Saturday, May 15, 2004
well.. wanted to blog yesterday... but body too pain...in the end sleep early liaoz..i have tis blue black there at my leg there... haiz... i tink is when climb the flare stack must until de.. haiz..alot of tings happened yesterday.. at cptc, at home..blah blah..
yesterday i saw how fake man can be..haiz..well, but i also saw how one can go all out to help another..
mrg went there then ong lai teach us the other part of the control.. the one tat has the camera and stuff..then the plant manager later tok n tok abt alot of crap, say wat we must be self motivated..must go and look for info ourselves..wtf..i noe lahz.. but the ting is i dun even noe wat the heck to do yet.. kns.. then we went for lunch break..then sometings also happen there..well..sometimes i wonder what will happen..haiz..do i tok too much or is someone ignorant?haiz..dunno wat to say liaoz..mayb wat they say abt the one out of the picture sees the picture clearest is true..darn true..haiz.. life sucks..
after lunch, everyone who needs to go to the field to trace process or watever went to do their stuff, except for me..haiz..i hafnt even met my project supervisor..then pineapple see me like duno do wat,in the end i followed him to the flowserve room,along with siokwye and oskar..haiz...when we reach there poor pineapple had to run ard to look for the key to open the flowserve room.. then there saw koh hf and eric who came to cptc..then after tat cuijie came to look for pineapple..she seems to get along well with james..tat's good..then the unbelievable happened..when i was at flowsrve lab i finally met morgan..talked to him for like abt 3 min..was abt to see a clearer pic of my project..not as blur laioz.. but he says to go look for him on monday.. haiz.. one week wasted..the ting is... if i had not followed pineapple or he had not sympathized with me n brought me to the room(he also dunno wat to do with me, cannot let me go off n dunno wat he can do with me)i would not have met morgan yap at the flowserve room..haiz..then after i went back to the pantry/dining area.. weixiang said tat eric wans to see the students under him..went over to the meeting room and then crap crap crap..he says tis is open clasroom learning,must be nmotivated, must go n loom 4 them ourselves...u wana noe how i feel?there is not enuff communication btw cptc n nyp..the trainers there dun even noe wat to do with us..project students should be briefed better, the cptc ppl should have been briefed, there should be a place for the students to start their work.. but... haiz... more on tat later..then later koh hf said something tat reali argh..
she said tat morgan yap is very good, she also had trained under him b4..then later eric also say tat he is a certified MOM safety officer,then when he say stop work, no one can cont working...since he is setting up the safety centre, i should have volunteered to go n help him... can learn alot..wtf.. i dun even noe where on earth he is..how to help..then also abt the attire n shoes tingy.. they said dun care wat the other poly r wearing, nyp ppl must wear shoes...haiz.. suddenly i feel they very contradicting.. first they say we must be more initated which means we must be like adult rite?then bother so much abt wat we wear.. tat is like as if i m a 3 yr old kid who cant dress herself..m i being trested like a kid or an adult now?tell me lahz...eric also photocopied a copy of our project descrpition then also asked us if we will be given computers..well.. the PLANT MANAGER PROMISED WONG N CHONG WHEN THEY GAVE US THE BRIEFING TAT WE WILL BE GIVEN COMPUTERS OF OUR OWN TO WORK WITH FOR THE PROJECT.. but then... apparently it is like he din reali kept his promise.. cos we r still not given computers..the plant manager is reali someone who reali noes how to bring out his best side sia... tat day at the powerpoint ppt tat chong gave he was like so sneakily go n print out the slides... treat us like prince n princess when the lecturers r here, but once they r gone, we r treated like shit again..suddely i m so envious so those in sch..haiz..theose in sch, u guys r reali darn lucky u noe tat... haiz..
oh ya.. cont back on wat happened at the debriefing at the pantry..pineapple said tat he is not coming on monday...oops...die..then.. he is not able to get the computers for us as they r reserved for e-learning...then he asked us if we will b able to get com when we r in sch..haiz.. its like..WTF..WTF..i wasted one week liaoz lorz..he aslo said he has been like running ard to try to help us..PINEAPPLE,REALI APPRICATE U FOR ALL U HAVE DONE,THANKS.. haiz.. who can we blame? tat day at the presentation wong already sid if wan to feedback shld be to the project supervisor before feedback to sch.. and tat stupid plant manager said tat he dun like having negative feedback to nyp... its like if there is someting positive then of cos we will say it wat, but then now there is ONLI NEGATIVE wat.. then wat? are we suppoosed to lie? in the end alot of ppl r going back to nyp on monday.. well..for me,i have to go see morgan yap..
i have decided liaoz... i will ask all i can think of on monday when i meet morgan, and then if can, i will just go back to school liaoz... sianz..but sylvia sid that now sch alos not much com for us.. haiz..then how..well.. also confirmed tat I M BLACKLISTED AT CPTC..blame it on my impatience lorz... haiz...
well..just hope tat will be able to make it for the 24 weeks..haiz..1st 6 weeks is project 2nd 6 weeks is training with tp students..imagine 17 nyp n a whole bunch of tp students..haiz..3rd 6 weeks is finish the project..last 6 weeks is attachment.. mayb will be co trainer helping them train ite students, mayb is doing other tings.. haiz..
someting abt the blacklisted ting..haiz... been telling myself have to prove them wrong,must jia you.. must be able to finish what ever is given, i will succeed..BUT..i m like losing abit of the found confidence.. haiz.. wtf lahz...cptc sucks..life sucks...sianz...
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