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Sunday, May 22, 2005

Vesak Day

Well, this is gonna be a long post, so bear with me okie?

20/5/2005 fri

Reached Yishun later mrg...well, unable to change anyting abt the contract, so its gona be $6 an hr..until feb next year..5 days work....

started busy busy once i reached..then later got dad to send me down to sylvia workplace, so sorry to sylvia, was supposed to get lunch for her, but turn out tat by the time i was finally abit free, it was like late afternoon...in the end she only wanted chips...haiz.. like as if tat pack of chips can be substitued for ur meals..got Xinying stuff and supposed to pass to her.. on monday i tink...

oh wells, later went to meet this ger called sheryl to pass her choco buffet tix, waited and slacked at PS, read all the uni stuff...well, guess i actually do wanna further my studies too.. but now? i dun tink tat's possible...

Received sms from Mr Wong tat Shin nuo will contact me..abt meeting up...wells, wat can i do? just wait for her to contact me lo. in the meantime, the one who ask me to do tis de beta not get ur head shaven or go to some offshore island... =X

went back to yishun in the evening and had dinner there, then my entire family went back home to bathe and then i went back to yishun with my brother. went to meet a fren, well, it was pretty much a very wrong decision i guess, shall elaborate more abt tat later, dad knew tat me n my bro went back to yishun, thus, i guess he also came, hahaz.. then made a very interesting discovery abt dad, he was the chess club president in sec sch, i tot he will be just some beng in sch smoking... =X

To the fren tat i met up: sorry u had to take a cab down to yishun, sorry for not being very attentive, i cant lose my dad's trust now..sorry for causing u to kena police check..Thanks for making the effort..no thanks for always asking abt my past, no thanks for always reminding me abt him, no thanks for trying to force me... i'm like a magnet, the more u force, the more i'll repel.

After i went back, had tis talk with shiying, i guess i m not mature enuff to handle stuff, i really m still living in the past...i dunno la... i just wan peace, but apparently, i still cant seem to get it. I tot i got it, but seems like its all an illusion.

21/5/2005 sat

went back home in the mrg, slept till late afternoon..then all the way until sun lo..hahaz..

22/5/2005 sun (today)

The big day! hahaz..this year, not as crowded, but same effects, tired and everyting...in the mrg only, i kept running to the toilet... haiz.. until.. my face went kinda darn pale and SM actually shrieked my name and asked if i'm okie... but big day lehz.. no matter wat, mind over body! and i did it! i survived! hahaz.. as usual, teary will always be the stupid stubborn ger!

Now, feeling tired, sick and worn out...tmr still got the choco buffet... argh... tired..oh ya, supposed to get the hard drive from judy also....cos CY coming to reformat the com on tue.... my first day of work.. wonder how it will be like... my boss, karine, actually emailed me to inform me tat i have to report to LTA on tue.. diaoz... gonna get a mp3 player asap.. to fight off boredom..if not i'm gonna die.. hahaz.. anyone wana give me a mp3 player? hehe... =)

well, some stuff tat i got from a fren's blog.

Love the girl in your heart, not in your mind. If you base your relationship on feelings, it will fail for there are ups & downs in feelings.

Girls are there to be loved, not toyed around. Love her for who she is. Don't even think about changing any bit about her. 6 billion people in this world & 6 billion different personalities. She's special & she will stay that way. You change any part of her, you'll change her forever.Don't substitute her for anyone else, they are just unique in their own ways.

Love whole-heartedly. She sacrificed alot for you so you'd better really treassure her. She could have just got up & date a so much more dashing guy in town but she chose you instead all because of love. So love her guys, not play with her.

Don't just get the girl to beg you to stay or what so ever. If you're with her, love her.Don't cause a strain in the relationship, you'll end up loving each other out of pity or charity, that's not respecting love at all. Respect love the way it is & everything will be the best it can be. I've been there& I know how it feels.Don't expect perfection from her. She's the only one in the world & she's done the best she could.

Like another girl while you're in a relationship? Then I think it's time you remain single for a while.Don't go around breaking girls' hearts, it's the most tragic thing to do.

Tell the truth, never hide anything from her. If you want her to tell you everything, do the same.

Don't go calling other girls "honey" or "darling", how would it feel if your girl calls other guys the same way? Be faithful, enough is enough.Socialise only when you're single. You socialise & flirt around is to get the girl of your dreams. Get it over when she's already yours, don't ask for more.

It never kills to be romantic. Think, be flexible. Getting that diamond ring isn't the only gift for her. Be realistic, she's human & she lives life just like you. Something sweet & simple always get the job done. Money doesn't exist between couples, it's the love.Never promise her that you'll love her forever because your forever might end the next day. Love her as if each day is the last.

Sweet talks only apply for singles, not for attached guys. Do that & you'll really break your girl's heart.

Isn't good being too well-known too, it'll give her a sense of insecurity. Remember, INSECURITY.

Promise her & make sure you never breakit. Swear to her & make sure you keep it. Pledge your love to her & her alone. Loving her is giving her your heart to break it but trusting her not to. Instead, she'll cherish it &protect it. That's love.

Give her your heart, your life,your everything.Lay down your life & prepare to die for her when the need arises. But stay strong & live through another day, she can never live without you. Never, ever walk out of her life. She won't just cry her heart out & carry on living as per normal, she'd die. It her heart that you've broken, how would you ever know how she feels?Winning a girl's heart isn't the final victory.Don't leave her once you've won her love. Love her all the way till the end of time, love her till marriage, love her till old age, love her till death. If you can love her till the end of time, you've earned the honor & respect for you've truly loved her.She chose you because she believes that you can fulfil your promise. Win her heart & love her over.

Remember, the girl isn't a trophy for display,she's someone to love, not to show off to your"friends".Stay humble yet proud that she's the one for you.Respect her for the way she is, never despise her& never mistreat her, never even think of toying with her...

So meaningful and true. how many guys can do tis? hahaz.. NONE. mayb is just tat i hafn't met them ba. wells, life goes on...

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Sunday, May 22, 2005

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