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Sunday, September 26, 2004

some tots....mayb every1 who noes me should read it

okie okie....i noe tat i have been getting really arrogant lately. like the whole world owes me everything. humility's something i seem to have forgotten...i dunno y... but i seem to be getting more n more attitude....building a very thick wall of defence ard me...dun even noe y in e first place i build such a wall....mayb i need it...mayb i dun...

i just dun feel happiness anymore suddenly....tears were welling but didnt drop....when i smile, its not longer frm the heart...there's alot of pressure to please all around me...but how do u please every1?

my head n heart were so heavy and before i knew it i was on the floor crying..i feel the need to hide. i just cant seem to trust anyone with my tots...someting seems to be missing in my life....wat is it?i dunno....

haiz.... why is it to difficult to smile tis days????

wat am i lacking of?? or like wat they say, i should not b so picky n just get any guy...however... how do i explain to a guy tt he will have to accept me for who i m, wat i have to do, am commited to do? guess its not easy huh...mayb i will be beta without a guy? or do i really need someone to b there for me??? religion wise put aside, character wise lehz... below is a short description of me..

someone who rather die than admit she is wrong....
wans pride n face....
stubborn
always wanna win...
not a vey neat person....
commited to religion.. (yes, i believe in cultivating now rather than when u die)
dun take meat....alcohol....(yes, i dun ciong anymore....)
scared of alot of tings,like,dog,cat,failure........sudden shock....try saying boo behind me...
very sensitive to touch... ~>_<~ dun ask me y..i also duno...
very simple person
no money, no looks, no grand family background
eldest in the family = i have 2 younger siblings
wan simple life
slow....
blur blur always
walk 2 fast
no confidence faith trust in herself
tends to look on the surface of tings (superfical)
does not reali spare tot for others (self centred)
don't reali like to share my tots verbally...cos i'm not v good with expressing myself...
always can be come a joke n make others laugh...the worst part?i dunno why they laugh..
always centre of attraction...and i dunno y...

guess i beta stop...b4 everyone simply gets too turned off by me...mayb i shld really sort out my tots..but the ting is.....i cant tink properly...haiz.....watever lahz...

guess i'm not a very worthy tingy ard huh....

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Sunday, September 26, 2004

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