz...hahaz...hope will be pay well...I dun mind working though..hahaz...me is still looking on the $$$ side de...partly cos got frenship...if no $$$, I guess...I will go look for other stuff..hahaz...)
wednesday will be cutting my hair... it is too damaged liaoz.... haiz...LOBSTER HELP! hahaz...
tinking of changing the color to brown....heez...
well, me must go back to doing project liaoz...by 3pm (my break time) must finish the ppt..and the questions...hahaz...CIONG!!!
blogged at 12:30 PM
Friday, August 13, 2004
quiz
What Name Should You Have? by Lauren
A quiz i ripped and edited off a fren's blog :X
At About What Age Do You Think People Get Really Boring?: Hmm..define boring,b4 we tok..hahaz..
Would You Ever Consider losing ur virginity at 16: NO!
Are You Wonderful?: dunno.. guess not..
Do You Know Anybody With Purple Hair?: No..Blue? :D
Are There Any Normal People In This World?: wat do u mean by normal?
Are You Absolutely Insane?: guess I'm not sane..
Have you ever smell the rain?: yupz..sumtimes they have tis nice smell..but sometimes it stinks..
Have you ever had someone from your past suddenly appear?: yupz..when i miss and start to tink of them, they will normally appear....
Have you ever felt like the whole world was right?: yupz..when EVERYTING GOES MY WAY!..hahaz.. which is IMPOSSIBLE...
Have you ever seen true beauty?: guess so... it was a place so undisturbed..
Have you ever felt that someone was more beautiful because of their flaws?: yup.for eg, i will miss my mum's nagging when I was away for the first time overseas...
Have you ever cried because you felt good?: walaoz.. good then cry for wat... -_-
Have you ever seen the sky at night when the clouds look like flowers?: do they?
Have you ever seen a grown man cry?: I am afraid of seeing ppl cry...
Have you ever needed to be held?: yupz.. unfortunately, I'm afraid of touch.. (experts say, there is actually a distance u can get close to a person..try moving nearer n nearer to a person, to a certain extent, they will start to back off..some ppl de distance is short..some long.. mine is LONG!)
Have you ever needed to be cuddled?: yupz..but... read above!
Have you ever been alone?: I HATE TO BE ALONE.
Have you ever been splashed in puddles?: yupz.. water water...
Have you ever known what it was like to love and be loved in return?: guess so..It sux!
Have you ever had a crush?: Yupz!
Have you ever known how good something was?: tings have both sides.. u may c as gd. i might c it as bad.
Have you ever not know how good it was until it's gone?: hmm.. guess so..I'm, the type..who who dun treasure wat I have.
Have you ever tried to write poetry but ended up throwing it away?: No..me not tt poemtic..
Have you ever experienced true happiness?: yupz.. guess so..
Have you ever given a love letter?: No...I dun go for such ting...hahaz..
Have you ever just do things on impulse?: YUPZ..all the time...
Have you ever wanted to just run?: yupz.. from all the shit in my life!
Have you ever needed to get away?: All the time!
Have you ever lost a love?: guess so.. dun ask..
Do you often cry in front of people or alone: I prefer alone..I dun like to look weak.
Have your friends ever seen you cry: yupz..when i just cant take it..
Have you cried today: choi! No..
Do you usually cry for a long time: depends lorz...
Have you ever cried because you were happy? No...happy cry for wat?
Have you ever been someone's crying shoulder: hmmm... forgot..
Have you ever hugged someone because they were crying: guess so..
Have you ever had a shoulder to cry on: guess so..
Have you been hugged when you cried: hmmm.....
Do you cry during movies: hmmm..did once..at the comfort of my own home..
Do you cry while reading books: No...
Does music make you cry: yupz.. there's tis song by wang lee hom..--> Ni Bu Zai
Have you ever been called a cry baby: no.. I normally dun let ppl me crying..have to upkeep image mahz..
Have you ever tried to stop yourself from crying: yupz...
Does this survey make you want to cry: hmmm.. no... try harder next time.. hahaz...
Have you ever cried over a guy/girl: yupz...
Do you cry when you are physically hurt: No..
Do you cry when you are scared: No...
Do you cry when you are mad: No...
Do you cry over bad grades: hmmm...I nv reali do good in sch yet..
Can you make yourself cry: No..
When was the last time you cried: quite sometime ago...
Have you ever cried because you were sad for someone else?: No..
Do you have a favorite crying quote: No... not tat lame yet..hahaz..
Have you ever cried for anyone who wouldn't cry for you: ya..heck him lahz...
Do you ever cry on anniversaries of things?: wa laoz... No...
Do you cry over someone you love becoz they have a gf/bf?: in Sec 3
When was the last time u felt love and u cried?: haiz... dun ask..
Who is the person you always cry for?:DUN ASK.. will nv get e ans out of me... :X
Well... tt is the end of tis quiz..hahaz... Just now went for NE...after tat was debating over the stupid bus fare tingy again... if someone not paying... then why shld I? I also seldom take the bus..onli took it on 2 days... 3 rides...(i went there myself on e first day) but if everyone simply just dun pay... then wat abt those who r paying...haiz... just hope tat everyone will pay..afterall, we all agreed to take the tpt in the first palce.. and why shld the others shoulder the cost of ur seat?
7.50 need to be there...the bus will leave.. its like.... haiz... shall not elaborate..Now wondering whether to take anot..I confirm is like will have to take the tpt on my own for the days I cant wake up de lorz...kaoz.. how lahz.. tat means at 7 I need to be at YCK mrt...which means 650 I need to leave the hse...haiz..
No confidence I can wake up on time sia...haiz.. me go do the NE ppt liaoz..
Just got news tat we did the Ne wrongly.. so...haiz..we gonna do it on monday..when we r going jurong..just realise tt I have got alot of tings not done yet for this project..for eg. the report, the ppt, the questions,the notes.....the weekly progress reports...haiz...
wondering if we can like the sch project students, use IAP time to finish up all the loose ends of the project... guess if next week me go CPTC, I must reali do the project liaoz....haiz...
If not reali dunnno can finish anot..
anyway,schedule for tmr will not include haircut..lobster is not free..most prob doing it on a wkday...hahaz... then got to go yishun as per normal.. since all activities have resumed and sunday go pray to dad's mum....and to watch FIREWORKS.... yeah!!!!
take care everyone!
blogged at 1:15 PM
Thursday, August 12, 2004
animals for show in the com lab?
sylvia: Now i noe wat u mean by project students like on exhibition..
just now there were visitors who obviously are from china...the woman took photos of me...and was like saying, if they snap pics of us playing games then die liaoz... hahaz...
quite interested in her camera though... looks darn professional :envious:
then i quickly just open my ppt n word doc.. but i accidentally opened the windows media player page... oops... hahaz...
must remind myself to go get the u mag later... got ENERGY!
soon it will be time to meet judy... tat char bo sick liaoz... duno later how.. haiz.. must get well ah!!!!
blogged at 4:24 PM
cool mail
No man/woman is worth your tears and the only one who is, will never make you cry. If you love someone, put their name in a circle, instead of a heart, because hearts can break, but circles go on forever.
Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say.
If all my friends were to jump off a bridge, I wouldn't jump with them, I'd be at the bottom to catch them.
"Don't frown, because you never know who's falling in love with your smile!"
"If you judge people, you have no time to love them""Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle." Plato
It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone- but it takes a lifetime to forget someone."
"Enthusiasm is contagious. You could start an epidemic!"
Some say love, it is a river That drowns the tender reed Some say love, it is a razor That leaves your soul to bleed.
Some say love, it is a hunger An endless aching need I say love, it is a flower And you its only seed.
It's the soul afraid of dreaming, That never learns to dance And the soul afraid of waking, That never takes the chance.
It's the one, who won't be taken Who cannot seem to give And the soul afraid of dying, That never learns to live.
When the night has been too lonely And the road has been too long When you feel that love is only For the lucky and the strong.
Just remember in the winter Far beneath the bitter snow Lies the seed that with the sun's love In the spring becomes the rose.
blogged at 11:12 AM
Sch again...
Haiz..dunno can finish anot.. the project..just now when i sign in, mr wong asked me how imy project is now.. so I told him the truth..I dunno if I can finish..hahaz..then we went on to tok abt the ring bound copy..hahaz.. mayb will do it alicia's way..hahaz.. but is it possible tat I get the file from wong?hahaz..
Now trying to make the header and footer for my project.. well, I cant find the just the NYP logo.. so now dunno how...haiz..need to get someone's template..mayb later drop by mr wong off to either ask for it or wat lorz...
later be meeting judy... hahaz...she's 19 yesterday.. hmmm... still wondering wat to get for her though...
blogged at 9:20 AM
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
CPTC today
hmm.. I'm at cptc today..was early.. so sms ck, she was taking the train after me,ck said she meeting hy at admiralty.. thus me dropped at admiralty and together we waited for ck..then went to buy breakfast... tot will be the last to board the bus, but was not...
got ppl ard me but I still feel alone..dun ask me why...isit me or the ppl ard me?sianz..watever..must learn from omr.. "duhz? watever..." hahaz.. wonder how is tat guy doing now...last update was tat he changed gf again...haiz...
supposed to do my project and report..but feel so tired and withdrawn... haiz..
Must make it a point not to be affected easily...REGINA JIA YOU!
blogged at 10:03 AM
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
Overall summary of jesse's aunt ting..
Okie.. It Finally all ended yesterday...was too tired to blog yesterday.. so I am blogging wat had happened over the past few days at fort canning lodge, multi purpose hall..Anne chin English dynamics oral prep course..
BENEFITS FROM TIS COURSE
$$$
A drawing tis kid ( Clement Ng) drawn
The parents of Chun Lin was telling me tat he enjoyed the course alot cos he had alot of fun with me..hahaz.... the mum said she could hear my voice in the cassette encouraging his kid and we were realli having fun..and the kid told his mum I was kind oh my god... i nv tot anyone will use tat to describe me... :face red:
me being water runner and the kids all drinking alot of water..
got all hyped up! yupz!
was able to just hold a little girl's hand from the mum and walk off while the mum was listening to the sister's assessment..hahaz..
LOSSES
I missed NDP fireworks live..haiz..
When I get hyped up after the 2nd last day the afternoon session (chun lin grp) and the last day, it had to end... wat to do.. its always like tat.. when I get reali into it..It will be the end..haiz..
Seen the ugly side of people..
lost my temper for a couple of times..
Heez..will try to put up a photo of the picture clement draw here.. heez..gonna go laminate it.. heez..
Oh ya, weicai's aunt..tink anne called her mrs koh.. she was talking to me and kinda like asking me to join the childcare or similar line... hahaz...is she implying tat I can click with kids? she said she's teaching at tampines ITE..I told her abt chun lin and she said, teaching is kinda a rewarding line,sometimes the teachers get the rewards onli after a year or so when the student graduate, but for me, I was able to taste it within a few days...hahaz..
Actually I also dunno whether it is good or bad, cos its like towards the last day and the 2nd last day de afternoon session, my group is the one tat is always laughing and having like fun? not like alot of the other grps tt were very serious...wonder is it good or bad for the kids and for my reputation and image... haiz...
Well, overall, I'm quite satisfied with this time the performance..hahaz.. dunno wat do they all tink.. But I tink I have given my almost best.. heez.. they say there's always room for improvement mahz.. hahaz..
Reali had a very great time..hahaz...
blogged at 12:48 PM
Saturday, August 07, 2004
meeting with owyong
Today was a half day for jessse auntie ting... I reached fort canning lodge at 10.50am.... jesse n jon came at abt 11..mich at 11.30.. then it was wait again...haiz..then again today I discover the difference abt age and paper qualifications... haiz... dun say le...
Then yesterday idiot sms me... kaoz... he like noe wat is hapening in my life like tat...Then make me super luan today.... kaoz,kaoz, kao.........I will nv forget the day he told me abt his fren and how his fren is always telling all the stupid stuff...Wat's the point in telling me ur ORD now? I have been waiting... yes, but must it be for u?NO... haiz.... I dunnno lahz.... I'm as confused as it is liaoz.... haiz.... dunno lahz... I told myself no more tears for tis guy... but it just wun stop....
Just now met owyong... then we had pasta mania... haiz...wat more can I eat at PS?sianz... then we went to try and buy clothes.... hahaz...actually was feeling darn down at first.... then was crapping and having fun... so now feel beta liaoz....I tink....
Tmr have to wake up early for the jesse aunt tingy... so me go slp laioz...nitez...
blogged at 11:44 PM
Friday, August 06, 2004
Hotel!!!
http://www.hangout-hotels.com/
Like very good place to stay in lehz.. anyone interested pls tell me okie... its near the city area somemore.. hahaz... go rent bicycles then can ride and hang ard... hahaz..
blogged at 3:58 PM
NE???
Today had NE? haiz.. It was like sucks... darn lame... hahaz... well, It was kinda fun though... can like say wat we dun like...hahaz...
today was late... again...was like quarrelling with mum over "it" again.. haiz...
got to do project liaoz...must hurry... I like nv do anyting yet...
Kian hwee's in the room talking to us again... hahaz... sometimes I tink if he's good at someting tat is time management and talking crap.... hahaz... Guess if I were to learn someting from him, it will be this two I guess.. :x
Judy cant make it on tuesday... so now I waiting for bear ans.. if he can make it on tue, then I can help hanwen get his sweater...I call the lotus rest. liaoz... had it changed to thursday.. still wondering wat judy wan for her birthday, so Jesse aunt = anne chin, the oral pay come in just handy.. shld be able to get someting decent for her :D question lies in, when can we get the $$$...
hmm.. tat means I have to inform ong lai tat I will be in sch on thurs too.. guess after next week, I will try to hang out more at Jurong Island.... CPTC.. here I come....hahaz.. SIANZ...
Later got tuition... will be darn tired I guess... haiz... sianz... But for my license and be financially safe, I guess I have to do tis.. now considering over the coaches manual tat adrian send..wondering whether to continue anot..I have to admit, I will not be as committed if without the $$$, guess I'm just a slave of $$$...guess everyone is... sometimes, $$$ is the driving force for people like me I guess.. Got money will do beta, free labour will not do as well... :X
yesterday was discussing abt all the paperwork stuff..like we dun reali have ppl who r trained and able to take up the heavy duty of handling all the paper work, and there seems to be problems with the charity activities tat we have...abt why so many tings are happening... haiz.. tis type of ting... how to reali discuss...haiz...if no one opens their heart...i was tinking of like having tis chalet where we all can do a heart to heart discussion...but the idea seems vague.. and not realli workable...wat shld I do? Sometimes, I wonder is it because of the age tingy, I agree with ______ tat cos we r like "young" so no one reali listens to us, but sometimes there are reali some ppl who bothers to listen and consider our suggestions... so also cannnot say is they nv listen to us... It is all so confusing...
People to people relationships just seem to get more and more complicated when we grow up...there are simply no more of the simple and pure relationship liaoz.. it more of like wat can I get frm u? sometimes even blood does not seem to be thicker than money... well we r all slaves of $$$$....
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Thursday, August 05, 2004
late..haiz..
I'm late again... wong was in the office and told me to write 10.45 as my in time... haiz...
so sianz..I like still got quite alot of stuff not reali done yet...haiz.. well, will jiayou de...
tmr is NE... argh.. haiz.. wat do I noe of the singapore history? hahaz... I reali doubt myself.. no wonder they need a module like NE... its for ppl like me... diaoz...
Tuesday will be meeting judy...to celebrate her birthday... Guess its me n her again...hahaz... tis is so fun.. myb our idea of living next to each other and saving on bills will work... cos we just need to shout across and she can hear... hahaz...
was like having tis arguement with Mum today, she was like saying you are someone who loves sleeping yet u make urself so busy... arghhh...blah..blah... blah... so I have decided I'm not going to be late! must always be on time!
Someone calls you an idiot. Then you start thinking, ‘How can they call me an idiot? They’ve got no right to call me an idiot! How rude to call me an idiot! I’ll get them back for calling me an idiot! And you suddenly realise that you have just let them call you an idiot another four times.
Every time you remember what they said, you allow them to call you an idiot. Therein lies the problem. If someone calls you an idiot and you immediately let it go, then it doesn’t bother you. There is the solution. Why allow other people to control your inner happiness?
-Opening the Door of Your Heart (Ajahn Brahm)
meaningful excerpt I found somewhere ... hahaz..
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Wednesday, August 04, 2004
me? coach? hahaz..
Well, got tis email from adrian liaoz... still wondering wat happen yesterday at anne's place.. well, honestly speaking, I believe in someting --> THERE IS NO FREE LUNCH IN THE WORLD.. as long as I am getting $$$ from u, I will have to do someting for u...
today din managed to wake up again.. well, its like there are alot of ???? and ppl who plan to just take the tpt without paying... haiz... then those who are taking will have to absorb their expenses..haiz...
later will take the train to jurong.. nv go jurong= nv use train pass... now wondering whether to go jurong or just hang in sch.. if taking the tpt I tink will try to go to jurong more often liaoz...
This bike is nice.. if i nv see wrongly is the one tat yuan chang ride in Qiang wei zhi lian..
Me going back to doing project laioz...haiz... next week going cptc.. must wake up... arghhh....
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Tuesday, August 03, 2004
SIANZ!
Haiz! Sianz!!! I'm like alone in school..haiz..I just bought more alarm clocks.. the result: EVERYONE at home is awaken..except me..haiz... then its like so pai seh... haiz...
Went for lunch at gecko.. at first i wanted to go eat at FJ.. but too many ppl, so Xinying, Zheng Wen and me went to gecko and mac, discover the two of them dun reali take chilli..hahaz..
Zheng Wen reali change liaoz.. well, wat simulated tis change? hahaz.. guess it is all out for us to guess... :P
Xinying went for her driving liaoz... wish her good luck! Jia you!
Today din do anyting for the project...all my stuff are in cptc..haiz..
Just finished watching Qiang Wei Zhi Lian...Well, I must say IT IS A VERY NICE SHOW!
Dad passed me extra money for the bus...phew! one less worry.. hahaz..
Feeling super cranky tis days...dunno why.. I just cant feel safe or secure.. reali lost my sense of security and well being, and feel so tensed up..the best part: I DUNNO WHY I AM FEELING THIS WAY! haiz... so if i get too cranky and decide to just shut myself away... i tink....haiz..... i also dunno...just take it as I having PMS okie...
Sometimes, I get so tired and reali hope for a shoulder to lie on, a hand to hold my trembling hand..But sometimes I hope tat i will be able to brave any storm, even if I am alone in the violent sea..I feel kinda alone and sometimes wonder, why? Even if I know all the people around me, I still feel alone...haiz.. This feeling sucks..
I cant find peace...What do I need or lack? I need to know.. Anyone out there who can tell me...
I AM LOST...in a cave with many entrances and just one exit..there is no light..just darkness to guide me..and a broken heart..I need light.. but can be my light...
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