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Sunday, April 04, 2004

who will know the pain in me?my heart is being sliced.. piece by piece..she tinks she is so fcking great...it's always her on the com, always taking my stuff..why cant she get her own?bloody miser...scrooge... even when i wan back my things she also dun give a dammn at times.. still must ask her nicely...who's the elder sis here?just bcoz she's the apple of dad's eye doesnt mean she can do watever she wans or get watever she desires....

I used to be this happy kid.. onli wondered where to go, wat to play and wat to eat... during my weekends will just go out whenever i wish... but now.... my weekends have become routine....i dun seem to have time for other stuff..haiz... mum will tell me all stuff tat no one noes.... normally the " gossips" tat she gets... yes it helps me in the judgement of ppl... but then when i get to noe the dark side of tat person, i will be biased towards tat person... haiz...

all i noe is tat i m darn unhappy now... cant get them out.. i cant smile frm the inside..i cry to slp...but who cares?ppl who once cared so much abt me are simply not there anymore..they either changed or r out of my sight now... all i wan is just one who really cares...i need a shoulder to cry on,ear to listen to me,heart to be with me..and also mouth to talk to me and to hold me when i need it...But is there such a person still? i doubt so... haiz....

yesterday went back to xinmin for homecoming.... oh wtf... i lost my way....at least they r moving back next year... hahaz.... the one at hougang ah.... i close my eyes also noe how to get there... been there for 4 years liaoz mahz...

after all tat shit... there is someting tat happen during the week tat made me kinda happy... :D :D :D

I will be going to amk library the cafe after e service of homes every sunday...from tis week onwards... cos of someting tat happened today... heez...

there's tis guy who... haha...gonna make myself sound like a despo..... but oh well... good tings r meant to be shared rite?heez... i went to the lib to meet my auntie today.... then i ordered potato chunks... when tis guy served my food... he say u Nyp ah...i also nyp lehz..u wat year... i was like so stunned...cos he kinda cute.. :P i was like thinking, u tokking to me ah... then i say yupz... yr 2... not hoping for anymore conversation, i cont looking at my stuff.... then he say i yr 4 lehz....i went huh? then he laughed said cos he repeating mahz...and walked back...then he was like send food always must walk ard my table, stare at my tings...haiyoz... :P then when there was not alot of ppl and he was packing the chairs, he came over and talked to me while arranging the chairs.. he said he yr 4 cos he every sem also repeat...then he asked wat faulty i was in... i said chemical n life sciences, then he say he engineering..then he asked life science and chemical v good rite? i said good also no use... SCL is using engineering blk... lvl 4 and 7.. then he say he he is lvl 6... below me... diaoz.. like tat also can... he win liaoz..but i realised someting..the cafe is alot more noisier than normal with him ard.. when nearing the closing hours... he on the radio v loud... he seem to like onli the "loud" music.. he was like singing along with it...e ger even asked him to shut up...hahaz..but my auntie say he bluff me i also believe.. haiz.. is he?i dunno.. just wanted to make myself happy i guess...even if it is just out of plain zi xiao i also dun care.... at least it brightened my day... :D

last time me also like tat happy happy... tok to any stranger also can happy...but... now.... haiz...

attachment is on 10 may... no money somemore.... wat can be the most suay ting... haiz... must try to get other job while on attachment..... if not i jialat....so sickening... 8 may is last paper.... then 9th may is the class gathering.. (looking fwd to it --> K bOx!!!!!!! anyone interested? i will start saving money... :D ) but 10 may is the stupid attachment.... haiz...

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Sunday, April 04, 2004

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