Friday, October 31, 2003
today studied at amk lib cafe again... saw jean danker leh... haha..then two st joseph students go n take some exam stress buster kit... hmmm wonder wat is inside...
at the same time got one ang mo n one hei ren, the ang mo very shuai... haha...
i saw tat st gabriel guy again.. never see the ger tat was staring at him... yest like chain reaction sia... one young ger stare at him, he stare at a obviously older ger... haiz... y now the guys all so strange one...
today library v cold... duno y... haiz...like wanna flu liaoz....
suddenly two girls who moved to the table next to mine is last time xinmin one... b4 i left i pass them a note tell them to gambette... heez... shock them sia... actuali when one moved over she already smile at me... but i act dao cos studied till very tired... haiz... they started gossiping n gossiping... heard so much news abt ppl whom i never see for some time... wonder when got gathering...hope to have those like whole sch old boy old ger gathering... :)
well, hafnt really studied much today... always reading magazines... haiz... hafnt even finish writing pang give the reactor systems tips... so pathetic..... haiz...
REGINA U MUST REALLY GAMBETTE! CANNOT SO SLOW LIAOZ....ARGHHH....
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studied at amk cafe today... cuijie din meet us...her com got prob... then the borther frengoing her house to help her... guess who i saw? shiying was there studying too.. haha.. so winded up studying ith her... today onli study maths... then at nitez read a book abt baby... and tried to start on reactor systems but failed... haiz.. zhen si no determination..
halfway thru study i went down to joshua sch... was raining... then got all drenched... so pai seh...the most stupid ting is tat the teacher was not ard.. another teacher showed me ard... kns... tink i small kid dun even respect me... kns..
haiz... alot of ting to study...yet no time... so sianz... come home onli i dun feel like studying... must go outside then can...
just now at the library idiot fren called me... heard from him tat idiot is okie now... well... i did my part as a fren n msg him ask him he was okie... but he din even bother to reply... was the hatred tat deep... how much pain did i inflict on him... however i wanted a man not a boy.. actuali i suffered too... just tat he din noe n never will.. haha.. who inflicted more pain to the opp party? is it u or me? who knows... how is pain measured? how is love measured? how is hate measured?
well i cant really be bothered now, just now tokked to bangz on msn he got paper tmr, seems very stressed... i also... haiz.. REGINA GAMBETTE.. even bangz is also asking u to STUDY.. so u must jia you... cannot throw lone face... :) well home's definitely not the place to study... so jia you tmr at amk lib cafe... :)
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Wednesday, October 29, 2003
today sucks ah... haiz.. my maths really slow... haiz.... regina gambette...u can do it... today was at amk library then went upstairs... saw some stupid notice saying tat self study can onli be made at 11-1 and 6-9... felt like tearing the notice sia... kns... made me so sianz... no mood to star-dee... then we move to amk mac.. actuali hor made it even worse... okie.. okie... i admit...
I CANT AFFORD TO LOSE.. I M THE TYPE WHO WHEN FALL IS DARN DIFFICULT TO STAND UP AGAIN...I DON'T LIKE TO LOSE... HAIZ..
haiz... darn sianz... i tink i going to slp after i bathe... after come home onli watch tv... stupid tv... so many interesting programmes...sianz... no motivation.. no drive...sianz... motivate me ba... haiz..
blogged at 9:30 PM
today know alot of pa gua.. yuan lai eden last time is cute cute round round one.... meiqi n eden n k guy all is northland ppl..hmmm.... still no mood to study... in the end also slack around... haha.. zhen si useless... somemore let k guy know someting he should not know.. haiz... siaoz liaoz.. next time cannot talk so much... must learn how to be more silent... tmr going amk library study... v sianz... i dun tink i will be enjoying it one lor...
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Tuesday, October 28, 2003
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wah.. din noe i was tat, well another one okie...
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wah wah wah... me unicorn.. haha..
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me got so hot mahz? yah.. i tink so.. my stupid bad temper..
today was suposed to go find quek to ask qn..but... ended up... SLACKING.. haiz.. then pris came to meet me.. then suddenly k guy also come...pris called him.. haiz... was so funny... they talked abt their past...
then we walked out of sch... nyp at nite look so memesering... must find a day to stay back n xin shang.... anyone on? heez...
blogged at 10:32 PM
hmm... haiz... no mood to study even though exams r here... haiz... lazy bum... cut hair again.. wonder wat's happening but i just feelt like cutting n cutting my hair..
yest idiot fren call me to tell me idiot high fever while doing duty.. haiz.. alot of emtions... should give up.. ger GIVE UP!
been hooked on friendster tis days..heez... quite fun.. just tat the website is darn slow..
well meeting the others at ten.. jon joining us later..but heez... update friendster first okie...heez...
I DUN WANA TAKE EXAM LAH.. SIANZ.. BUT THE EXAM IS SO NEAR N I DUNO ANYTING YET.. DIE LIAOZ..
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Monday, October 27, 2003
couple of days have not been here... well a brief update of wat happen...
fri- 24/10/03 was out the whole day.. had meeting at ah ma there.. hang ard till late.... reached home onli abt 12 plus... next day had process n productivity exam...sianz...slept at 2 thirty...
sat- 25/10/03 welll the damage has been done... the two tests suck... actuali is me suck lah... never realli studied... can blame who...ppl study liaoz is their problem... ger CONCENTRATE!
sun- 26/10/03 woke up darn late... haiz... was late for service for home... drats... then went down to ps to meet ohana..heez...thanks for the "bouquet" it was really nice... thanks...had a great time today...
well recently alot of tings are happening... that need my immediate attention.. haiz... wun be updating as much i guess.. anyway cant get to use the com recently anyway... sis n bro r fighting for it always as usual.. haiz... i m becoming transparent in this world... however i believe that to that special someone out there whether or not u r here, i know tat i will not be transparent to u... hope i can find u soon... :X
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Thursday, October 23, 2003
today eyes veri tired... haiz... but anyway..just now make the glasses when down stairs to make it like i had no problem with my eyesight i pull mei down with me... heez... got some promotion there... first time i make specs so cheap... below $200 wor... the guy like never see ppl with tis type of power b4... keep saying no good... must learn to protect my eyes...haiz...mum banning me from late night computer... haiz.. no more mp3...
thanks for the card u all made...heez...
just now ask chong abt process... haiz... now even more blur... zhen si jialat.. duno whether ask him is good or bad... i tink different frequency lah...tat y cant understand..just now mum msg me tell me she buy cake for me out of her si fang money...cannnot let dad noe... heez... din noe she had tat.. haha.. anyway given her spending power, should not be alot too... :X
now in autocad lab.... be going home soon... i guess.. haiz... i onli got tonight to study... tmr got meeting n need to go small uncle hse to help him clean...then saturday got two papers.... die liaoz lah... i havent even study productivity... dun even noe got wat.. haiz..then i still got one big cross stitch at big uncle house there.... haiz... so many tings to do... alot of paper work for society also not done yet... tink i holiday dun work just do tis also duno whether can finish anot... haiz... i need time sia... haiz..alot of it...
blogged at 6:16 PM
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
MY GLASSES BROKE.... THE LENS SUDENLY DROP OUT.... BREAK LIAOZ... NOW NO GLASSES TO WEAR... SO XIN KU.... HAIZ... GOT TO STRAIN N STRAIN... WANA WATCH TV ALSO XIN KU... HAIZ... SO SUAY... BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY MY GLASSES BREAK...
haiz... type also ma fan.... bloggie i go slp liaoz lah... if not sure die... tmr can onli wear contact lenses...eyes must not be tired... if not die.. haiz... tmr mrg just go downstairs the optical shop n make glasses hao le... if put contact lenses n go far far later still must take out... sianz...must hold mummy hand tmr liaoz.... heez... if not i sure bang wall... haha... :X
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now i'm currently in autocad lab...mich n anna r sitting in front of me n r hard at work on their sem pro..just now kk also came in... discovered tat actuali there r alot of problems within the class... haiz.. haiz.. not studying business also got so many problems... mayb already lesser problems than biz liaoz... as compared to... heez... u noe who u r... :X
hope tat everyone can finish the sem pro ba.. may buddha bless....
blogged at 7:14 PM
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i'll be trying to make sushi... heez.. let u guys try asap.. if it succeeds..
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day by day as i grow older, i discover tat i dun wana grow up... but who can stop the hands of time for me...
ppl say growing up should be happy... but i dun find it so.. saw some hongkong serial just now....
kid: y r u so sad n worried?
adult: adult matters kids dun kpo...
kid:then y children matters adult must kpo?
adult:bcoz adult care for kid
kid: then y cant kid care for adult?
adult:tat is bcoz adult wan kids not to worry n b a happy kid..
kid: then u also b a happy adult okie?
adult smiles n off the light for the kid as he sleeps wearing a smile on his face.. tinking tat the adult will be fine.. however the adult still worries abt the problem.. when young, we din really have to worry abt tings as there will always be adults to help us iron it out... but now... we have to stand against the wind n rain... i dun wana grow up... the fears of growing up...
blogged at 2:04 AM
today kena waken up by ringing tone of hp... tot who on earth had watever urgent matter... been having nightmares lately.. so veri scared..turned out to be someone press wrongly... kaoz.. can choose better time to press wrongly... n pls tell me how on earth did u manage to press wrongly? haiz.. zhen si irritating...
today winded up at amk library... saw ah mei frenz ther... haiz... ppl all so hardworking studying for "O" but my sister playing game at home... just now ask her she wana retake o isit? she say yes... *faints* haiz... but thanks to them i got a table n dun need to run around amk central..
got tis gut feeling tat evryone is changing... duno for the best or for the worse.. well, who m i to comment abt tis.. sianz..
just tot of tis few verses when i was at the library today...
the viscious cycle of backstabbing will never end,just like the cycle of gossip, like a wheel moving, it has no start nor end.. it is just moving along..to stop tis cycle someone has to be silent. But can everyone withstand the tranquility of silence?
distance lets us be on better terms with each other, cos upclose, we will see each other's faults...
wat we cant get will always be perfect because we all hunger for tings tat r prohibited.. the distances further perfects it..
now like got endless tings to do... but i just dun feel like lifting a finger... sianz... back to playing game....
blogged at 12:04 AM
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
just reach home a while ago... managed to catch abit of the xi jie shao nian... haiz.. din manage to catch all...anyway,just now take 159 down to ah ma there tat time was so afraid tat i will miss the stop...actuali i nearly did... but heng ah,jiahui took the same bus as me n tell me to drop... if not... haiz... thanks ah.. jiahui..
blogged at 1:09 AM
Monday, October 20, 2003
been a few days since i last log in.. been really busy for the past weekend.. haiz.. saturday got marketing paper.. after tat wentr up to yishun... went home around 1 plus..
sunday went around various homes to send the food stuff n daily necessities ard..discovered that various homes had diffrent attitudes towards they way they store,account for donations..very impressed with bo tien temple.. they really have very good management towards alot of things... we started off similar to them too.. i believe we can also be like them next time... they used about 30 years.. mayb if we all be more united and stuff, we might need lesser time.. heez..gambette regina.. u can do it..
after that went ah me there to discuss about which homes to go to for the remaining weekends of this year.. haiz.. everyone had so many diifferent views..drag n drag.. haiz.. guess everyone will tink tat theirs might be a good idea n hope for it to be used ba..me alos the same.. but everyone is so different..
then went to small uncle house.. heez.. my hp bills still with him.. he say he might be going over to hanoi.. hmm.. wat's wrong with working at nuh? but his house quite nice leh.. well but really small.. the kitchen is worse.. haha.. anyway the most he will use is for cook maggi mee.. guess he dun really need alot of space huh.. :X i tink he might really end up not marrying in tis life time liaoz.. hmm..
at night went to amk central to eat dinner... actuali by tat time i already brain dead n exhausted.. then meet up with big uncle and sue, he bought tis shayer bag for 28.. and a converse pouch... everyone is preparing for the year end trip liaoz... but i... haiz.. dun even noe wat i wana bring.. sianz.. sometimes really can't stand myself.. tired still wana ka jiao.. i went down to the sell bag one.. the woman had the nerve to try to chop me... -_-||| wanted to sell me 40 plus.. haiz... i look so good to chop mahz? haiz.. uncle buy black one... it looks the best there lor.. but the black one tat fella sell me got problem... velcro not working.. zip is stuck.. kns.. so had to make do with a light shade of color.. hmm... still like the black one...
in the end also buy slipper form another shop.. haiz.. slipper open liaoz.. but today i still wear... today too tired to do anyting liaoz.. haiz.. haz.. haiz.. sianz.. sianz..
now got so many hours break.. haiz.. maybe i should go home n sleep for a while or get clothes... forget to bring clothes later have to go ah ma there n have meeting to discuss abt the home again..
anyone who is reading my blog interested to go service any home? got disabled home n old folk's home now..take ur pick..haha..let me know if interested okie.. heez..
blogged at 1:01 PM
Friday, October 17, 2003
back.... now feel so good...heez... everyone is doing someting proper except me.. haiz.. mich n anna doing the prod report, cuijie also doing the prod report, onli me doing noting.. haiz.. anyway, now eat full liaoz.. no mood to study..see jon sleep very tempting.. haha.. solve stomach hungry.. left back pain.. haiz.. if onli got bed here.. heez..
blogged at 1:40 PM
v hungry... can onli hear my tummy rumbling... haiz... food... i wan food... haiz.. today is a very sad day... >_< haiz.. next time mrg wake up must eat b4 coming out.... -_-||| the room very cold somemore..
blogged at 1:09 PM
now in autocad lab again... my back very pain.. haiz.. you lai le... suayness is still ard..today maths dun understand again.. stupid guy.. y must u invent laplace?got the pic in thebook wor... feel like drawing it.. heez..
later need to go to ah ma there.. got meeting.. hmm...like alot of tings to do and no time.. haiz.. so sianz..i dun tink i can juggle so many tings liaoz.. haiz.. yesterday still join some core group tingy.. well it is wat i would have liked to do in the past.. but not now i guess... mayb i not tat out going liaoz... getting more n more pestimistic.. haiz..well since agree liaoz, i will try my best ba..
okie.. i go study marketing liaoz... tink tonight duno wat time go home again..better study liaoz.. GAMBETTE! U CAN DO IT!
blogged at 12:17 PM
Thursday, October 16, 2003
today got night class went down to serangon to eat dinner..took 159 then walk from ave 4 to ave 1,so tempted to go up ah ma there n eat... but guess wat, in the end she put inside tingkat for me her normal GENEROUS servings... haha... now very full... somemore got alot of sugar in my blood... sure cant sleep... but my eyes kinda pain though.... haiz... zhen shi mao tuo.... but got to do pack my cup board first... and my freaking room is really messy....
saw yi mei today, she looking younger n younger, she today work mrg... haiz... karen schedule planning still hafnt improve..she still make it mrg got alot of cashier at nite dun have...actuali i dun really wana go back cos there hold too many meomeries for me... painful ones... but whenever i m there i will still be tempted to go n see how they all r...haiz..idiot me...
today me tok too much again... but really lah... i was really reminded of the past... heez... i remember tat time when we r both trying to solve our dark ring problem... haha... we used everyting we can tink of... like two idiots...i remember when the lemon juice got into my eye, i cried... haha.... now tinking of it also makes me laugh....
i din mean to take a dig at u..anyway, wat ever tat is happening to u now, i wish for all the best to u.... may buddha bless..
blogged at 11:10 PM
did some quiz here are the results:
Needs, and insists on having, a close and understanding relationship, or at least some method of satisfying a compulsion to feel identified.
Resilience and tenacity have become weakened. Feels overtaxed, worn out, and getting nowhere, but continues to stand her ground. She feels this adverse situation as an actual tangible pressure which is intolerable to her and from which she wants to escape, but she feels unable to make the necessary decision
Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense. Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity but tends to hold aloof emotionally.
Feels trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way of gaining relief. Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity providing no turmoil or emotional agitation is involved.
Hopes that ties of affection and good-fellowship will bring release and contentment. Her own need for approval makes her ready to be of help to others and in exchange she wants warmth and understanding. Open to new ideas and possibilities which she hopes will prove fruitful and interesting.
The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond her capabilities, or reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. She reacts by seeking outside confirmation of her ability and value in order to bolster her self-esteem. Inclined to blame others so that she may shift the blame from herself. Anxiously searching for solutions and prone to compulsive inhibitions and compulsive desires.
The fear that she may be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her into a relentless search for satisfaction in the pursuit of illusory or meaningless activities.
kinda true though... heez....
blogged at 1:54 AM
today meet owyong heng... haiz.. tat fella came onli at 5 plus... heng got mich to accompany me... heez... thanks.. started to tok abt our sec sch... saw haibin.... v long never see him liaoz.... really miss my sec sch ppl alot...
recently felt tat alot of tings have changed...alot of ppl have chenged...duno is for the good or for the bad... mayb i m too naive... like wat u once said...u r too naive.... why do u keep escaping...even if u escape the problem will still be there...
mayb is i cant keep up with the changes... mayb is i dun like the change so i chose to ignore it....
haiz... common tests and exams coming.. ppl ard me all know someting... all can say wat is wat... onli i blur blur... but i really dun have much motivation to study... haiz...
bought ear phones for 8 bucks today at fusion... another big expense... sianz...
blogged at 12:55 AM
Tuesday, October 14, 2003
haiz... my lfe is reali upside down.. mayb i tink too much into tings liaoz... argh.. save me...
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my suayness still haven't move away from me... haiz.. today came home along with huiyi duing a two hour break to watch machi didi.. then when we went back to sch her wallet disappeared... haiz... tis is the fourth time i m experiencing tis type of ting... to the one above, thank you for leting her found her wallet... i thank tat IT guy who returned the wallet... thank you... may buddha bless u..however pls dun let me go thru tis again... how many times can a person meet tis type of ting...i must be the v suay person ard to meet up with tis type of ting so frequently..
to e one out there: i will never forget the day when u lost ur wallet... it is becoz of tis then we no longer tokked to eah other... i remembered how our frenz were split btw us... ppl who supported me n the ones tat supported u..
it is not tat i wanted to jump to conclusions... but if u were in my shoe wat will u feel? someone went to ur house n her belongings went missing, mayb u never had tis type of encounter before, it is not like wat u say wat did she offend me tis time? well, i guess all tat i can say is i dun wana go thru it again.. n i cant express myself well..
well, enuff of tat liaoz... after sch i went to cut my hair... now very short... but still like last time the hair style.. haha... duno today is wat day ah... darn suay.. i saw someone who behaved the same way as u... the very "unique" way u will exit the mrt scan ezlink there n the way he took out cigarette is also the same as u... i stupidly followed tat guy back home leh... haiz.. must have freaked out tat guy... so pai seh... haiz.. y m i such an idiot... REGINA NG U BAKA!!! WHEN WILL U BE WAKE UP? NO HOPE! HAIZ!
blogged at 7:42 PM
Monday, October 13, 2003
today saw red shirt... arghhhhh.... he tied his hair... haiyo... look so... -_-||| somemore he tie with those red rubber band tat ppl use to ka pao ting tat type... haiz.. wana so much to pull it out for him... then took the same lift with him n mr foo... he just came back funeral.. tell students tat no lesson... hmm... wonder when i die will anyone miss me? haha.. me starting to think stupid tings again.. feeling kinda left out and isolated tis days...
today chong never come... so got two hours break... then went to student project lab.. zheng wen let me hear some music... quite nice... but the starting abit like... u noe those army movie, when got ppl die tat type of music... then in reactor he kept kivking my cahir... is it leg too long.. so i moved over to the other side... sit at k guy they all there... can see they all very shocked... haha.. wanted so much to ask k guy is it leg long ppl all the leg very itchy? =P anyway, over liaoz.. mayb i abit too much also lor.. like tat move away, but hor.. i not in the bst time of the month.. too bad... u just stepped on my tail... heez..
blogged at 10:59 PM
Sunday, October 12, 2003
went to a old age home today...never been there before,i wonder how will i be like when i get old? hmm.... hope not to live for tat long... haiz... no mood to do anyting... just wana sleep my days away... haha....my com now still like got abit of problem... will lag n stuff... the mouse alos not working... maybe neeed to buy new com laioz... haiz...
blogged at 10:23 PM
u and i r like the wheels of a car... u r the front while i m the rear, i will always just b following u... actually following u beind is someting tat is very tiring, where ever u go i just follow, right or wrong, i dun even noe... all tat i know is i wana be with u all the time.... never will u once turn behind n look at me, not to say tok to me or be concern abt my feelings and tots... i feel very tired... mayb i should learn to detach myself from the car, but i realise tat i could not bear to do so... cos to live n yet not be able to see u is worse than taking away my life.... u r my purpose of living... i wan noting more than being able to stay near u ... even if u dun even look at me... all i wan is for u to be happy... cos i like to see smiles on faces.... pls be happy... even if the one beside u is not me.. at least take me as a fren... it is all i ask for...
blogged at 12:03 AM
Friday, October 10, 2003
today is the sem pro ppt day... xiao wan zi so pissed off with us cos we were late... haiz.. when i present, must have sucked alot... i tink bcoz she was so pissed i got abit more nervous n scared... haiz... if not i should not be trembling till so jia lat...our class as normal got alot of good presenters and some not tat good... i tink i fall into the second group...haiz...but not bad liaoz... thank mr yeo for picking on me in sec 2 and mr pah for giving me the confidence in language whenever i need it...also must thank all the carppy shows i watch... and tat duno wat the name news presenter... i still remember how u tok...till now i tink i still tok abit like u at times....haha.... today lone go marina celebrate birthday... haiz... so many expenses tis mth... today walk ard suntec.... suntec got some ikebana exhibition... v nice leh... haha... but no ppl of my age went in... then i saw tis car outside, with a japan flag on the car... hmmm... must be the embassy or someting like tat... then walk ard.... tot of buying a wallet... but... haiz... resources limited... saw a nice one in wallet shop, can put photos n seperate component for coins... the blue onelooked nice, the white one too.... haiz... i tink can onli buy next mth or dec, tis mth too many ppl birthday... sure broke... -_-||| when i was walking around, saw kk with a guy... not bad looking sia... :P walk ard for a few minutes more, i saw kk again! at another part of suntec... haha... but tis type he with another guy n girl.... haha... so funny... very tired leh.... sianz...
blogged at 10:29 PM
Wednesday, October 08, 2003
finally... my com is up.... haha... but hor... it is REFORMATTED and i have LOST ONE OF MY CD DRIVES.... ONLI LEFT WITH THE CD WRITER as both the writer and the cd rom.... haiz....
blogged at 11:14 PM
finally my com is safe... been spoilt over the few days... now at kangwei hse... haha... offically owe him two meals now... been so stressed out then this... haiz... finally now it is better.. feel so tired both emotionally n physically... haiz... discovered tat i have been too much of a net junkie and addict... must try to get myself away from teh com liaoz... i must destress abit.. haha... but exams coming and i realise tat i dun noe anyting... haiz... must do revision liaoz..... argh! how.... gambette liaoz lor.... but say say then no action.... alwasy like tat.... si xing bu gai..... -_-|||
blogged at 7:24 PM
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
now v tired.... just now buy a cake for dad... today is his bday mahz... ask for icing from the cake shop and i started to draw on the cake... kinda fun though... until tis smalll girl came n say mummy, jie jie hand tremble until like tat how she draw mei mei..... arghhhh..... anyway i can use cherry stalk to tie knot liaoz.... require v long time though.... haha... maybe tings r looking up.... may it maintain...
okiee..... okie...i adfmit.... i m having problems with everyting n everyone... i have decided to tink it over tonight.... instead of doing sem pro... bloggie i will give u ans tmr okie.... heez....
now sending mp3s to every1... haha.... sending the dun wana try to anna n she to huiyi.... jordan chan to kangwei and songs to judy too... bandwidth super used tonight.... LAG.... haiz....
blogged at 12:10 AM
Monday, October 06, 2003
today quekie never come... so here i m at home doing the sem pro... again..... haiz... today must finish... by hook or by crook! this is my own promise... GAMBETTE!
blogged at 3:04 PM
Sunday, October 05, 2003
now doing sem pro... yest do till 2 plus nearly three.... alan n jiahui was online... then he ask me wana go church anot... today mrg went to red cross disabled home... kena kissed by one of the female residents there... tio stunned sia... heez.. but she was really happy to see us all there... got to learn how to count my blessings man.... i m still considered normal.. though i m slow n blur... haha... came home in the afternoon... got so tired slept till dinner time... or should i say room too stuffy so cant slp... haha... then watch happy sunday and a movie on ch 5... as usual channel surf and kena scolding... haiz.. very tired now... whole body ache... anna how is ur back... dun play ah.... got go see doc mahz.... cuijie ur camp how... i will pray for it to be a success... may whole peace and lesser diseasters happen... believe in the power of prayer... all people and beings from all walks of life, pls start to pray... it does help.... it happens when u believe!
blogged at 10:33 PM
Saturday, October 04, 2003
I NEED A LIFE! I WANA GET OUT OF ALL TIS... I FEEL LIKE I M BURSTING... THERE ARE ALOT OF WEIGHT ON ME! GET OFF ME!!! I DUN TINK I CAN TAKE TIS ANY FURTHER......
blogged at 3:26 PM
very tired... stupid sem pro and productivity... like not doing it alot...not enuff effort put in.. tis sem really sucks.... all the dead lines coming... and i duno how to do all the modules.... die liaoz... the sem pro ppt i make until really no standard..... i m putting in all the irrelvant stuff..... duno can pass anot siaz.....
blogged at 2:42 PM
i really wana bury the hatchet... cos i m tired of all tis... i cannnot guarantee i will accept u 100% as before... but i can start by treating u as a fren.... but if u dun... then tat is too bad... maybe it is too late... the hurt is done and the scars are there.... there r scars on everyone... wat we can do is stop hurting and create more scars....
blogged at 12:31 AM
I m just so tired.... really tired...i m darn tired... don't push everyting to me... u have ur stuff to do so do i....so why does it have to be me? ur exams are just as impt as mine... so tell me wat's the farking diff...
age matters alot mah? i dun tink so... dun keep on telling me tat u have the experience... wait till i do it then i will know...
it is very SICKENING! so wat? i mayb younger but i m not stupid...
wat is it tat u all want? all i want is for the benefit of all... it is not for me alone.....
blogged at 12:29 AM
Thursday, October 02, 2003
donated blood yesterday... now the hole is so obvious... haiz... then the flesh around the wound there now is so hard hard one... like no blood sia...
i m feeling so freaking sianz... yesterday was such a bad day... is it my fault? NO.. i dun tink so... u din even bother to ask or say or even do anyting.. watever i do does not get recognise.. so wat? do u tink i care? i may be dependent on u now... but u noe wat to convince me u have to prove it with actions... u may have ur stress and pressure due to certain tings... i have them too... it's not as if u r the onli one who is having rough times.. i m having it too... u may say tat my worries are extra, but come to tink of it so wat if they r? so wat if they don't..
my farking life holds no meaning... is there more to life? haha.. i wish and i hope..
blogged at 2:06 PM
